Captain Raymond Holt of the NYPD 99th precinct knew it was over when he returned from the sweaty taint of Florida and Kevin wasn't waiting for him.

Kevin had never returned from Paris, apparently coming back only once to take some things from their home.

According to Sargent Jeffords, he had tried to take Cheddar with him. He had only relented when Gina had threatened to disembowel him. Also, despite their harsh ending as a married couple, neither truly wanted to put their beloved Cheddar through the hell of international travel.

Whilst in Witness Protection, Terry and Charles has taken turns caring for Cheddar. The poor dog had been over the sun when he sensed his owner walking through the front door.

Admittedly, Holt was very pleased to see the only old part of his life still there for him.

His home quickly became too quiet for his tastes. When he had lived with Kevin, quiet classical music often echoed through their home. Or the subdued murmur of Kevin's colleagues discussing one thing or another.

Holt hadn't disliked this. He'd loved Kevin and went along with the things which made him happy. Though, admittedly, their interest usually did coincide.

But now, as he petted his small dog who had made himself comfortable on the couch, Holt knew he was missing something else. Something other than his old life before Florida.

He missed the one good aspect of the hellish life there.

Being able to spend so much time with Jake.

Jake. Jacob Peralta. Detective Jacob Peralta.

Larry Sherbert.

Honestly, letting the marshal pick their new names had been a mistake. Jake would have come up with something far more entertaining and fitting for Florida.

Captain Holt hated to admit it, but he missed Jake's loudness. His boisterous and comedic attitude. The ridiculous obsessed with Die Hard.

Not to mention how utterly brilliant he was when it came to being a detective. Yes, Jake was incredibly childish but with proper encouragement Jake did very well.

The problems with Jake stemmed from his numerous issues with his Father. That thought lead to a string of much more problematic ones. He liked Jake's body, even with those ridiculous ice tips that he'd become damningly found of.

What was worse was when the dark skinned man thought about the combination of Jake's Father issues and taking claim over the small body.

Pushing those thoughts out of his mind for now, Holt got to his feet. He needed to make dinner for himself, and set out Cheddar's.

He would deal with these troublesome thoughts on Jake Peralta, later.

Later, or more preferably never.

That night, while the captain laid alone in his bed, thoughts he'd rather not deal with sneaked into his dreams.

He was in his office at the 99, working quietly as the rest of 99 was out. His office door cracked open, a familiar face poking in.

Jake stepped into the office after Holt gestured him forward. Despite the cold winter of New York, Jake wore the familiar sleeveless shirt from their Florida days. The darker shorts he wore were definitely unfamiliar. They cut off around mid-thigh and were significantly tighter then anything Holt had seen on Jake before.

The light of the dimming office hit Jake's dyed blonde tips making them almost appear white.

"What are the you doing here, Peralta?"

The younger detective grinned, the same dopey grin that meant he had done something that was going to annoy Holt.

"I can't just come in to see you?"

"Not on your day off." Peralta scoffed, closing the door behind him. Reaching over to close the blinds while Holt watched.

The precinct captain didn't move as the detective walked around the side of the desk, pushing Holt's chair away in order to climb atop the elder man's lap.

"Jacob, what are you doing?"

A pair of skinny white arms wrapped around Holt's neck, Jake's legs straddling over his boss's lap.

"I told you, I'm here to see my Daddy." The brunette's soft words, followed by a chaste kiss which was really nothing more then a press of lips, went directly to Holt's groin.

Not satisfied with the simple kiss, Holt pulled Jake back. One hand on the back of Peralta's neck to keep him steady, Holt kissed the younger man.

The younger's touch was like fire on Holt's skin- it burned but he wanted more. He needed it.

"Captain," Jake pulled himself back, an odd look coming over his face. "You need to tell me."

Holt woke up with a subdued gasp in his bedroom. Sweat dripped off his forehead, an uncomfortable hardness between his legs. His blankets had been kicked to the end of the bed, Cheddar nowhere to be seen.

Sitting up against the headboard, Captain Holt knew he wouldn't be getting any more sleep tonight.

Not with the mental images of Jake repeating in his head every time he tried to think of something else.

Going down the stairs to make coffee, Ray wondered momentarily how impossible the idea of getting into a relationship with Paletra. The first problem was that, as far as he knew, was that Paletra was still in a relationship with Santiago. Unless, they hadn't been able to reconnect since they reunited.

Not to mention, he wasn't even sure what way Jake swung. Was he bisexual? Maybe he was on the Asexual spectrum? Jake talked a big game, but as with many things Jake talked a bigger game about things he was ashamed of.

Aside from dating Santiago, had Jake ever even been in a healthy relationship? Or one that lasted beyond a handful of nights or a single date?

If he wanted to pursue Jake, which some insanely huge part of him wanted to, then he would have to show Jake how to be in a relationship.

Did he want to do that? He was so much older- which was an entirely different problem.

Yes, undeniably yes. He wanted to give Jake all the time and care in the world. There was someone hiding under the immature obnoxious child- a smart clever detective whose pain had made him into someone unbelievably attractive.

Ray sipped his coffee, watching Cheddar nibbling at his breakfast when a series of sharp knocks hitting his front door. His small dog ignored it, ever the guard dog. Cheddar hadn't been trained to be one, why have him get into danger when a perfectly able cop lived in the house?

The officer had just stepped into the entry hall when his front door opened. A small part of him terrified that Kevin would walk through the door.

Did he even want to be with Kevin? After spending close to 25 years with him, did that all mean nothing?

Based off his numerous dreams- last night's hadn't been the first and his heart no. He wanted Jake now. He wanted Jake for the rest of his life.

His being Jake's because he had a distinct feeling that the younger man not only didn't have a dentist but probably hadn't a General physician.

God what did he want with Jake? Did he want to be the boy's father or his lover? Both? What would Jake want? It was ridiculous but he would give it to him. He'd give Jake anything.

Thankfully instead of Kevin, it was Gina.

How had Gina even gotten into his house? Had she done this before.

"We gotta talk big guy."

Immediately Raymond knew there was something wrong, based off the bags under Gina's eyes and the slight tussle to her hair. She strode past him, into the kitchen where she started to pour sugar into the coffee cup he had moments ago been drinking from.

Now as he was very much accustomed to his assistant's behavior he said nothing as he poured another cup for himself.

However, he did give a little glare when she hopped onto the counter, crossing her legs underneath her.

"So, as you may or may not know, Jake is my deepest and closest friend."

The captain cocked a brow at that "Deepest?"

"And now he's all freaked out because of all that time you guys spent in Florida so you really gotta nut up or shut up."

"Peralta's freaking out?" His mind was going about a mile a minute from this information no matter how much he tried to slow it down.

"Yeah man, he's totally head over heels for you. And trust me, Captain even when he was kinda into Amy it was nothing like this."