This isn't how it was meant to be...
We were meant to be free together, like how you told me we would be all through my childhood. Was it lies, brother? Is everything you told me in my childhood a lie?
I miss you, this seems so pointless without you. Now Da's gone off out to a late bar in Scotland, out for a box of fags or wherever. It doesn't matter, I'm alone now, too alone so I can finally see a way, some way out of this. My ultimatum.
Scotland, Wales- Ian, Bryn I'm sorry. I would say goodbye in person to you but you would stop me and Wales your lectures are a fate worse then death. I would suggest you stop breaking into song every time you try to make a point. Uncle Scotland, as much as I dread seeing you again and I know you and I will end up in the same place as we always do. You better bring whiskey with you... Look after North, Da won't and he needs a big brother, he always will... Make sure he knows it's not his fault, this is my decision to make.
France- Mr. Bonnefoy... Where do I start with you? I promised not to say goodbye to you, under any circumstances which makes this most difficult. You were a (far too) friendly employer but at, you showed me love and kindness when no one even acknowledged that I had feelings of my own. You had the patience to teach me French and I learned some of my favorite tunes from you. If Austria attacks via the sewers again, you know what to do, hopefully you'll be fully clothed but you being you, that's highly unlikely.
Spain and Portugal- My cousins and Godparents. I... I guess I'll finally get see if I'm really as similar to our granny as you said. Portugal, as promised the recipe for salted butter is on it's way to you. I really enjoyed fishing with you I hope that you remember to invite North to visit you next summer to keep the tradition going. Spain, I'm afraid that you and Romano are harvesting tomatoes on your own this year, but on the bright side my sunburn will no longer be a source of worry to you.
America and Canada- My brothers in all but blood. Look after yourselves. Canada don't be afraid to speak up and out. You have a good heart and voice that should be heard. America if you invade anyone- I mean anyone no matter what you think, no matter how justified you think it is I will come back and haunt you... You both saved me in the famine, and I gave you what I could in return and hopefully a lesson or two in alcohol consumption.
My final dedication to England. Your reaction will be the hardest for me to gauge. Miss me or not? By how much we fought you must have wanted me around right I don't know... Even death won't keep us apart, not in the grand scheme of things, with all the mass murders under your belt and me killing my self, hell for us might be a room with no windows or doors. Or maybe I'll just have to eat your food for all eternity? Sorry needed to throw one final insult at you... Look I've been angry with you because North chose you over me and it was easier to hate you then him. I don't really hate you.
I've done my best to leave as little mess as I could. I know my actions are cowardly. Maybe you'll miss me, but let me be selfish. I no longer feel bound to the world, my people will live even if I don't, North you'd better keep the alive and well. In this I say goodbye to you, all of you. No bullshit saying at the end.
Ireland
Elbha-Mary Kelly.
