Manda's Note: I really really really really really don't like Scott. But I'm not going to rant today. I'm just mentioning. Ok so I was just in the middle of working on the next chapter of Under The Stars and this just fell out. So now I'm going to shut up with this author's note and I'm gonna go back to what I was doing before. The next chapter will be out shortly. I apologize that things are taking so long for me to get done.


It's because when he kisses her it feels… alright.

The way he closes his eyes and leans in

His hands gently holding tightly to her waist

Soft and careful against her lips

As though he's trying really hard to make her feel it

He's told her he feels the spark

And the way he's holding her proves it

It's sweet

Everything she should want

Everything she deserves and needs

But

Every time he touches her or kisses her she aches

There's nothing more she wants then to feel the other one

The other one's lips on her neck, her body, her mouth

To have his body moving against her

As much as it feels like she's been touching a hot fire when she touches the other one

It feels so good

Because of the way he looks at her

Not with the sweet gaze she's seeing now

But with a fiery passion and a requited love that needs badly to be tamed

She misses the fire to his touch

The precision and the perfection

She misses his confused gaze

There's not a thing about him she doesn't miss

But for now this will do

Because Scott is a nice guy

She'll give him a chance, let him be gentle

But, he's never be her Nate

No one will ever make her feel the way Nate makes her feel

She'll shut her mouth though because she knows one of these days things will change

He's be back begging for more

And she knows, she knows she'll requite whatever he wants

Because the truth is Nathaniel Archibald is an addiction

He's her addiction and she doesn't want anything else

For now she'll play along

Slide into the good girlfriend routine

They'll hold hands and walk the streets

He'll silently observe art galleries and indi movies

The things that Nate never did

Yet, she'll always remember what the back row of Angelika's is for

And she'll glance at it from a far

Because she is most certainly never going to sit there without him

There are so many things Scott doesn't know

So many things he'll never be able to fill or do

But for now she'll kiss him

She'll let him have a shot

But he'll never be the one she wants

Because her heart is taken

And just like the puppy dog sitting on her bed

Nate will come back

He always does

And when that happens

Things will be ok

And she'll stop pretending to be someone she's not