Manda's Note: I really really really really really don't like Scott. But I'm not going to rant today. I'm just mentioning. Ok so I was just in the middle of working on the next chapter of Under The Stars and this just fell out. So now I'm going to shut up with this author's note and I'm gonna go back to what I was doing before. The next chapter will be out shortly. I apologize that things are taking so long for me to get done.
It's because when he kisses her it feels… alright.
The way he closes his eyes and leans in
His hands gently holding tightly to her waist
Soft and careful against her lips
As though he's trying really hard to make her feel it
He's told her he feels the spark
And the way he's holding her proves it
It's sweet
Everything she should want
Everything she deserves and needs
But
Every time he touches her or kisses her she aches
There's nothing more she wants then to feel the other one
The other one's lips on her neck, her body, her mouth
To have his body moving against her
As much as it feels like she's been touching a hot fire when she touches the other one
It feels so good
Because of the way he looks at her
Not with the sweet gaze she's seeing now
But with a fiery passion and a requited love that needs badly to be tamed
She misses the fire to his touch
The precision and the perfection
She misses his confused gaze
There's not a thing about him she doesn't miss
But for now this will do
Because Scott is a nice guy
She'll give him a chance, let him be gentle
But, he's never be her Nate
No one will ever make her feel the way Nate makes her feel
She'll shut her mouth though because she knows one of these days things will change
He's be back begging for more
And she knows, she knows she'll requite whatever he wants
Because the truth is Nathaniel Archibald is an addiction
He's her addiction and she doesn't want anything else
For now she'll play along
Slide into the good girlfriend routine
They'll hold hands and walk the streets
He'll silently observe art galleries and indi movies
The things that Nate never did
Yet, she'll always remember what the back row of Angelika's is for
And she'll glance at it from a far
Because she is most certainly never going to sit there without him
There are so many things Scott doesn't know
So many things he'll never be able to fill or do
But for now she'll kiss him
She'll let him have a shot
But he'll never be the one she wants
Because her heart is taken
And just like the puppy dog sitting on her bed
Nate will come back
He always does
And when that happens
Things will be ok
And she'll stop pretending to be someone she's not
