** Author's Notes: This is my first CCS fan fiction and I hope you enjoy it! I LOVE feedbacks so feel free to send them good or bad. Ok so in the first chapter I rewrote a bit of history so Syaoran never told his feelings for Sakura. Hope you enjoy!**
This was written about 1 or 2 years ago.. I never posted it here but it's somewhere else on the internet.. can't remember where though.. '^.^
Disclaimer: They all belong to CLAMP! I'm not making any money out of this.
"blabla" - speaking
* blabla * - thinking
Enjoy!
So Close, yet so far
By Nermal (nermal83@sympatico.ca)
Chapter 1
"Syaoran!!" yelled Sakura turning the corner of the Tsukimine Shrine entrance with her bright smile as usual. He turned around and looked into her gorgeous emerald eyes where he usually lost himself in. * Why am I doing this again? I can't hurt her like that? Damn! She is just so beautiful and fragile. She is going to hate me after that... yet, isn't that the point? * he thought to himself while she was catching up with him. He looked down * I have to do this, no matter what I have to do this for my family. * he thought while raising his head to find her few inches from his face. He stepped back blushing really hard and fell on the ground. She smiled and offered her hand to help him up. He blushed more furiously and shook his head.
* Get a hold of yourself Syaoran! You have to do this! Damn! *
He looked deep down in her eyes feeling as if his heart was going to break. "Sa.. Sakura". She looked at him puzzled then saw the straining on his face. "Daijobu Syaoran?" she asked worried. He just looked at her with amazement . He was about to do the stupidest thing of his entire life yet her concern for him just took out all of his will away from him. Her pleading eyes demanding an answer were just to much for him. It really hurt him, to know he had no choice to go back to Hong Kong. "Yeah.." he replied still lost in his thoughts.
He had thought of the perfect plan. Well it seemed perfect at first but now that she was next to him, he didn't want to do so anymore. He didn't want to hurt her so much just to make her mad at him so it would be easier for him to go. He didn't want to face her either and to tell her he was leaving. It was just to much. "Are you sure? You don't look so well. Maybe you should go home and rest." She said taking him out of his thoughts. He looked at her, his whole body trembling. "I... I'm fine Sakura. I.. I just wanted to tell you that.." he looked down a few seconds then she came beside him grabbing his shoulders. He turned his head. " I'm sorry Sakura!" he struggled away form her embrace letting a few tears down then he ran away hearing her crying his name. He knew she was following him, she was actually worried for him but he didn't look back. * She will forget me someday, and so will I. *
She lost track of him soon and decided to go back home. She really was worried about him. It was not like him, well not anymore to run away like that. * What could have happen to him. * she thought then she collapsed on her bed.
The next morning Tomoyo called Sakura telling her Syaoran was leaving. Sakura rushed toward the airport hoping to catch him and to tell him to stay, that she loved him even though he didn't love her back but she arrived too late and saw him getting on the plane. He turned around abruptly sensing Sakura's aura and saw her through a window where she was standing her fists on the window, her head down and crying. "why didn't you tell me?" she whispered. "I'm sorry Sakura... this was too hard for me" he whispered as he got on the plane and looked one last time at the girl he had truly loved.
Sakura stayed at the airport the whole day... staring through the window where her love had just gone out of her life... but not from her heart.. she would cherish him as long as she could, hopping that one day... he would come back to her."
Days passed, then weeks, then months, then years and Sakura had not heard from him but still cherished him.
7 years later
"Ohayo Sakura" said the gang as she ran into class just in time before the bell rang.
"Ohayo" she replied with a sad tone that only Tomoyo seemed to notice. She sat next to her. "What is it Sakura? You don't look like usual today."
"7 years Tomoyo... it's been seven years today... and I still can't get the picture out of my head. He left.. without even saying goodbye." She repressed a sob and some tears.
"Oh sorry Sakura... demo, don't you think maybe it's time to move on? I mean you pushed away every guy that even got close to 3 feet from you." "They're just not Syaoran.. if only he would have felt the same way toward me. Why am I tormenting myself with this anyway. I tried to forget him but every time I do this feeling only gets stronger and I feel even more lonely than before." * So far yet still so close to my heart * she thought.
She had grown a lot. She was now 18 and she was more beautiful than ever and every guy in her school had tried to pierce through that shield she had around her heart yet no one succeeded. She kept cherishing those moments she had with Syaoran and she kept closing in on herself.
That night she couldn't sleep. She decided to go to her favourite spot to clear her head. She jumped up the tree at the Tsukimine Shrine and just looked at the stars." 'I miss you so much Syaoran... so so much." She started to cry and took out the card that had formed from her tear the same night 7 years before. A tear fell on it and it started to glow a little but not enough for her to notice for her eyes were all blurred form crying. "Oh Syaoran.. I wish I could see you" she placed the card back in her bag and headed home.
This was written about 1 or 2 years ago.. I never posted it here but it's somewhere else on the internet.. can't remember where though.. '^.^
Disclaimer: They all belong to CLAMP! I'm not making any money out of this.
"blabla" - speaking
* blabla * - thinking
Enjoy!
So Close, yet so far
By Nermal (nermal83@sympatico.ca)
Chapter 1
"Syaoran!!" yelled Sakura turning the corner of the Tsukimine Shrine entrance with her bright smile as usual. He turned around and looked into her gorgeous emerald eyes where he usually lost himself in. * Why am I doing this again? I can't hurt her like that? Damn! She is just so beautiful and fragile. She is going to hate me after that... yet, isn't that the point? * he thought to himself while she was catching up with him. He looked down * I have to do this, no matter what I have to do this for my family. * he thought while raising his head to find her few inches from his face. He stepped back blushing really hard and fell on the ground. She smiled and offered her hand to help him up. He blushed more furiously and shook his head.
* Get a hold of yourself Syaoran! You have to do this! Damn! *
He looked deep down in her eyes feeling as if his heart was going to break. "Sa.. Sakura". She looked at him puzzled then saw the straining on his face. "Daijobu Syaoran?" she asked worried. He just looked at her with amazement . He was about to do the stupidest thing of his entire life yet her concern for him just took out all of his will away from him. Her pleading eyes demanding an answer were just to much for him. It really hurt him, to know he had no choice to go back to Hong Kong. "Yeah.." he replied still lost in his thoughts.
He had thought of the perfect plan. Well it seemed perfect at first but now that she was next to him, he didn't want to do so anymore. He didn't want to hurt her so much just to make her mad at him so it would be easier for him to go. He didn't want to face her either and to tell her he was leaving. It was just to much. "Are you sure? You don't look so well. Maybe you should go home and rest." She said taking him out of his thoughts. He looked at her, his whole body trembling. "I... I'm fine Sakura. I.. I just wanted to tell you that.." he looked down a few seconds then she came beside him grabbing his shoulders. He turned his head. " I'm sorry Sakura!" he struggled away form her embrace letting a few tears down then he ran away hearing her crying his name. He knew she was following him, she was actually worried for him but he didn't look back. * She will forget me someday, and so will I. *
She lost track of him soon and decided to go back home. She really was worried about him. It was not like him, well not anymore to run away like that. * What could have happen to him. * she thought then she collapsed on her bed.
The next morning Tomoyo called Sakura telling her Syaoran was leaving. Sakura rushed toward the airport hoping to catch him and to tell him to stay, that she loved him even though he didn't love her back but she arrived too late and saw him getting on the plane. He turned around abruptly sensing Sakura's aura and saw her through a window where she was standing her fists on the window, her head down and crying. "why didn't you tell me?" she whispered. "I'm sorry Sakura... this was too hard for me" he whispered as he got on the plane and looked one last time at the girl he had truly loved.
Sakura stayed at the airport the whole day... staring through the window where her love had just gone out of her life... but not from her heart.. she would cherish him as long as she could, hopping that one day... he would come back to her."
Days passed, then weeks, then months, then years and Sakura had not heard from him but still cherished him.
7 years later
"Ohayo Sakura" said the gang as she ran into class just in time before the bell rang.
"Ohayo" she replied with a sad tone that only Tomoyo seemed to notice. She sat next to her. "What is it Sakura? You don't look like usual today."
"7 years Tomoyo... it's been seven years today... and I still can't get the picture out of my head. He left.. without even saying goodbye." She repressed a sob and some tears.
"Oh sorry Sakura... demo, don't you think maybe it's time to move on? I mean you pushed away every guy that even got close to 3 feet from you." "They're just not Syaoran.. if only he would have felt the same way toward me. Why am I tormenting myself with this anyway. I tried to forget him but every time I do this feeling only gets stronger and I feel even more lonely than before." * So far yet still so close to my heart * she thought.
She had grown a lot. She was now 18 and she was more beautiful than ever and every guy in her school had tried to pierce through that shield she had around her heart yet no one succeeded. She kept cherishing those moments she had with Syaoran and she kept closing in on herself.
That night she couldn't sleep. She decided to go to her favourite spot to clear her head. She jumped up the tree at the Tsukimine Shrine and just looked at the stars." 'I miss you so much Syaoran... so so much." She started to cry and took out the card that had formed from her tear the same night 7 years before. A tear fell on it and it started to glow a little but not enough for her to notice for her eyes were all blurred form crying. "Oh Syaoran.. I wish I could see you" she placed the card back in her bag and headed home.
