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"Jacob, do you think this is going to take much longer?" Leah asked, waiting for to lose his grip, for him to let go and allow instinct to take over. She smirks as he glares up at her, his teeth clenched together, his anger at her intrusion evident.
"Do everybody a favor and jump of the cliff, Leah." He pointed towards the edge nearby. "After all no one will even care, especially not Sam." A smug look crossed his face.
This is what they did, hurt each other with the truth, knowing that one of them would end up losing control and surrender to the temper and animal instinct. Both of them knew how to make the other break and used it against each other every opportunity they had.
"Come on Jakey," she began, choosing her words carefully in order to find the exact words that would hurt him the most, "Get over that stupid leech lover she is bound to him for all of eternity. She chose him. She wants him, not you." Her words held no sympathy for the fellow wolf in fact it was packed full of spite and venom. Why should she feel pity when no one ever gave it to her? "Kid, You have no idea how hard this for me." Leah continued, oblivious to Jacobs shaking fists despite his efforts of self-control. Let the games begin.
"Do you really thing I care what's hard for you?" He stared at me incredulously. "Do you really think anyone cares what's hard for you?"
Leah paid no attention to anything he said. She had already heard everything he and the rest of the pack thought about her. Besides anything he could say about her was already said through his thoughts, so why should she pay attention to him. "Just look at it from my perspective for a minute, ok?"
Jacob looked up at Leah, laughing for a moment. She really didn't know when to stop. Oh how he hated her, everyone did, because of the poison she spilled. Was there any kindness in her heart at all? Did she ever feel pity for someone other than herself? Or was she to caught up in all of her emotional drama that she couldn't see anyone else suffering.
"This is making me sick, Jacob. Can you imagine what this feels like to me? I don't even like Bella Swan. And you've got me grieving over this leech-lover like I'm in love with her, too. Can you see where that might be a little confusing? I dreamed about kissing her last night! What the hell am I supposed to do with that?" Leah needed to get everything she thought about Jacobs sick obsession over Bella Swan in the open. She was tired of him making it all about him, everyone in the pack felt the same, though they were to loyal to tell it to his face. "I can't stand being in your head anymore! Get over her already! She's going to marry that thing. He's going to try to change her into one of them! Time to move on, Jakey."
"Shut up," Jacob growled, feeling close to his breaking point. How did Leah do it, how come she was the only one who made lose his self-control. She didn't have the right to say anything after all the shit she put the pack through everyday since she joined them. Leah would pay for making him feel like this. So close to the edge of losing his control over his feelings. Jacob took a deep breath and calmed himself enough to momentarily stop the small tremors. He knew better than to let Leah Clearwater, get the best of him…right?
"He'll probably just kill her anyway. All the stories say that happens more often than not. Maybe a funeral would be a better closure than a wedding." Leah continues, smirking. She felt good, so much for the betas self-control, the boy was breaking and Leah was enjoying every minute of it. It was time for him to realize what true pain feels like. It was time for him to feel what she felt when Sam imprinted on Emily.
"If you're upset about gender confusion, Leah...," He starts, standing up and walking towards her, stopping a few feet from her. "How do you think the rest of us like looking at Sam through your eyes? It's bad enough that Emily has to deal with your fixation. She doesn't need us guys panting after him, too" Jacob knew better than anyone how much his words would affect Leah, he had used it to his advantage many times. He knew the pain even the mention of Sam's name would bring to her and didn't care.
Agony pierced her heart at the mere mention of Sams name but Leah did her best to remain composed. But she couldn't stop the surge of nerves to her hands. Curling her hands into fists in an effort to stop the tension from building up, Leah gritted her teeth as she spoke. "I least I realize that what I feel for Sam well never be corresponded, but you, ha. You cling to the hope that one simple kiss brings you. You expect her to running back to you, proclaiming her deep love for you but deep down you know that well never happen. She loves the leech, not you. Never you!" she hissed the words, piling as much venom into her vice possible. Ignoring the fact that her arms were shaking now. "Get a clue Jakey," she yelled, "She has wanted the leech from the start and that will never change. Never! She chose him and she will become one of them because of her devotion to him. Your pathetic whining will never change that."
By now Jacob was just as riled up as Leah, if not more. He was using all of his self-restraint at that moment to keep from attacking Leah right then. "Sound familiar, right?" he said taking a step closer to her. "Sure Bella chose Edward from the start, but Sam dated you for awhile before falling in love with Emily. He chose a girl he barely knew over you. He was never in love with you and everyone knows it." The words continued as Jacob was utterly unable to stop himself from losing control. Everyone expected more from him, he wasn't supposed to fall victim to his temper, never. But right then nothing mattered, except inflicting as much pain possible. He revenge. "You say I should get over it but when will you get over Sam. He never loved you and never will. Emily is everything to him and you're nothing. You call me pathetic but what about you. You cling to the memories of Sam and you when its evident hes over it. Move on Leah, move on. Stop making the pack members lives a living hell. Don't you get it, everyone hates you. No one cares about you."
Leah was the first to phase. She growled and ran at him, her body exploding with a loud ripping sound. Giving in to her temper she sped towards him, and in seconds he'd transformed. The larger of the two, was positioned on the defense of the confrontation in a rather intimidating position, teeth bared. The angrier looking one, smaller in size but equally as strong and powerful as her counterpart, was shaking with anger and looked as if she was ready to attack at any moment. They jumped at each other, thoughts indistinguishable in the blindness of rage. She clawed at his belly, biting his harry neck. He flipped her off him, biting at her exposed nape. She felt a slight stinging where he had bit her, but it hardly registered. She knew that he was larger than her, but she was certain her anger was much stronger. She pinned him to the ground, her claws digging into his flesh. He howled and freed himself. Scratching ruthlessly at his back with her claws, Leah growled and bit down into his shoulder though she knew the wound wouldn't last more than a few seconds. Why was she even fighting him when no true harm could come to him, Leah abruptly freed herself from the fight, retreating a few feet away and glaring at Jacob. "Your not worth it. No one is." She thought, turned around and started walking away from him, phasing back as she went.
Jacob stared after her before phasing backunableto believe that she walked away from a fight. "Leah, wait." Jacob didn't know what caused him to call after her but something in her eyes begged for him to make things right between them. Something inside of him, begged him to stop her from hurting. Something so strong and immense that jolted his heart into over-drive.
Leah froze and turned around waiting for him to attack her verbally.
"Im Sorry, I went too far." Jacob said walking towards her. "I never wanted to intentionally hurt you but you got under my skin and i retaliated badly."
"You have nothing to apologize for a started the argument and I knew the consequences. I just didn't want to admit to myself the fact that you were right. It has been me all along. The one who has been hurting every single person in the pack. Its all my fault!" Leah could feel her voice rising with every word she said, her emotions overflowing once again. "Don't you think I hate myself for hurting everyone else around me? I do it intentionally even when I know it's wrong. I am a bitch and everyone hates me, everyone. I hate myself beca…"
Leahs words were cut off by Jacobs lips crushing into hers with a passion she had never felt before. He wrapped his hands around her waist and pressed her closer, intent on making her shut up. Leah moved her hands to the back of his neck and tangled her fingers on his shaggy black hair. She brought him closer, she needed him closer. Leah could feel his own hands traveling to the small of by back. Leah pushed herself away and stared into his eyes.
"Jacob I …"
"Don't talk, not now." He said cutting her off again before leaning down to capture her lips again. Neither of them had any idea if they were doing this because they suddenly felt something for each other than hate of because the wanted to erase Sam and Bella from their thoughts. Leah also didn't know if Jacob had given her the first kiss in order to shut her up and stop her hideous rambling. Despite all this both of them had to admit that holding each other felt right. Kissing each other felt great and being together seemed like destiny. They were both so alike. Full of passion, of temper, of loss and of passion. No matter if they seemed to inadequate for each other, all that mattered was their feeling inadequate together.
