A/N: It's suppose to be in Jacobs point of view after Bella broke his heart and then Nessie coming into his life, my apologizes if it was confusing.
As you read this listen to this song
Keep Breathing - Ingrid Michaelson
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Acting selfish is one way to go when your heart has fallen on the floor with a grimacing 'crack'.
The touch of another's fingers make you jump and pull away. Everyone's voice sounds like hers and soon you have to lock your door all day and stuff towels and other fabric in the cracks because you fear of love trying to come back again. You block out all sounds, all thoughts, everything.
You become silent and slowly permanently broken.
You shut yourself inside your closet because it's the one place where the warmth of the sun won't shine. Nobody will find you there with swollen eyes and sticky cheeks from your tears. Your body is frozen in a position that is most uncomfortable, with your knees attached to your chest and your arms around your legs.
You've left your heart painfully throbbing on the floor and when you walk by the scene it doesn't dare move, the last thing it wants to do is to bring you more pain.
It's impossible to think that you would still feel anything afterwards. You're so numb and vulnerable that you can't lay in the bed you shared with her without breathing her in.
Friends try to call you, but your phone is turned off. You get letters in the mail from your family and other friends, they are left untouched on your kitchen counter because your afraid of what others would think.
You are alone.
You are left to mend your poor heart.
You are expected to have the strength to move on, but that is far from possible.
There is too much pain and you are just one person.
But enough will soon be enough and you will have to one day unlock your door and wash all those towels and other fabrics that you stuffed in every crack.
You will have to open your window and breathe in fresh air.
You will have to go and throw away all the things she left behind and realize that it's time to be happy again.
And when you will walk out the door there will be somebody new out there with your heart in their soft hands and you will hear your heart beating the same rhythm as theirs.
You can welcome their touch and their hugs and kisses because it feels right.
You can't stay broken forever and you will soon realize that.
Because things happen that are terrible and life-changing, but all we can do is slowly move on.
All we can do is keep breathing.
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A/N: I wasn't sure who I wrote this for, but I'm glad I wrote it.
It's suppose to be in Jacobs point of view after Bella broke his heart and then Nessie coming into his life, my apologizes if it was confusing.
I hope it didn't go by fast, I tend to write at a quick pace.
Hope you all liked it :)
