Dean Winchester is one of the bravest men I have ever known. He was loyal, selfless. He spent his whole life dedicated, protecting his little brother Sam, and the rest of the world for that matter. But as every man knows that every human life has to end at same point and Dean's life ended on this day. Dean was full aware that at same point his time would end. He knew that the time to say goodbye was coming and he knew what that meant.
"Where do I start? There are so many things that I could say, some many words are needed to be said, most of them I needed to said to you face to face, but... I guess this will have to do. I never thought that I would be doing this, never thought that I was going to be the stand here."
The flames were colliding with each in the wind's breeze. It very cold on that day, where Sam Winchester was speaking to burning body of what last remains of this brother. He stood there for a while, just staring at the flickering flames. But then he spoke.
"I'm sorry for how this ended, for what I put you through. I wanted, I wanted... This wasn't how it was supposed to be. I never meant for any of this to happen. I screwed up" Now the words were followed by tears. "I screwed up because that's what I'm best at doing. And you're dead…" There was a slight pause between the next few words because he didn't want to accept. "This is all my doing; this is all my doing"
Sam spent the rest of the time without saying anymore. I think we all know what was going on inside of that mind of his. He blamed himself for everything that had happened.
Dean never died in vein, he never died having regrets. He died an honest man, a loving brother. Yeah he made mistakes but that's what makes us human and at the end of the day, nobody's perfect. At times he was absorbed by self-loathing and would blame himself for every life he couldn't save or every mistake he had made. Everyday he sacrificed his life to save others. He never thought that he deserved to be saved, that he wasn't good enough for people but none of that was ever true.
Sam and Dean Winchester didn't have much. They didn't any sorts of luxuries or anything fancy that everyone else had. None of that stuff mattered to them, they didn't need it. All that mattered to them was each other. Family was, is, the only thing that a Winchester really treasured. As I said before, at some point lives will end.
But it's what your life is filled with that makes it special. There are never goodbyes in this world. When the time goes Sam will be reunited with his brother but for now he must wait for his turn.
"I wish that things wouldn't end like this. All ever wanted was my brother. You took mother, my father and now my brother. I have nothing left; you have nothing to take away from me. You took everything I ever cared about, so what now? What will become of me."
