Humans. Weak creatures. We are all born with selfish desires. It is up to our environment and the people who raise us to teach us to care for others. The definition for selfish is lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure. The word used to define me. Now, it cannot hold a candle to what I have evolved into.
From the beginning, I had set my sights on a family whose name was well known. They had tarnished my father's name and stolen my childhood from me. Yet they survived unscathed, living their life and fortune to the fullest. I hated them. Loathed them. Despised them. Detested them. No, there seemed to be no word in the English dictionary to describe what I felt about them.
I formed a plan. Not on my own of course, back then I had been naïve. I was new to this kind of game and I had helpers to guide me and mold me into what I am now. To help me catch up with the Grayson's. I am forever in their debt.
Then, of all people, he was the one to catch me off guard. Not at first of course. I ignored him at first. Then I played with him, allowed him to think we were partners in crime. Then the worst thing possible happened. I began to trust him. More and more I expected things from him. I looked forward to the nights he would appear on my porch, near my window or front door.
He thought I was stupid. Not about my revenge. Not about conducting my revenge. Not about agreeing to marry Daniel. Not about denying Jack's feelings. He thought I was stupid because he thought that I didn't notice. He thought I didn't notice those glances. The shaky breath. The comforting touches. He was convinced that I thought the only reason he was sticking around was because of my father.
The thing is, about us humans, is that we are weak. We can die in so many ways. Countless ways. We are breakable. Disposable. Forgotten. I thought I had things under control. I thought a lot of things.
Confucius wrote; "Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves."
One for thine enemy…and one for thine friend.
