So yeah here's another fanfic for my favorite 5986 duo. :)
This time it's rather an Angst/Drama type. Well this is my first time on writing a sad story since I hate them but it was inspired when I faced a rather sad event that time. Well please do read and review still. :) And please do read my other fic "I Love You, Stupid" a 5986 fic as well. :)
DISCLAIMER: I don't own KHR if I did I'll make 5986 a canon. :) Lol. :)
Enjoy. :)
Gokudera's POV:
For a very long time, I had my eyes fixed on you.
I never knew when or how it started. I just knew that my gaze kept on following you, analyzing and burning every inch of your image on my head, in my memories.
Unconsciously, I've been watching you.
I've watched you on how you dazzle when you're happy...
"Gokudera-san, you're such a baka you know that" Haru cheerfully said when Gokudera knocked down a red paint on him while they were doing their class mural when they were still freshmen in high school.
"Crap! This is all you're fault stupid woman!" Gokudera scoffed as he tried to wipe-off the paint off him.
"Hahahahaha! Like it was Haru who did it, Baka" she teased.
"Stupid" he uttered under his breath as lovely pink tint coloured his pale cheeks.
...And every time I see you, you'll never fail to instantly take my breath away.
And I also watched how your tears will glisten in the night when you're sad.
"It hurts...Gokudera-san, Tsuna-kun...he won't return my feelings...h-he fell for my best friend...I know that t-there was a b-big chance of this happening but...I still hoped that h-he'll f-fall for me, the one who pursued him for t-ten years" Haru cried.
"Just cry, stupid woman. I'm here, so just cry" Gokudera patted her as she kept on crying as she holds onto him under the clear night sky.
I also watched you when you flare up each time by my words only to get myself more drawn towards you.
"Tsuna-san!" Haru jumped enthusiastically only to be surprised that Tsuna was not the one she bumped into.
"Stupid woman! Bumping into me this early in the morning, how the hell would others believe that you're a high schooler when nothing you do is lady like?" Gokudera sneered.
"Hahi! Well excuse me, it's not like Haru wants to bump into you either..." She inhaled before letting out another angry comment to the sneering young man in front of her "...And for the record, Haru is a proper lady with beautiful manners not like someone I know!" and then she stormed out leaving Gokudera smirking to himself.
I saw how you tried to force a facade upon not showing them you're real feelings, yet I know since I've always been watching you from a far.
"Kiss the bride! Kiss the bride!" the guests at the Sawada-Sasagawa's wedding reception cheered for them as Tsuna lean towards Kyoko for another kiss.
At that time, Haru was standing at the farthest corner of the room and seemed to smile happily yet hurt was clearly evident on her brownish eyes.
At the same moment, Tsuna's lips landed perfectly on Kyoko's cherry red lips, Gokudera rushed towards Haru and gently covered her eyes only to feel Haru's warm tears flow down to her cheeks.
"Don't cry stupid woman" Gokudera uttered comfort was clearly seen in his tenor.
"Hahaha! Haru's happy. I-It's tears of j-joy" she croaked as she felt Gokudera's hand held hers for comfort.
I really felt happy that time, when you thanked me, when all I did was listen to you; it touched me more than you can ever know.
"Gokudera-kun...Thank you...for being there for me all this time" Haru said as tears were starting to fade away as smiles replaced them.
Gokudera didn't utter a word in response; instead he let out a comforting smile that assured her that it's fine and that he'll always be there for her.
You didn't know how hard it was for me to leave you that time, so I never said my good bye 'cause I can't bare to let you see my face when I said those words, so I just left a hint that night.
"Hahahaha! Your being a jerk again, you know that?" Haru casually laughed at Gokudera as she gracefully sat at the swing in Namimori Park.
Gokudera smiled then his eyes turned gloomy as he said "Ne, Stupid woman, I'll miss you"
"Hahi?" Haru gaped, surprised at his sudden statement.
"Hahahahaha! You're really weird right now, Bakadera" Haru broke again into laughter.
"Yeah" Gokudera shrugged.
"I'm sorry Haru...I just can't bring myself to tell you that I'll be leaving. Because I don't want you to see my reaction upon telling it you" Gokudera thought and just smiled at the laughing Haru.
The moment I arrived after five years of longing for you, the first stop I took is not to greet the tenth, no; it was you that I seek first. But then, I really don't understand the sudden coldness that surrounded you that time. But I know that it was my fault for not being able to contact you for almost four years since my father in Italy kept on insisting that I should get married to some woman I don't love and successfully cut all means of communication towards you in the process of my retaliation.
"It's been five years, since I last saw you stupid woman, did you miss me?" Gokudera smirked.
"I know. Uhm...yeah Gokudera-san...you coming by later? It's been a while since the gang last saw you, well the others in a matter of fact since I know you and Tsuna still saw each other every time he went to I-Italy"
Gokudera blinked the shock he got from the sudden coldness that Haru displayed towards him and just nodded to confirm that he'll be attending the party.
All Gokudera thought that time was to say sorry to her for everything, He thought that if only he can reach Haru and hug her for forgiveness he'll do it, but he didn't because he froze in fear...in fear of rejection.
I've kept on watching you even though you found another man who'd took you lovingly in his arms, just about I arrived to see you, after those long five agonizing years of disappearance, just when I've decided that I'll confess to you after the party, while dismissing the apparent fear of being rejected by you on my mind.
"I'll tell her after the party. I will. Not after all these five years I'll let go of her. I want her to finally notice me...this time I'll tell it to her straight...this time" Gokudera thought as he was slowly mustering the courage he'll need to confess later that day.
But that courage was broken to pieces when Yamamoto stood up and announced the dreadful news to them.
"Everyone, I just want to let you all know that Haru and I are dating" Yamamoto beamed as he tugged a blushing Haru closer to him.
"Finally, after what three years Yamamoto-kun? I'm so happy for the both of you" Tsuna cheered.
"Congratulations! Haru-chan!" Kyoko alongside her friends said in congrats the new couple joyfully.
Gokudera's eyes widened upon hearing this both in disbelief and regret, it sure hit him like a bomb.
"Congratulations, Baseball idiot and Stupid Woman, you both deserved each other" Gokudera said with all the courage he mustered as sadness filled his heart before turning away from the new couple.
It hurts me to say this but I really love you, and I hate myself for not telling you that earlier. My mind always wandered about the possibilities we might have shared if I did tell you my feelings. It saddens me as 'what if questions' kept popping up on my mind making my heart yearn and ache more until that damned faithful day.
So how was it? Don't worry It's not finished yet. :) Well please Read and Review. :) Thanks A Lot ;)
