KOMC: Hello everyone, this is my first Inuyasha fic and it's rated the way it is for high angst, language, drugs, violence, and other things.

Chapter Summary It introduces Kikyo and Kagome and their problems and stuff, Not to mention it's probably really OOC, andI am sorry.

Disclaimer: No I am afraid I do not own the great and marvelous Inuyasha. ((sigh))

Pairings: Inuyasha/Kagome, Miroku/Sango, Koga/Ayame, Sess/Rin, Kik/Suikotsu Ban/Jakotsu. Slight Koga/Kagome, Hojo/Rin, Sess/Kik

Kagome

'Position one'

'Position two'

'Position three'

The words echoed in her head as she moved gracefully, sweat rolling down her face, feeling dizzy, but she slapped herself out of it, trying her hardest to concentrate, her feet burning a little from her ballet shoes, as she tried the positions again.

'I have to try harder', she thought.

"Kagome?" a voice said, echoing off the gym walls, catching her attention.

"Ma Ma, I thought I told you that I was going to be back at eight", Kagome said gently, twisting her tutu with her fingers.

"I know", her mother said smiling," but I thought I could give you a ride home".

Kagome said nothing, her mother rarely did anything like this, she was always too busy with her little brother, and barley noticed her, and with her father gone and everything, no one really noticed her except those losers at school who only wanted one thing sex, and falllse friendship, but she didn't want that kind noticing, she wanted someone that she cared about to notice her.

That's why she had to be the best, to make her mother actually notice her.

Sighing, she grabbed her stuff and followed her mother out to the car.

Kikyo

She sat looking out the window, her blue grayish eyes studying the sakura tree that grew in the yard.

'They always liked those trees', she thought grimly, remembering her parents that recently passed away a few years ago.

Her head snapped at the sound of a car pulling in the driveway, her aunt Higirashi steeping out of it along with her cousin Kagome.

Her aunt took her in when her parents died, and for that she respected her, but thinking of her cousin just depressed her even more, it wasn't that she hated her cousin, it was just she was so perfect.

Kagome had beautiful glossy and wavy ebony that trailed down to her butt, and bounced when she walked, Kikyo hand thin stingy black hair that dully went to her knees. Kagome had beautiful brown hazelnut eyes that shimmered with life, Kikyo had Grayish bluish eyes that she was picked on for, and a sad glint were always in them. Kagome had a perfect body and had almost everyone in their high school looked up or was ogling her and sometimes evenboth, Kikyo had no friends and no looked at her.

Kikyo sighed softly when she heard the door open.

"Kagome sweet heart, would you like me to warm up some of tonight's dinner for you?" she heard her aunt say in a gentle voice.

"No, thank you," Kagome said a little too quickly and ran up stairs to her room, probely to change clothing,the door slamming a bit, making Kikyo's eyebrow arch a bit.

"I just don't understand her sometimes", her aunt said shaking her head a little. "Goodnight Kikyo", she said afterwards heading upstairs to her own room.

'Weird', Kikyo thought. 'Kagome hasn't eaten in a couple of days.' Kikyo paused in her thoughts; 'she probably has tons of people taking her to lunch everyday.'

Kikyo tugged on her sweater, man she hated the stupid itchy thing, but she knew she couldn't take it off, then people would see, they would see how pathetic she was, she bit her lip and her hands trembled, she promised her self that she would quit after the last time.

"This one will be the last time, I promise, and I haven't did it in a whole week", she whispered softly to her self, 'besides what harm could it do'.

With that said she went into the kitchen and grabbed a decently sharp knife, and ran up into the bathroom, pulling her left sweater sleeve up revealing numerous cuts along her whole arm and pressed the cold metallic to skin, letting the crimson liquid drop into the sink.

Sighing gently, she felt so much better, everything drifting away softly, making a small smile come to her face as fresh tears fell freely from her eyes.

Kikyo jumped when she heard a knock from the door, her eyes widening as she quickly turned the sink on, the waterwashing all her blood away and takeing it down the drain, taking a towel and softly wiping the blood from her arm, growling softly when she heard a knock on the door again.

"One second", she said trying to sound calm, as she yanked her sleeve down to hide her fresh cut.

Opening the door to come face to face with her cousin.

"Hello Kagome", Kikyo said in a pleasant voice, quickly trying to move out of her now confused cousin's way, stopping when she heard her voice.

"Kikyo, were you crying?" Kagome said in concern, surprising Kikyo.

"Yes, I tripped on one of Souta's little video game controllers and hit my nose on the coffee table", Kikyo lied, noticing Kagome's eye turning sad at the mentioning of her little brother Souta.

"Are you okay?" Kagome asked plastering a smallsmile on her beautiful face that Kikyo and a few other girls would kill for.

"Yes, now if you will excuse me, I have to go to bed", Kikyo said dully, running to her room.

Kagome

Kagome highly doubted that Kikyo bumped her nose, it didn't even look bruised, but she wasn't going to force her cousin to talk to her if she didn't want to.

She opened the bathroom door, flicking the light on and stared blankly at her reflection in the mirror, frowning when she looked at her waist, her eyes narrowing at her reflection with self loathing.

She just had to have that damn muffin, but it wasn't all her fault, stupid Aya girlgave it to her, telling her to eat it at lunch, because she came up with an excuse that she forgot her lunchat home.

She felt hot tears burning in her eyes.

"Ballerinas are not fat she told her self bitterly", a few tears falling from her eyes, as she fell on her knees in front of the toilet, lifting the lid up, and put her pointer finger down her throat, the fluids leaving her body, afterwards panting from exhaustion from lack of sleep.

She tried to stand up, her knees shaking wildly as she trembled a little, she didn't have time for this shit, she had to practice, flushing the toilet, she tried to calm her self, her body stopped trembling along with her knees, but she still felt light headed.

Sighing she stumbled to her room to practice more. She had to get better, no matter what.

KOMC: Yes it's a little…weird, but it will get better, and I know Kikyo and Kagome are a little OOC, and its really slow.

Kikyo: Damn straight.

KOMC: Anyway, but I am trying as hard as I can, Please Review and tell me what you think even if its a flame, I really dont care,just review