A Way to Put the Pieces Back Together.

Chapter 1.

Sabrina stood in the cemetery just staring at the area of disturbed ground now filled with dirt. A Piece of cardboard in place of the marker that was being made to let people know who was buried there.

Gabriel Drake Santiago.

Her Son.

Her Reason for Living after Patrick broke whatever heart she had.

From the moment she read the Positive Pregnancy Test she thought her life finally had purpose that even in her Darkest Hour there was a sliver of light just waiting to burst through.

And in an instant it was taken from her and she was lost once more, once more in the darkness with no ray of light in sight, just never ending Darkness that was threatening to overtake her completely.

She hadn't spoken to anyone before, during or in the moments after the Funeral, Felix was ever the supportive best friend and held her hand throughout it all and only left her side when she said she needed to be alone.

How could she come back from losing a child?

How Do You Bounce Back From That?"

Sabrina walked over and sat by the rectangle of dirt that now had her baby buried underneath it.

"What Do I do now?"

The dark clouds above released the rain that had been building up all day but still she stayed still letting it drench her as her sobs released from her body.

"Why did you take him from me?!" She shouted up towards the clouds knowing she would never receive an answer.

"You take EVERYTHING away from me!? Why? What have I ever done to deserve nothing but Misery and Pain?!"

Sabrina laid her head against her knees and wasn't sure when her tears combined with the rain and didn't really care.

She felt someone kneel beside her and wrap an arm around her shoulders

"Felix please I just really want to be alone right now."

"It's not Felix."

Sabrina looked up to see a worried Patrick looking at her.

"I thought you left."

"No I've been here Felix took Emma to Anna's"

"Is she alright?"

"She's sad but she is more worried about you, we are all."

"I'm fine."

"Sabrina you're not fine."

"Well If I'm Am or Am Not Fine it's none of your concern anymore."

Sabrina got up and started to walk towards the parking lot.

"Sabrina." Patrick said standing up.

"Oh My God you can stop pretending. "Sabrina said turning to face him.

"Pretending? What do you mean?"

"You can stop pretending like you give a damn about me now our son is dead you have no connection to me what so ever now so you are free to go live your life Happy and Free with Emma and Robin."

"Sabrina I do care about you."

"Oh that is BULLSHIT you don't care about me, you never did you only pretended to love me when all I ever did was love you, from the moment we met I was in love but I was only fooling myself right, I was the Adult still believing that real life can be a fairytale, that I could get my happily ever after well guess what Patrick my life will never be happy because every time I am Happy something happens and I'm miserable again. You have a family you have Emma and Robin you can stop this Charade that I was ever significant to you because I know now I was just the woman you thought you could replace your dead wife with and when she returned from the Not so dead you threw me out like I was yesterday's garbage and just hopped right back in the sack with your wife which clearly means you got over me fairly quickly while I was crying my eyes out, still a fool in love with the man who broke her heart, And then I read the pregnancy test and I was so happy, I was going to be a Mom, I was finally going to have a little family of my own, have someone love me unconditionally and someone I knew would never break my heart and from that moment I was in love with our son, But once again God decides that I haven't had enough heartbreak in my life, I lost my mother, was Abandoned by my father and had my heart broken by men left and right and you know what Patrick I am Tired of Being the Victim, I'm tired of being a dartboard for every needle of pain and tragedy that comes my way, I want to be happy ...No I DESERVE to be happy. So you don't need to come here and ask me how I am doing because now that Gabriel is gone you have nothing that ties me to you anymore so why don't you go find your wife, bring her hoe and forget all about me."

"So you Think I was never in love with you is that it?" Patrick said.

"I don't know what I know anymore all I know right now is I want to go home."

"Alright I'll have Felix drive you."

"No not home to my apartment...home to Puerto Rico."

"Sabrina..."

"Coming to Port Charles was a mistake..."

"No it wasn't Sabrina."

"Yes it was...Goodbye Patrick."

Sabrina walked off and her figure started to blur as the rain went into his eyes as his tears ran out of them.

#################################Sabrina hastily threw clothes in a suitcase on her bed.

"Are you sure about this girl." Felix said leaning on the doorframe.

"Positive."

"Look you don't have to leave let me help you through this."

"Felix I love you, you know that but I can't stay here."

"Why Not?"

"Because every time I pass that NICU I will fall apart, and every time I drive down the road the accident happened on I'll break down and I can't do that, I need time to heal and I can't do that here."

Felix hung his head.

Sabrina walked over to him and lifted his head up.

"I'll be back you know in a month or two."

"I know I just wish you didn't have to go through it alone."

"I won't I'm staying with Juan and Becky they will help me through it but I'll miss you most of all."

"Even more than Emma."

Sabrina froze when Emma's name came up.

"Oh my god Emma I can't leave without saying goodbye."

"I wish there was a way you didn't have to go through this Pain Bri."

"I know but I am and I'll be okay but you need to stay here and see where this Lucas Jones thing goes."

"Felix chuckled "I'll give you daily updates."

"You better."

Felix hugged Sabrina

"I love you Bri."

"I love you too Fe."

There was a knock on the door.

"That is probably Juan can you go open it?"

"Sure this Bestie." Felix said.

Felix walked into the living room and opened the front door and as Sabrina predicted was met with Juan Santiago.

"Hey Juan."

"Hey Felix." Juan shook Felix's hand before walking in as Felix closed the door.

"Where's Sabrina?"

"She's finishing packing."

"How is she holding up?"

"Today has been good so far but I can tell she is holding it in."

"Yeah she does that a lot."

"Take good care of our girl will you?"

"Of course always do."

Felix smiled as Sabrina entered the room.

"Hey Juan."

"Hey Prima." Juan walked over and hugged her. "You Ready?"

"Yeah ummm is there any way we can make a pit stop?"

"Sure, I'll take this out to the car and give you two a moment." Juan said leaving the apartment.

Sabrina turned to face Felix.

"I hate goodbyes." Sabrina said getting emotional.

"This isn't goodbye girl it's a see you later."

Felix hugged Sabrina and kissed the side of her head.

"I love you." Sabrina said.

"I love you too."

Sabrina gave him another hug before walking to the door and waving before leaving.

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Sabrina walked up the path she took many times before to get to Patrick's front door.

She knocked hard and heard footsteps approaching as she took a deep breath and let it out when Anna opened the door.

"Hi Anna."

"Sabrina what a lovely surprise come in."

Sabrina walked in and cringed when she saw Duke, Mac, Felicia, and Maxie sitting in the living room with Patrick and Emma.

"Sabrina!" Emma yelled hopping of her father's lap and ran to Sabrina nearly knocking her over.

"Hey Emma." Sabrina said hugging the little girl who she had come to love like her own.

"Are you here for the party?"

"What Party?"

'It's Uncle Duke's Birthday today."

"Oh is it? Well Happy Birthday Duke."

"Thank You Sabrina, You're welcome to stay if you'd like."

"No thank you, I have to get to the airport."

"Airport? You're leaving?" Emma asked looking up at Sabrina with the saddest eyes.

"Yeah Emma I'm taking a trip."

"Where?"

"I'm going back to Puerto Rico."

"No you can't go."

"Emma it's only for a little while."

"That's what my mommy said."

The room got deathly quiet and Sabrina took a seat on the chair.

"Come here."

Emma hopped on Sabrina's lap.

"First off, I'm not your Mom Second, I need a little vacation to deal with my grief and become better so I'm not sad all the time."

"You can stay here I'll make you not be sad." Emma said.

"I'm sure you could babe but this is something I need to do, you want to know something?"

Emma nodded her head.

"I did a list of reasons why I should go and reasons why I should stay and your name was on the top of reasons why I should stay you, Felix and the rest of my friends here are the reason why I want to stay but I need to go away for a little while and then I'll be right back here."

"You swear?"

"I swear."

"Okay on three conditions."

Sabrina smiled "I think I know what these will be."

"We have to Skype at least once a week." Emma said.

"Done."

"When you get back I'm the first ne you see."

"Done." Sabrina said chuckling "And the last one."

"You really do have to come back because you're my best friend."

The last condition brought tears to Sabrina's eyes "You got it kiddo."

"Can I ask one thing?" Emma said.

"Sure honey."

"Can you please come back in time for my dance recital in two months?"

"I can try."

"Okay." Emma gave Sabrina the biggest hug that she ever gave and kissed Sabrina on the cheek.

"I love you Sabrina."

"I love you too Emma."

Sabrina heard a horn honk outside.

"I need to go now."

Emma nodded and gave her one last hug before hopping off.

Sabrina walked to the door and waved to Emma and said goodbye to the rest of the houseguests before walking out the door.

As she got to the cab she got in while wiping tears out of her eyes.

"You alright?" Juan asked.

"No but I will be."

Juan nodded and told the cab driver "Alright time to go to the Airport."

Sabrina looked out the window at the Drake residence one more time before taking off.

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A month and a half later.

Emma, Felix and Patrick all stood in the elevator leading up to the tenth floor at General Hospital.

"I told Epiphany no 911 calls today I have no one to watch Emma."

"Well just leave her with me I can watch her until you're done."

"Thanks Felix."

The elevator doors opened and they walked off and spotted Epiphany.

"Alright Epiphany where's the 911 call at?"

Epiphany turned and pointed to a room.

"In there, the nurse inside will give you the details and Dubois you are need in there too."

"But what about Emma?"

"She can go in it's not that bad in there."

Patrick grabbed Emma's hand and led the way before stopping at the door.

"Emma you stay right out here." Patrick said.

Emma nodded as Patrick opened the door.

"SURPRISE!"Sabrina yelled as the door opened revealing herself to the three in the hall.

Felix and Emma both darted and hugged Sabrina.

"Whoa!" Sabrina said hoping she wasn't split in half by the force of them hugging her.

"You're back!" Emma said hugging her as tight as she was afraid she might disappear.

"Yeah I told you I would be."

"I missed you girl." Felix said.

"Missed you too Fe."

"So you're the 911 call huh?" Patrick said entering the room for the first time.

"Yeah I wanted to surprise you guys."

"Well mission accomplished." Felix said.

Sabrina laughed.

Epiphany walked in "Alright now that the welcome home party is complete we need to clear the room"

"Aww you know you missed me Epiphany."

Epiphany looked at Sabrina and chuckled "Welcome back Santiago." cracking a little bit of a smile.

"Good to be back."

Emma hopped up and down "Sabrina do you work today? can we play today?, can we hang out today?"

"Whoa, Whoa, Whoa slow it down Ems." Sabrina said laughing.

"Sorry I'm just happy you are home." Emma said.

"I didn't notice." Sabrina joked causing Emma to giggle.

"Alright so what do you want to do first?" Sabrina asked as they walked out.

"Well Sadly I have to get to work." Felix said

Sabrina pouted "No."

"Don't worry we'll catch up tonight." Felix said and looked at Patrick "Or tomorrow."

"Alright love you."

"Love you too girl."

Felix gave her a hug before taking off.

"Guess it's just the three of us now."

"Yay." Emma squealed grabbing Sabrina's arm and pulling her to the elevator.

Patrick walked into his house and Sabrina followed with Emma fast asleep in her arms.

"Here I'll take her." Patrick said. "Take a seat I'll put her in bed and be out

"Alright." Sabrina sat down and looked around and noticed a few changes but the one that caught her eye is that no Pictures of Robin were around.

"That's strange."

"What is?" Patrick said re-entering the room.

"Where did all the photos of Robin go?"

"They're in Emma's room."

"Why aren't they out here this is where Family Photos go."

"Robin and I are in the process of getting divorced." Patrick held up his left hand sans his wedding ring. "See."

"What? Why?"

"After Gabriel died." Patrick said sitting down next to Sabrina on the couch. "I started having dreams about him, him as an infant, as a child, him as an adult...I know it sounds crazy."

"No it doesn't I had them too, I still have them sometimes."

"Really?"

"Yeah I dream about what he would look like, what his personality would be like, would he be a mama's boy or not."

"I think he would've been."

"Patrick if you want to talk about Gabriel we can, we can talk about whatever you want."

"Robin didn't think like that, I thought once she was done with Jason that she would come home."

"Wait who is Jason Morgan."

"Wait Sam's husband? I thought he died."

"Well so did everyone else, Robin didn't go to Africa she went to Bring Jason back to life or something like that and when she succeeded I thought then she would come home and be a family again and help me through the grief, she came home for two days just enough time to let us know she was needed somewhere else, so I gave her a choice she could stay here and help me and Emma through our grief or she could leave and the Divorce Papers would be drawn up, I guess she thought I was bluffing."

"Patrick I'm sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry about."

"Why didn't Emma tell me when we skyped?"

"I told her not to, I said this was your time to heal."

"I would've came back if I had known."

"Exactly why I didn't tell you."

Sabrina looked at him.

" It's hard you know I took Emma to the park the other day and I saw a father playing with his two sons, one of the boys was named Gabriel, I had to stop myself from breaking down."

"You don't need to hold back Patrick, let it out, I'll help you through it."

Patrick looked at Sabrina "You know when I was dreaming about him, I pictured him looking like me but he was selfless and caring and loving like his Mother."

"I had the exact same picture in my mind too."

"But we'll never know will we."

"No."

Patrick wiped a stray tear from his eye.

"It's alright Patrick let it out." Sabrina said rubbing circles on his back as he laid his head in his hands and began to sob.

Sabrina pulled Patrick in a hug and continued to soothe him knowing it was now his time to heal like she had done.

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The next day Sabrina was at the nurses' station when Felix came up to her whistling.

"Someone is in a good mood this after let me guess you and Lucas had a lunch time quickie somewhere?" Sabrina said.

"Maybe speaking of lunch time quickies I hear Dr. Dreamboat is officially on the market again."

Sabrina laughed "That ship has sailed and sunk my friend."

"Oh come on you mean to tell me you have no more feelings for Patrick."

"Who doesn't have feelings for me?" Patrick said walking up causing Sabrina to look away and turn beet red.

"Oh you know what I have to go see where Epiphany needs me." Felix said running off.

"What was that about?" Patrick said looking at Felix's retreating figure.

"Felix is trying to reunite you and me I guess." Sabrina said filling out the file so she didn't have to look at Patrick.

"Oh what did you tell him?"

Sabrina closed the file and looked up at him.

"I said that the ship had sailed and sunk, I mean just because you and Robin are done doesn't mean there is any hope of us getting back together I mean you probably don't even want that right?" Sabrina said nervously.

Patrick stood there for a few minutes.

"Aren't I right Patrick?"

Before Patrick could say anything Epiphany yelled "Drake Junior, Santiago I need you."

Sabrina rushed off to see Epiphany followed by Patrick.

"What's going on Piph?" Patrick said.

"Car Accident coming in need a consult on the man's head and his wife is pregnant and experiencing abdominal pain."

Just as Epiphany finished the elevator dinged and EMT's rushed on the floor with two gurneys.

The three of them rushed over and one of the EMTS ran down the info on the victims.

Sabrina saw the expectant mother who was groaning in pain and looked at Epiphany.

What do I do?" Sabrina said.

"Get her to exam room three I'll notify an OB, Drake Junior check out Mr. Thomas."

Patrick nodded and he and Sabrina rushed off in different locations with each gurney.

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Sabrina watched as Doctor Chu looked over Mrs. Thomas and saw the look of fear in her eye.

"Mrs. Thomas you are in Labor."

"What No I'm only twenty seven weeks it's too soon."

"I'm sorry Mrs. Thomas but you are about 8 centimeters dilated this baby is coming today."

"I'll notify the NICU." Sabrina said rushing out of the room, the sense of Deja Vu causing her heart to ache.

Sabrina ran to the NICU as fast as she could and notified the team that was there before running back to the room.

When she entered the room Mrs. Thomas was screaming in pain.

"Mrs. Thomas you need to push.""

"No I can't it's too soon, She can't come out yet."

Sabrina rushed over to Mrs. Thomas.

"Mrs. Thomas you need to listen to me okay?"

"Who are you?"

"My name is Sabrina I'm a Nurse here and I was put in the same position you are in now and I know you are scared but if you don't push it could cause more harm to you and the baby so I need you to push and I swear your baby will get the best care she can, I promise you that but right now you need to push."

"I'm so scared." Mrs. Thomas said.

Sabrina grabbed her hand.

"I know but I will be right here holding your hand, but you need to push."

Mrs. Thomas nodded "Okay."

"Alright on the count of three ...One ...two...three ...Push!" Sabrina said.

After a few pushes the baby was out and in the incubator being rushed off to NICU.

"I want to see her, I need to see my baby."

"I know you do but right now you need to rest, I know what you are feeling but you need to rest."

"Sabrina can you please go check on her?"

"Sure thing Mrs. Thomas."

"Heidi my name is Heidi."

Sabrina nodded and walked out of the room.

She walked to a deserted corridor and sat down for a minute trying to catch her breath.

"Sabrina? You alright?"

Sabrina looked up to see Patrick and got up and hugged him

"Hey what's wrong?" Patrick said holding her tight.

"The baby was born prematurely."

"Oh God."

"I need to get to the NICU to check on her."

"Sabrina are you sure you are alright?"

"I'm fine I have to go."

Before Patrick could say anything else Sabrina took off.