Title: You Like
Him
Rating: PG
Pairing:
Rose/Ten
Genre: Angst
Summary: Sometimes you
forget not everything is within your reach.
You like the Doctor. You can hardly stand it, can you? So close, so almost touchable, so within your grasp, yeah? You pretend you're not thinking about it but you know you do. You want him. You like him. Youlikehimyoulikehimyoulikehimyoulikehim!
No?
No.
Cassandra had even noticed. 'A little bit foxy' she had said – though obviously you would never say it like that. 'Well fit,' perhaps, but not foxy.
Shut up, Rose. You're stalling.
You are always stalling. Dive straight first into everything, monsters and aliens and time travel, everything but the Doctor. Off limits. Untouchable.
It is strange to think of anything as unreachable when you have touched a corner of the universe, seem such a tiny amount of the infinite possibilities and then known, without a doubt, that you will never see it all.
But you will try.
Hold on as hard as you can until it is time to go.
(How could she be any different from Sarah Jane? Why… why would the Doctor do anything different this time – she had only thought they had something special. Apparently that was just him, the same thing he did with anyone who stumbled before his wake. Make everyone feel loved then move on without a voluntary goodbye.)
You're not jealous. No, not jealous. That would be another wasted emotion in this endless space, insignificant to the swirling time vortex, to him.
Oblivious doesn't even begin to cover it.
Annoyance was another one. He only seems to tune in when you feel reckless, ready to do anything if it means getting his attention for a perfect moment.
Maybe I should add childish and insecure to this list.
The good times are getting further and further apart, but they are still a bright spark of life that at least keeps you going. You are just scared that maybe soon the spark will be blunted, the darkness smothering them all so completely that maybe you won't notice – care, even.
After all, life with the doctor beats life at boring old home.
Life with the Doctor is worth the inevitable no life at all.
Fin.
