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These are the true thoughts Edward Elric has for Roy Mustang. The thoughts that no one is to know about.

Reflection

I wonder how longago this started. We've been going out officially now for almost a year. I've really known you for almost three. I know works keeps us separated most of the time but even when we're together you feel distant. It hasn't always been that way, has it?

In the beginning I was thrilled to know that my feelings weren't all one sided. I was so happy to know that I had made a special place for myself deep within your heart. The heart that you keep locked away from most of the world.

I wanted to find out if I would be able to even glimpse at the real you. I wanted to know if I was going to be able to protect you the way you have protected me all these years.

At first we proceeded cautiously so as not to hurt each other. Then our feelings began to evolve, to grow. I loved the feeling of just being held in your arms. I knew you keep me as safe as you could.

It pained me to see you at night while your past took over your dreams. The way you would cry out as if in pain tore my heart. I wanted to be able to help you not forget but move on from those terrible memories.

After a month or so you opened up to me. I thank you for that. You made me feel like I was someone that you could trust. You already knew that I trusted you with my life and the life of my brother.

Now as time wears on you seem to not only moving on from the past that you longed to forget but also from me. Our meetings have become more brief. It seems that you do not enjoy my company as much as you used to.

The trains whistle blows. I must go now. For how long, I don't know. Before I leave I receive a hug and a kiss. The hug was just long enough for me to feel you body against mine. The kiss was so quick that I was unable to feel there true warmth.

I feel that our time together is coming to an end. I wish it wouldn't but that is not for me to decide. I can only hope that our time together was enough. Good-bye Roy. I will miss you.