Hey! I know I am still working on my other fic (Passion) but I just had to post this! It's been running through my head all day so I just had to! And of course I'm still working on the other fic. Just a warning that this is a Mariah/Oc (girl in this case) and if you've got something against homosexuality then I don't suggest this story for you. Hey, even if you do have something against it and you do read my story I applaud you for your openess ^_^ Well onto the first chapter! There is also going to be Kai/Rei pairing in this fic. I might throw in Max/Tyson as well. Who knows!?

Disclaimer: I own not a thing..not....a...thing!

"speaking" 'thoughts'

This entire fic is in Mariah's Point of view!
I brushed my hair and stared at my reflection, glancing at the picture of Rei tucked neatly in the wooden frame of the mirror every so often. His amber eyes gleamed from under his tousled mane of raven locks. It had been a while since I encountered his warm smile and found I missed him more than I let on.

Did you need to leave? Leave me in a void of darkness and wonder? A time freezing abyss, abandonemt? The days mesh together..dawn and dusk have no signafigant difference. You left me to drown in my love for you. Didn't you see? Were you that blind?

A sigh escaped my lips as I placed my wooden brush gingerly on the table. My anger had disguised my sorrow. Nobody seemed to care though..Lee was happy I acted this way. He said it had become my strength.

"Mariah! Your doing great! I've never seen you beyblade this well before! At this rate you could be just as good as me, just almost. Keep it up!"

I wanted to punch him right then and there when he had said that. I could see a flicker of amusment in those eyes. I swore I hated him. I hated him almost as much as I did Rei.

Yet, I couldn't hate you Rei..I couldn't. I tried my best to hate you, but it's impossible. How can I be mad at you when my feelings of love are still so strong? They say love and hate are alike, but they feel different..they have to be different because I can't hate you.

My anger is the vent of my misery. I think my coldness could rival that of Kai's. I rarely smile, never laugh. My team avoids me, as if they are scared I will break if they look at me. What do they know? They never lost anything that meant as much as Rei meant to me.

And I wonder..how can you lose something you've never had?

Rei we were meant for eachother. I can feel it in my heart, and I know one day you will come back to me. Maybe that is the thought that keeps me getting up every morning when I want to go back to sleep. A long, dreamless sleep, to rid myself of the burden of emotion.

I don't shed tears anymore for you, Rei. My tears won't bring you back to my awaiting open arms. If anything they make it harder to think about you.

I lie awake and hope that late one night I will hear the door open and the sound of your feet thudding your way upstairs to your old room. There you would retire your headband and clothes. Your long raven hair flowing..the same hair I wish I could run my fingers through. I would tiptoe into your room and fling my arms around your neck and inhale your sweet scent. I would kiss your cheek and trace the strong muscles in your chest. Things would change, but they still would feel the same.

But every night I lie awake waiting..the door never opens. There is no noise to reassure me that you have come back. You are not in your room sitting on your bed. All thats there is the dust and memories.

I climb into my bed, the cold mattress awaking me from my oblivion. I pull the covers up to my neck and shut my eyes tightly to keep the thoughts away. I sigh heavily, trying to keep my breathing regular. Tonight I will not dream of you..but who decides what they dream? And as always, dream I do...
So how do you all like that so far? I'm not sure how well this fic will be liked because, well firstly its basically all Mariah. AND ANOTHER GIRL! but oh well,.who knows what will happen. Even if nobody reads or review I will still continue to write and post this! There will be Kai/Rei in later chapters as well as Mariah and her own pairing. -sigh- this is very sad so far, is it not? Well if you ARE reading this, please do review! I would love some feedback to know if this fic is liked or not. Tootles till then-

And I will be updating my other fic very soon!

~Kuro Sora~