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I AM NOT DESIGNED TO SHOW EMOTIONS

I could hear Kikuri screaming from the top of the tree. Ren and Hone were laughing towards the extreme point. It's a everyday schedule. I stood to go out from my cottage in this permanent twilight era. This is my place. My very own place.

"What are you thinking Ai?" my grandmother asked.

"Nothing grandma. I was just thinking about…" I stopped. My grandma also stopped spinning her wheel. A rhythm stopped suddenly and the whole house's tune stopped. I looked towards my grandmother behind the paper screen. It's my luck that I'm not lonely in this vivid place. Not alone in this scorching hell. I'm really lucky that I have my grandma, Wanyudu, Hone, Ren, Yamawaro and Kikuri. They are not supposed to live here but I'm really happy as well as sad that they are with me. They could taste paradise if I haven't offered them this vivid life.

Wanyudu was a wandering spirit I found one night. He was destroying villages. He was a wheel of fire. He was a monster but I could feel that he doesn't wanted to be a monster. When he saw me some kind of fire emerged. I could feel it was not of anger but of something which was very, very, very powerful which I couldn't detect. I offered him to come with me and he after a bit of time accepted. And then it was the first time I saw his human phase. I saw his peaceful old wrinkled face under the shadow of the straw hat and the "endless" night. But I'm not designed to show my emotions.

Ren was another one who suffered a lot being captured in a sword for thousands and thousands of years in a dark cave from where only one thing could be heard, just splashing of water.

"WATER WATER EVERYWHERE… NOT A SINGLE DROP TO DRINK"

He really suffered a lot. He didn't even remember how long he had been captured in that sword and who was the cruel person who ceased his life and captured it in a sword with evil powers in a dark cave.

Hone, my companion had a really terrible human life. Her love betrayed her. She loved so blindly and badly that she easily got betrayed. It was day of her death and I was there at that "particular" time. I touched her lifeless body and took her "self" which means her soul. She stood and searching me curiously. I offered her this life and she smiled and clutched my hand gently. The ice cold clasp was still very touching to me.

And on the other hand, me, the Jigoku Shoujo

From that day we are all with each other. They never leave me. And I love them. But still I've to remember that I'm not designed to show emotions. I have to refill the place of Hell Girl over and over again. And I hate it the most….. but….. I want to have emotions the way other people have, the way Grandma, Kikuri, Hone, Wanyudu and Ren have. Why and Why again I'm not designed to show emotions?

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