Friday Feb.13th: Secret Truths
Ricky saw Ben coming out of the band room. He knew he had to talk to him eventually especially now given the gossip he had been hearing around school. Ricky casually walked up to him as if it were no big deal.
"Hey so is it true?"
"Is what true," asked Ben.
"Are you and Amy back together?"
"Not that it's any of your business but yeah, we are. Why do you even care?"
"Because I care about Amy."
"Yeah right, like I believe that."
"Believe what you want but she's the mother of my son so I do care about her."
"Oh I get it, if you don't get Amy you'll just go after the baby right."
"Not that it's any of your business but he is my son, remember that."
"And you remember this: Amy loves me and I love her and that baby. I don't care if you're the biological father of that kid, as far as I'm concerned I'm the real father."
Ricky shook his head, "Keep telling yourself that Ben if it helps you sleep at night. I do love my son more than you know and most importantly I love Amy. And not in the way I said I loved Adrian or Grace. I love Amy and I have loved her since I met her."
It was at that moment that Amy had entered from the band room. She saw Ricky and Ben staring each other down.
"Is everything okay?"
"Yeah," replied Ben. "Everything's fine." Ben looked to Amy, "You ready to go?"
"Sure," Amy replied.
Before Amy could walk off with Ben, Ricky stopped her, "Before you go, do you think we could talk for a minute."
Amy nodded.
"Do you want me to stay," Ben quickly interjected.
"No it's okay," Amy said looking at Ricky rather than Ben. "We kind of need to talk anyways."
Without waiting for a reply from Ben, she and Ricky made their way into the empty band room and closed the door.
"Thanks Amy."
"For what?"
"For talking to me, with Ben there I wasn't sure if you would."
"Ben doesn't control my life and he knows you're involved."
"He knows but I don't think he can accept it."
"He's told you that?"
"Well not directly but yeah." Ricky quickly changed the topic, "So are we okay? I know you wanted me to go along with this whole adoption thing and I'm sorry I sabotaged it. I just couldn't do it, Amy. Donovan and Leon are nice guys but I can't stand the idea of someone adopting our kid."
"I know how you feel."
"You do but I thought adoption was what you wanted."
"I thought so too but after what happened on Monday, I just don't think I could go through that again."
"Sorry."
"It's okay it's not really your fault. If anything you got me thinking a lot about it actually."
"How's that?"
"I guess it's like you said, the thought of holding our son with his tiny little hands and feet and then just handing him off to someone else- I really don't think I could do it. I thought I could, I thought it's what I wanted but now I'm not so sure." Amy's hormones began to take over and she started to cry a little, "And that scares me because the baby will be here soon and I don't have a plan. I want to keep him but I want someone else to look after the baby while I do my normal stuff. If we keep the baby, how are we going to do it Ricky?"
Ricky got closer to Amy and placed a hand on her arm, "We'll figure it out together. Everything will work out somehow," Ricky said embracing Amy. As they embraced Ricky wanted to tell Amy how he felt about her, how he really felt as he had managed to tell Ben earlier but the moment was too perfect and he didn't want to ruin it.
Amy smiled as she hugged Ricky, "thanks," she said to him.
"For what," Ricky asked.
"For this, I don't know, it feels perfect somehow, it feels right."
Ricky couldn't have agreed more. This moment did feel perfect and most importantly it felt right as Amy had said.
"It does feel right," Ricky said making a mental note to not say the three words that could change everything.
