Hello my friend,

What do you think about ?, (my dad wrote this stupid starting hello my friend thing)

You Can't Trust A Dog. What Did You Expect?

EPOV

I stil had hope in me that my wife would survive. Was I lying to myself too? Will she die? Was this her punishment for loving a monster? Why her? It was my fault being selfish, cruel, self-centered, unfaithfull, repulsive, coward… Oh! Have I forgotten jackass? Look at these vivid adjectives could it be possible that someone this awful can exist. But it does and it's me.

I could hear the humming thoughts but I tuned all of them out.

I looked back to the bed where my angel lied motionless. I focused all my attention to my true love. It didn't really concern me what everyone is thinking right now. I can tell without reading. Rosalie must be complaining as always. Alice and her absurd visions. Because I knew all of them too well. How easy I get distracted. I focused back to her motionless face. If it wasn't her heart beating I would have lost my mind already. Then I heard my brothers voice it was kind of yell I guess. And I jumped lightly to the sound he made.

Jasper:

"What the hell? You are a mess, but for my sake get a grip to yourself kid. It's torture to feel your emotions. She'll survive but your pain is killing me bro."

I ignored his teasing.

"Please go back down stairs and tune out my emotions if you can."

And he went back down stairs.

This is where I earn the adjective jackass. I hurt my wife, my true love; I thought about hurting my beautiful daughter; I yelled at my brother. What a nice way to thank people who love you, betrayal.

Time to go back to my wife. I held her hand and kissed slightly. Then murmured, "I love you Bella, love I'm truely sorry please forgive me. Don't give up fighting please for me."

I looked at her beautiful face. I'm sorry. She'll live, she'll survive, everything will be fine. What if she can't? What if she dies? Now I don't have the Volturi option. I have a daughter to take care of, my beautiful baby. Not only my, our beautiful baby. I turned back to Bella again and murmured, "Don't worry about our baby love she is fine and I assure you no matter what happens I'll keep her safe I'll take care of her."

Was this a promise I can keep? Will I be strong enough to bear the pain if she dies? I would, I have to. All of these happened in order to save our baby. How absurd to even just think of myself as a father. Then I brought Renesmee's face in front of my eyes. Her beautiful chocolate brown eyes, the eyes of her mother. Her (our daughter) bronze curles. I didn't want to hurt her. She was even more important then her mother to me. It was soo amazing and akward to feel like this. Surely loving Bella has changed me alot. But I was even more different now. Stil a monster but more loving and more kind hearted. Now I could see the point of Carlisle, my father in every way it counts. He was ready to do everything for us, for his family, for his children. I was ready to die without no second thought for my Bella. And now I was ready to die and also murder for our daughter. I hated myself for just even thinking about hurting our daughter. How could I even think that? It was my fault which ended up Bella lying there or even dying there. She'll live. Everything will be fine. Lies, lies, lies…

Then I heard some one knock on the half open door. It was Jacob. I've hurt him too. I collected myself for an apologie he deserved. To tell him our deal is cancelled. To tell him I had to live for my daughter. Then sighed. He looked at me and said,

"Hi Edward is she better?"

I couldn't answer that properly.

"I have no idea."

I could feel the pain in me. It was extraordinary. She must be in pain too. I didn't want her to feel any amount of pain. She must be burning right now. Burn me instead. She didn't deserve this fate. She was so good so pure. But it was this or death. I hated myself for hurting this harmless beautiful angel of mine. No matter if she does but I'll never forgive myself. Then I remembered Jacob.

Before he could respond I continued.

"Believe me Jacob I'm truly sorry but you should know that I'm not on the same side with you anymore. But you'll always be a brother to me. "

Until I said this he was blocking his thoughts abcdefg… but then he thought something different, more paniced.

What does he mean we aren't on the same side? Does he want to hurt his daughter? No, I won't allow that. But he said and acted like he loved his daughter. What changed? No, it doesn't matter to me if he is her father I'll fight for Renesmee to protect her, I love her so much that I can't bear her death…

What the hell was going on here? I'd better ask him.

"Jacob Black what do you mean you love her so much that you can't bear her death? What the hell is going on in here?"

He held his hands as a shield and started speaking.

"I wanted to talk to you about that but please don't freak out before you listen to all."

"Don't tell me what to do you mongrel." I was yelling.

"I, I, I…"

"You what?" I was frusturated.

He'll kill me no matter what better talk before he is more frustrated. Hah. Like he he can get more frustrated or even he is calm now. Better talk to have a more peaceful death.

"What have you done to make me murder you?"

He'll kill me so what's the big deal? OK here it comes. Take a deep breath.

"Don't test my patience."

"I'm imprinted to your daughter."

It wasn't that hard as I thought.

My eyes grew wider.

"Think twice you jackass. Do you think that you can have your way after putting my daughter in to your stupid doggy traditions. Do you think I will let that happen? Do you think I'll let her be your girlfriend. I'd rather you took Bella from me instead. And by the way I don't think I owe anything to you now. You are lucky to still have blood in your system. Because if you ever think anything sexual about my daughter your blood will change place and leave your body forever. Oh wait this will be a very painless death for you. I'll torture you to death. You'll feel so much pain that you'll beg me take your life. You'll beg me to kill you..."

I was breathless because of the threat. I took a deep breath and hoped these will be enough for him to stay away from my daughter.

His threats doesn't bother me. I can't bear leaving it's much too painful right now although she is at downstairs sleeping peacefully. No, I can't do that. This pain will be unbearable. What kind of person does he think I am. I only want her to be safe, happy and healthy. I know she is too young and I don't want a relationship that's wrong. She is a baby. But I'll be her best friend until she grows up. Maybe her baby sitter. I'm ready to die if this will be safe for her. I won't even think twice to die for her. I love her too much that I will take every risk to keep her safe, happy, healthy and to be near her to see her face...

What? Was he fanticising about my daughter? He would die. I would rip him into sherds and have enjoyed it. Then I thought Maybe I don't have to wait that long to have him dead. He loved her too much that he isn't capable of ignoring her. And if he won't able to stay away from my daughter he will die. Muhahahaha! The chance I've been waiting. Wow that sound evil and witchy. But I wasn't the good guy, I am even worse than a witch, I am a vampire. Like a male witch could exist. I was bad. And that hurt Bella a lot.

But I couldn't kill him that would hurt Renesmee. I would rather die than hurt my daughter.

I returned back to Jacob. Wishing I could burn holes trough him with my dark stare. He flinched. Good to have some respect now back to business.

Before I could respond he continued.

"Look Edward I'm sorry. I wouldn't want this to happen. But it just did and believe me I have no control in who I'll imprint. I've got good news though. The pack won't be able to lay a finger on her. If they harm her in any dose I'll kill them. Believe in my love to her. Please I can't live without her. And if I harm her you can do anything to me I love her and you are a father. I can see you care for her. So please know that I will never ever hurt her. Maybe I should warn Sam and the others. She loves me too."

How could he know that, he couldn't read her mind. Aw hell! Was this a part of the imprinting thing?

"How come you know that she loves you too? She is just a baby. My beautiful baby daughter."

"She has an ability." He said and then shrugged which irritated me very much.

"What ability?"

"She can show her thoughts by touching."

"You, you stupid mongrel you touched her?"

"She is a baby and I know that." He was smug more irritateness. Then jealousy over took me he knew the baby but I couldn't get the chance to meet her. When I was thinking about my baby I heard Rosalie.

"Don't be sad Renesmee he is your father and sure he'll want to meet you. He loves you and now you'll meet him don't worry."

But there was still pain in me so I leaned down and kissed Bella's motionless lips. Her heart, focus Edward it's beating. I really neaded her lips on mine to continue my existence.