"When I first met you, I thought we were gonna have forever. Forever to make videos, forever to make fun of each other, forever to laugh, forever to just be with each other…
"I loved you so much and I didn't know what to do with the love I felt for you. Should I tell you how I feel? Did you feel the same way? Do y- Did you? I guess I'll never know now…
"When I first looked into your eyes, I knew I wanted to spend forever with you. Not necessarily in a marriage kind of way, but I just wanted to spend forever watching that smile and those eyes. You were so beautiful. I knew I was in love.
"And just—you weren't perfect, at all. And that's what made you perfect, if that makes sense. You had your moments when you were just plain moody, or you shut everyone out. That happened a lot, actually… And afterwards, you would never tell me what happened to make you upset, or if it was me who upset you. Was it me? Did I upset you?
"And—dammit—" By this time, my eyes had already filled up with tears and they were starting to spill from my eyes. It didn't seem real…
"Now I'm crying, and its all your fault. Its all your fault, you know? All your fucking fault. I hope you know that, I really hope you do. Its all your fucking—" I had to take a deep, shaky breath.
"Fuck you, you… I don't even know. All I can do is sit here on your stupid bed, leaving you a stupid voicemail you'll never be here to get around to…"
My finger hung over the red 'end call' button.
"Why do I even waste my time?"
'Call Ended'
