ticktockticktock

she listens to it all the time.

the never ending rhythm of the clock is a constant of her life now, her heartbeat, her breath, her mind, her soul.

she doesn't know who she is anymore.

all the threads that held her down are broken strings on the earth.

and now, she's floating towards the clouds: towards the golden heaven her mum made her dream of, when she was younger – freer - tucked snugly into bed, magic gleaming in the sky and in her heart.

is it even real?

is everything a lie?

she doesn't know where to begin.


ticktockticktock

she wakes up to the sound.

it's her lullaby as she falls asleep.

her hands prickle every time she moves them because she's just so numb and she can't take the pain anymore.

the memories come in flashes and echoes.

monsters in her head.

she's one of them.

scared.

lonely.

she wants her mommy.

oh, but darling, mommy isn't there for you, remember?

and look at how you turned out.

she can't bear to look at herself in the mirror, so she stares at the sky instead.

azure. sapphire. purple. grey. gold. pink. red.

blood.

who needs sanity, anyway?


dingdongdingdong

it's time again.

time to wake up.

time to snap out of her trance.

time to put that smile on her face and the mask in place.

nobody needs to know the secret, darling.

nobody needs to hear you scream at night.

nobody needs to see your broken eyes as you stare blankly at the stars that shine.

she steps out of that wretched asylum of a room and feels alive again.

she swears she'll never return back there.

(promises are meant to be broken after all)

little luna lovegood. such a sweet little child.

madness took her mind.


do you know that schizophrenia, paranoia and other mental health issues affect at least 50% of all teenagers at some point or the other? it might be due to a variety of causes, but the most common is academic and peer pressure, which is just sad.

a dear friend of mine, izzie [goodie too shoos] is currently fighting a battle against a severe case of schizophrenia, which has escalated to the point that she doesn't even know what is real and what is not anymore. she doesn't recognize her parents half of the time.

mental health is important. learn to love yourself, no matter what others say. don't listen. you know you are wonderful.

if you need anything at all, just send a pm and i'll respond. seriously. even though it's just the h of your hello. just remember that you are lovely and wonderful and more deserving than any person you know.