The Inner Workings of Butterflies
Part One – What We Are
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Summary: Blair and Chuck are many things. They fall apart, they get back together. It is who they are.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gossip Girl or these amazing characters, although I wish I did.
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We are the couple that fights more than catty girls do.
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"I'm tired of this, Chuck." Blair sighs as her tears fall.
"You have to understand that I'm not your dog. I'm not always going to do what you please."
"I'm trying hard…I can't do this anymore." Blair's voice is weak.
"Then you can get out."
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We are the couple that is never smiling.
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"Fuck you!" She screams, her shrill voice cutting him.
"I'm sorry."
Her eyes are no longer forgiving. They are glass.
"All you ever are is sorry."
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We are the people everyone loves to hate. (We even hate each other.)
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"I hate you!" She says for the millionth time.
He just shakes his head. "You just can't help it."
"What?"
"You can't help but make my life a living hell."
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We are the two people no one ever expected to get together.
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"It's just not working."
"I can't help but be who I am, Blair."
"That's why it's not working."
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We are the people that say goodbye a million times.
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"I tried." Her tears are a waterfall on her cheeks.
"Blair."
"Yeah?"
"I still…"
"I know."
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We are the people that say hello a million times.
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"I would say 'it's never going to happen again, Chuck', but I would be wrong." She smirks.
"That's just us. There's no use changing it."
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We are the people who harbor butterflies endlessly.
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"I can't help but…" She stops midsentence.
"What?"
"I can't help but come running back to you."
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We are the best of friends…
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"You know, this was never meant to happen."
"But it did anyway."
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…That just happened to end up together.
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"This is the problem!" She yells and runs her fingers through her hair.
"It's like fire with fire …"
"We're just too much alike."
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We are the ones that were never meant to fall in love.
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"I want this to work so badly."
"I want us to be happy, Blair."
"Then why is it that we aren't?"
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We are the ones that were never meant to be happy.
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"Why is it that…in my head, I just can't see us…staying like this?" She's deep in thought, her eyelids fluttering.
"Because we're too unpredictable for us to tell what's going to happen tomorrow."
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We are sometimes too caring.
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"Chuck!" Her mascara's running. She wipes away her tears. "You're okay."
"I'd never leave you."
"I was…so scared. I thought you were…"
"I'm fine…I'm right here."
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We are sometimes too affectionate.
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"You know I love you, right?"
"More than anything?"
"More than anything."
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We are ready to jump right after the other.
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"I'm going with you."
"It's going to be dangerous, Blair. I can't just-"
"You don't have a choice about this. I'm going with you."
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We are the most unstable couple the Upper East Side has ever seen.
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"Do you love me?"
"You know I do."
"Then why is there a problem?"
"Because…I don't love the idea of this anymore."
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We are madly in love…
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"I wonder why I can't see past all of this."
"Maybe you don't want to."
"That's not the point. We're never happy. I don't know if this can ever work."
"But can't you just try?"
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…But sometimes we won't admit it.
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"You keep on apologizing, but your apologies don't mean anything anymore."
"Blair, I love you."
"But maybe that's not enough anymore."
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We are our own worst enemies.
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"We're just causing the same problems. I can't help but wonder why I ever started this with you."
"Waldorf, I just wonder why you're never happy with what is front of you."
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We are never happy with our fate.
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"If this was meant to happen, then I think the odds are stacked against us."
"Then why can't we just fight for what we want?"
"I've been doing that for a long time now."
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We are tired of being unhappy…
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"I just want to smile every once in a while."
"There's nothing stopping you."
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…But we don't know what to do about it.
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"Don't get me wrong…You make me happy."
"Then what's wrong with you?"
"That's just it. There's always something wrong."
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We are quick to give up…
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"Things just change."
"I can't let go all of this."
"But we have to. Just for now."
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…But we fight for what we really want.
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"I love you. I do. I'm not going to forget about all of this."
"Then why are you leaving?"
"I'm leaving to make things better…for us."
"Why does it feel like you're not coming back?"
"I'm always going to be here. Just don't forget about me."
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We are guilty only in loving too much.
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"One last dance…before I go?"
"For you, anything."
"…Have I told you I loved you?"
"Not lately."
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We are not great with saying goodbye.
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"Please don't go."
"Chuck, I have to. Just promise me one thing."
"Anything."
"Think about me."
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We are always waiting to say hello again.
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"I can't wait to see you."
"That seems like a while from now."
"It is. But I'm going to be spending every minute with you."
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We are living like it's out last day on Earth.
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"We have this one night. Just…let's be happy…just for tonight."
"Tomorrow you're going to be gone again."
"Not forever. I'll be back."
"The question is when."
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We are perfect only in our imperfections.
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"Would you think I was crazy if I said…I just want to stay here forever?"
"No. Because I'm thinking the same thing."
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We are drowning in self-doubt.
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"This is never going to work! I can't be with you every single moment."
"Are you saying you don't want to be with me?"
"I do, but I have a life. And I want to live it."
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We are a symbol of fate's design.
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"I can't help but wonder why we ended up together."
"Some things are meant to be."
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We are a beautiful disaster.
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"Things are too hard to figure out right now. I just…I need to get out of here."
"Are you coming back?"
"I don't know. I don't know anything anymore."
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We are everything to each other.
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"If I were to die, what would you do?"
"I would die with you."
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We are breathing because of each other.
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"I wasn't happy with who I was for a long time."
"What made you change?"
"You."
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We are always by each other's side.
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"Bad things have happened, I know."
"I just don't understand why this is going on."
"Just remember that I'm always going to be here."
"I know."
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We are perfect in each other's eyes.
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"There has to be something wrong with me. There has to-"
"Blair."
"What?"
"You're absolutely fine just the way you are."
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We are the absolute opposite of a couple that's meant to last…
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"You know, I just…"
"Yeah?"
"I can't see myself with anyone but you."
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…And that's what makes us beautiful.
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Author's Note: Here's the first part of this twoshot. You could say it's a companion to The Seven Stages, but you don't have to read that to read this.
It's kind of fluff, and it's kind of angsty. I can't really define it.
Well, this first part was all about what the relationship between Chuck and Blair is. The next part is what they wish they were.
Review! I definitely want people's thoughts on this. Thanks, Cass
