I'm pathetic. All my dreams come true and I'm still unhappy.

The world is at peace (for now, at least). Sasuke and I finally understand each other (we saw each other's guts). I'm on track to become Hokage one day.

Then why am I unhappy?

I smile and laugh, talk with my comrades and mingle with my villagers.

I want more.

I'm unsatisfied with what I have.

How selfish can I be?

I have everything I wanted. Except…

Except I feel a chasm growing inside-a dark, deep pit of want and selfishness.

It's growing by the day, growing by all the moments I don't have what I really want. Even when I'm with them.

I want Sasuke.

I want Sakura.

I want them by my side, forever. I want my days to be filled with their presence. Even when we aren't doing anything. Even if we are doing boring things. Even if we are so busy in whatever we are doing we don't have time to even think. It would be okay. I would be with them.

I want to live with them. I fight by their sides and defend them and am in turn defended by them. We kill for one another and would gladly die for one another. We have seen eachother in our most vulnerable moments.

But it isn't enough.

I want domestic shit. I want to fight over chores. I want to pay bills together. I want kitchen misadventures and triumphs.

I want what my mother had with my father with them.

But I don't even know how to go about it. It's not that I'm scared of rejection (it would crush me). I just don't know how to even broach the subject.

We are at a convergence in our lives. I see our paths meeting at this point, and we could either continue on all together, or split off.

We have fought too damn hard to just pass on through each other's lives. Oh, we'd still see each other. But it wouldn't be the same.

Not by a long shot.

I could see Sasuke and Sakura coming together, making a little them. I could find great happiness with someone (maybe Hinata) and have a couple of kids.

We would still see each other, still be friends. But our lives would be centered on those worlds, and not Team 7.

We would be happy.

But it's not what I want.

The world of Team 7 is one of heartache, pain, and desperation. But it's also one of hard won understanding and love. Endless love.

I want Team 7. I want Sasuke and Sakura.

I just have to figure out how to tell them. I'll just have to be content and deal with this growing chasm until then.

Heh.

Told you I'm pathetic.

"…I'm sure you'll figure it out, Naruto."

"Thanks for listening, Iruka-sensei."

"Anytime, Naruto. Anytime."

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