Title: THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

Rating: PG-13

Summary: One of our favorite Bohemians reflects on a major regret in her life.

A/N: This is my first fic, so please be gentle on the reviews…but all types of criticism will be taken and put to use in future efforts.


re‧gret  /rɪˈgrɛt/ Pronunciation Key -

verb

1. to feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment, etc.):

2. to think of with a sense of loss


I can only say that I have had a few major regrets in my lifetime.

Most of them were for all the things that I did to her for many years. I silently called her a skank, slut, whore, basically every name in the book. Any time I had alone, I silently cursed her for getting the man that I had set my eyes on. Now it is too late; I can't take it back or make my peace with her.

After she was gone, I did not know if it would ever be alright to tell him that I loved him. Sometimes I wondered if I left or disappeared, would he look for me. Did he know that I was still there for him, or that he was still loved?

He became the innocent victim to her foolish plans…and I hated her for it. She was the horny young girl willing to try anything, throwing caution to the wind, and taking others with her. Along the sidelines I watched as they took their lives down paths that they needn't go. I tried my hardest to show him what was really going, but he would listen to none of it. In my heart, I feel responsible for both of their plights. Only if I had not been as selfish as I was, neither would have had to suffer the way they did.

For so long I let them tempt their fates. Not only did I treat her bad and make her feel insignificant for what she was doing, I turned away any chances I had with him. There would be nothing left for me to say to him in the end-he did not want to hear it. It would only be a petty apology from a person who had lost a great man's respect.

I am no longer the same naïve being that they once knew me to be. I know what I want and I know what I have to do to get it. He was the only person willing to put up with me. In him I saw an equal, a fierce competitor worthy of my arguments. Even now I still hope that he will come to me, but that will only happen in my dreams.

Between us, there is nothing left to aspire to. My own web of lies and hateful words has caught me in a tough situation. Flirting with him is hapless, so I will have to put my skills into action elsewhere. No more trying, he will just be hers and there is nothing you can do about it. It is your own fault that you did not grab him when you had the chance.

On the other hand, there is this kid that hangs around the Life a lot; he has caught my eye more than a few times. He tends to sit off by himself, but every now and then there is this guy at his table. 'Maybe he is gay or maybe they are just very good friends. Don't give yourself more to regret…do not let this one get away.'

I will take the chance at rejection; I do not need any more regrets in my life. There will always be him, the one who got away.


A/N: Were able to guess who it was? If not I'll tell you...it was Maureen.

A/N2: What do you think? Please review.