I know I know, I should work on Hello Beautiful, but this has just been nagging me for the past 2 days. Just a little info, this is Ed, he's in Germany but still has his automail, but I'll let you decide who it's too. I just love how this turned out even though it's so sad and completely different what I normally like or read. But enjoy.


I step into the shower. The hot water runs over my cold body, giving me goose bumps. I pull my hair out of my braid, letting my hair cascade down my back. I tilt my head back letting the water travel down my back and through my hair. I close my eyes relaxing in the feeling of the water. I open my eyes again looking up at the steam rising to the ceiling. I can't deal living without you anymore.

I slide my back against the shower wall so I'm sitting on the floor, letting the water run over the rest of my body. I lean my head against the wall and close my eyes. I imagine it's your shoulder I'm leaning on. I start crying, I miss you so badly. The water starts to run cold as I get up off the floor. I get out of the shower and look at myself in the mirror. I feel so ugly, scars covering my body, my metal arm, the secretes of my past, things that only we know. I reach over to the basket next to the sink and look for what I know is there.

I grab the small silver blade and twist it in between my fingers. I bite my lip and look down at the razor blade then at my flesh wrist.

"If I can't be with you, than there is no point in me living anymore." I say as I drag the blade against my skin. The red liquid drips from the cut. I slide my back against the wall behind me. The blood splatters against the floor as my body hunches over and I take one last breath in. I succeeded this time, I will suffer no more.