Dear, Kat.
I don't really know what exactly to say here. Well no, I do. But it's just I have a lot to say is all. To be honest, I feel like I am owed an explanation?
You see, when I contacted you all those months back, I was having a hard day, you called me childish... Because I was trying to lighten your mood... This is was has got me so confused.
What happened? Tell me please, what happened? In those few months that we did not speak to each other? The time we talked before the day with me trying to lighten your mood because you were bored, I remember we talked and had a great time.
You said you'd always be here for me. That I was like a sister to you... But then for some reason when I didn't do anything wrong, you snapped at me and just dropped me as a friend.
I'm sorry that I kept trying to get back with you. I understand now that I shouldn't of been so pushy. I really am sorry about that.
But that doesn't explain why you shouldn't just wanted to stop being friends...
I'm sorry that I sent you the message about snapping at you and 'saying sorry' for it. I am sorry I snapped back at you, but when I said I still loved you, I wasn't trying to get you back, and I do not feel romantic feelings for you anymore.
I still do care about you and wish we could be friends, but it's just... I don't understand. That one day what did I do wrong? Nothing...
And sometimes when I think back to that one summer, when you said you loved me, would always be here for me, wanted to protect me... That makes me confused. As to why someone who would say that and turn their backs on that.
It hurt me, confused me and it still does...
I do not want to fight with you, I do not wish to create drama of any kind, but this all is not my fault. You know that as well as I do.
You'll probably never answer my question, never give my hurt some heal, or make me feel less confused. But this same thing always happens to me. It always does.
I'm tired and sick of being dropped without knowing what the hell happened...
I needed to get this out because I have been meaning to write some vent letters towards certain people lately.
PM me and snap at me if you must, saying bad things about me, but I needed to do this. Just wish I could understand. Just for once, just for once...
.Kristin
Just something I've needed to do for a long time. Personal as heck, but to be honest. I cannot hide this anymore. Pming isn't going to work for this, ._. Besides I kinda feel getting everything out in the open is better here. Don't leave comments if you feel you can't. This is kinda different. I just needed to do really do this. Published it here in the frozen section for a reason, know she might see it here. Don't know if I'll never get an answer. if I don't... well then I don't... If I do, I do. Also please, if anyone comments, be nice! I'm tired, stressed and have had a very hard time lately with things. Work, school, and family things. anyways... that's it...
