Now under Beloved Pendragon's name.
They say there is no such place as paradise, even if you search to the ends of the earth, there's nothing there. No matter how far you walk it's always the same road, it just goes on and on. But in spite of that why am I so driven to find it, a voice calls me, it says search for paradise.
She had made me promise never to forget her. But she already starts to fade away. Everything begins to fade. But with paradise opened once again, I finally understand who and what I am. I don't know if I can ever open paradise again, if I can ever find it again. But I have before.
Man was formed from the wolf. And there was another world where wolves first lived. Paradise. I was born in paradise. The other wolves wanted more than what paradise could give them. And so they left, and came to a new world. Some wolves could not take this new world and slowly changed into their lesser selves, man. Paradise was lost to those wolves and the new world Earth grew with human population.
Many years passed and I my clan were born. But even paradise has its flaws. Our world burned down in a fierce fire. I watched as all the lunar flowers burned. As my family burned. As Heaven burned. I was able to get away and escape to Earth. I was only a cub, shivering from fear. But warm arms came around me as I was picked up by a man. By an Indian. My savior and my father.
He taught me his ways, and the legend of paradise. The world I had forgotten. The one place I would spend my life searching for. When I was old enough to live on my own. I left my father and began to search.
On one of my journeys I met a man by the name Darcia. He too searched for paradise. He took me in as a stray, and we searched together. He carried with him a book which he had many notes. A book which he later named The Book of the Moon. Inside his book was the legend his father new. A story told from a wolf disguised as a man. Darcia had everything in it. But like man he became impatient and searched for a new means to reach paradise. His paradise for Nobel men. He began to try to make a maiden from a flower. As the legend told. The gates of paradise will be open when the flower calls the wolf. And the red moon shows the way as the last wolf hidden by the blinding light of the moon finds his way to paradise. Shedding his blood with the flowers. Blood singing to blood.
Darcia made his flower and tried to find the wolf. A wolf born from paradise. Yet both of us did not know that the wolf was to be me. Darcia hunted down this wolf and found the one who told his father the tale. All the right preparations were made. And he mingled the blood of the wolf with the blood of the flower. The gates of paradise began to open. When there was just a little left to go the doors slammed shut and darkness came over the world. Darcia had opened the opposite of paradise. He had opened Hell.
Earth became frozen over and human life and animal was forgotten for many years. The Earth waited for a time it could come out of its frozen cocoon. And my memory was lost again.
I woke up again, snow falling down. I couldn't remember a thing, only of my father and what he told me. But the same thing kept buzzing in my head. Search for paradise. Up I went and searched once more.
My travels sent me to the same place as last time. This time a ruler of the name Darcia the second found me. He had in his possession The Book of the Moon. Like his father he searched for paradise. He had the same lab as the first Darcia. Making the flower maidens. And this time Darcia knew who I was.
He had me in his good graces, with the best care. In hope I would find paradise. That's when I saw her. The flower who would show me the way, Hanako. Her eyes were pink as a flower. Her skin as fair and white of snow. Hair long and flowing, the same color of her eyes. We promised each other paradise and ran off to look for it. We traveled for many days, and came closer and closer. That's when Darcia found us. He punished us. I tried to stop him but there were too many men, I was deeply wounded and to the edge of death. He sealed off paradise from us, building a high tower covering the gateway. But he also stopped himself from getting to paradise. Darcia went out to kill my kind, so that I would wander alone, and there would be no paradise for the wolves. But a paradise for him, for those foul nobles. Hanako was taken away from me, to who knows where. To live her life till she was old and withered. Hiding off in a forest.
As for me, I lost my mind once again. It was as if closing paradise had closed my mind. I woke up once more in the snow with barely any memory left.
This time I woke up and I smelled that smell. The smell of lunar flowers, from a city close by. And that's how I met Cheza, that voice inside my head. How I loved her, how I wanted to protect her. That old woman from the same lab of Cheza was right. She should never have come. Yet the old woman reminded me of someone I once loved. She reminded me of paradise.
My journey is just the way you know it. I lost all my friends. I lost Cheza. She grabbed onto me as her life began to fade. I made it to paradise, I had protected her. And because of that her true form came, so that her seeds would rebuild my home, our paradise. Promise you will search, that you will never forget. I promised her. My mind slowly fades and I return to Earth. If I find paradise one more time I can stay, I can be with her. But who knows what will happen this time.
All I know is that I can never die since I was born in paradise. Since I'm the last from paradise. I can never remember life, such as life does not remember when it was frozen. Everything preserved in till it reawakens again. New generations born without knowing of their past.
A voice calls to me. It says search for paradise. Cheza's voice.
