Title: Never say that you love me

Rating: R

Disclaimer:I don't own any of the Buffy characters. They all belong to joss!

Joss is my god!

Distribution: Please tell me if you wanna put this anywhere!(who would want to do this anyway...do you??)

Pairing:Spike/Buffy(well kinda youll understand when you read the other chapters)

Feedback:Yes please!!!!

Summary: Everyones human.Buffy has just moved to New York and goes to this new bar. There she meets a stranger but what is he doing?And more important what is he hiding? (Angst,sex )(The summary makes more sense after a few chapters)

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Chapter1:

The Box Room

Buffy was just unpacking her last box in her new apartment on 49 Street. She had moved here from Sunnydale California and was ready for a new life.Suddenly the phone rang.She picked it up.

"Hello?"

"Hi Buffy. It's me Cordelia."

"Oh hi."Cordelia was Buffys only friend here in New York and she was so beautiful , rich and popular.

"So have you got time to get something to eat or should I come over with food and help you unpack?"

Buffy had just noticed how hungry she was. She had been unpacking for hours and never even noticed.

"No I just finished so we can go out. Where do you wanna meet?"

"You now the little Café of Broadway?"

"No but I'm taking a cab so Ill find it."

"Ok Ill see you in 30 minutes. Bye."

"Bye."

Buffy went into her closet and took out some black pants and a light blue see-through top. She stepped outside and whistled for a cab. After about 15 minutes she arrived. She payed the man and even gave him a $3 tip.

The sun was shining and Buffy cursed that she never brought sunglasses. Next time she'd was already sitting at the table and she was grateful that she had spotted the Brunette or else she wouldn't have known where to go.

When Cordelia saw her saw her she gave her a big smile and waved for her to come and join.

"Hi Buffy."

"Hi Cordy how are you ?Hope I didn't make you wait too long."

"Im fine and no silly you didn't keep me waiting."

Buffy looked at the Brunette. She had on a beige skirt with a slit that revealed just enough to make men droole..A black t-shirt was covering her torso and unlike Buffy she didn't forget her sunglasses.

Cordy had been living in New York for 2 years now so she always knew what was happening and who was with who.She even got into all the cool clubs as she was a real Beauty.

Buffy was happy that Corelia was her Friend because without her she would have been lost in the city.

They both ordered a plate of fries when the waiter came.

"So, why did you leave Sunnyhell?I mean Im not trying to be nosy but I just got a call from you three weeks ago asking me if you could stay at mine.So im kinda curious."

Buffy took a while to answer.She left Sunydale for lots of reasons but the most important one must have beenn because...

"too many heartbrakes."

"Oh.I get that.Im sorry Buffy.Do you want to talk about it?"

"Its just that everytime I find a guy he's either nice but then turns ...lets say not so nice,or he leaves town or he just uses me."

"Well youre here now so just forget about everything bad and meet some new people tonight.Im taking you to a club , okay?"

"Yeah that sounds like fun.Whats it called?"

"The Box Room."

"Okay lets just hope the name has nothing to do with the size."

They bothe laughed and eat their fries.

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!Later that night !

The que outside was so long that people wher standing 2 blocks away from the main entrance.

Cordelia helped Buffy put on something because Buffy really didn't know what to wear.Sure she had been clubbing before but never in New York.

So here they both stood Blonde next to Brunette,Buffy in a dark purple dress that went just above the knees and was shoulder free and Cordelia in a red halterneck top with a black little skirt.

For a second Buffy thought they would have to que but Cordy took her by the arm and walked by the que to the front door.

The Doorman greeted her and looked at Buffy for a second.

Cordy gave him a 'shes with me' nod and they where let in the club.

Buffy was so excited that they where watched by all the people who were queing that she nearly turned red but after a few seconds she put her head up high and walked in confident as ever.

The club was dark and music was playing just at the perfect volume.Buffy scanned the crowd on the dancefloor and in the leather seats and saw that everybody was looking at Cordelia.Obviously she was very popular.

They sat down on a leather sofa in the back and ordered two drinks.Well Cordy ordered as Buffy had never really ordered an alcoholic drink.

"So how do you like it?" Cordy asked after the waiter had brought the drinks very quickly.

Buffy took a sip of her drink screwed up her face a little and said:"Oh its great except I don't even know what Im drinking."

"Oh it's only coke with a little rum.I don't wanna be drunk when im out as I really just have fun dancing and talking to people."

Bufy thought that was really wise of Cordy and put down her drink.

"Do you want to dance?"

"Yeah why not."

They both got up and made their way to the dancefloor.

At first they danced together but Buffy got separated and found herself looking up to see a man infront of her.

His eyes where blue and his hair died blonde.He was wearing a white shirt with the top three buttons open and black trouseres.

He smirked as he noticed that she was staring at him.

"Hello luv." He said in a dark voice.

Oh he was english.But Buffy wasn't that easy and she just gave him a dirty look before turning her back at him.It was only her first night here and she didn't want to have anything going on with anybody just yet.

A hand grabbed her by the shoulder and spun her around so that she was facing him again.

What the fuck.... "What is your damage?"

But he just sneered at her and leaned into her ear.

"I could fuck you right here on this floor and you would want it so badly".He whispered roughly.

Buffy just froze but before she could even react he turned and walked out of the club.

She was breathing heavily and jumped when Cordy put her hand on her shoulder.

"Is something wrong?"

Ok she hadnt seen what had happened Buffy thought.

"Oh..I...Can we just go please?"

"Of course. Are you sure your alright?" Cordelia was really concerned because her eyes where fixated at Buffy.

"Im ok but Im really tired" she lied

"Ok, let me just get my purse and then we can go."

Buffy and Cordelia never spoke on the ride home and Bufy got out of the cab on her street.

She said good-bye and even offered to pay for the ride but Cordy said it was fine and drove off in the cab.

She opened the door and took the steps up to the 2nd Floor and opened her door.

She undressed and got into bed but she definetly wasn't sleeping tonight.The clock showed 2.37am.

But those words kept rushing through her mind and it was only after 5am that she finally dropped off to sleep.

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So this was the first chapter.I need to know how it was as its my first fic ever!!!

Please R&R and make me happy (or sad) Ill take critisism(just not to well =) )

Thank you so much if you even took the time to read this!!!!!!!!