Mirror

"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation."― Oscar Wilde

I am the sole male heir to the Most Ancient and Noble House of Malfoy and yet I feel strangely empty. All my life was a series of instructions on how to act as the next Lord Malfoy. I was next in line to become a Death Eater. I would have an arranged marriage to keep the Pureblood lines from not dying out. I would become an automaton.

I have only known the power of my father and the terror I felt when he taught me to be a cruel, pain loving monster. He was never a true father to me but a master and a teacher. I had always promised myself to never become the man my father became but it seemed to be a family curse.

I soon followed into my family's footsteps by marrying my cousin. I had always thought that I would never become my father after he was killed when I was 19. I had already been initiated into the inner circle when my father died. I knew that I would do anything to prove to myself I wasn't my father.

Narcissa always tried to cheer me up, tried to say that I would never become my father but it was too late. I had already shown the world that I was my next father. The cycle would go on and on until I would get the guts to stop it.

I was already on my path but that didn't mean that I could let my heir be the same way. I would show him how to love and be loved in return. I would show him to be a better man than me, to be the man I want to be and still try to be at home.

I will treat my wife and family with the utmost respect and love. I won't let them ever be touched by the Dark Lord. I would sooner die than that.

The world sees me as the younger version of my father. Let it be so but I will show the people who matter in my life that I am a better man than my father. I will become my father to safe my son from this fate. I am willing to sacrifice so that he can be free while I am bound.

When I look in the mirror all I see is my father, my cruel and spiteful father raising me to be the perfect death eater, to be the perfect son in the World of Inbred Purebloods. I was raised with his blood purity opinions which I mimicked because they expected me to, I became a Death Eater like him because they expected me to, I became my father because they expected me to.

I am the mirror image of my father and yes, I act exactly like him in public but when I see my son and my wife, happy and laughing, I feel like it was worth becoming someone I don't want to be for my family to be free.

I, Lucius Abraxas Malfoy may seem like a carbon copy of my father and I may be for those who don't know me but I am also, Lucius Malfoy, loving husband to Narcissa Cassiopeia Malfoy nee Black and caring father to Draco Lucius Malfoy.

I am my father yet miraculously, I am my own person and my own man. I am the captain to my ship and I am the captain of my soul.