Love & That Other Stuff
Chapter One- Just the Two of Us
Looking out at the waves clashing against each other that created such a beautiful melody that she had come to enjoy so early in the morning, Addison couldn't help but feel a piece of serenity in this moment as her thoughts always came so easily when she was taking in the sights of things. Getting a quick sip of her coffee to lament the taste that she had all ready had before in her mouth she then got up to head back inside to find boxes piling up in her living room. Taking a moment to access the mess that was soon forming in her living room, she had to remind herself that Sam was moving into her place and renting out his place to Amelia. Placing her cup down on the counter before she walked over to observe some of the stuff he was bringing into the house, Addison began to rummage through the closest box near her and couldn't help but laugh at the picture he had of himself back in med school when he was such an awkward med student as some began to describe him as before he came jogging down the staircase.
"I was afraid you were going to sit the day away out there" Sam said as he came up from behind her to put his arms around her waist as she continued to look on at his pictures
"I'm glad I came back inside because I'm clearly enjoying looking at these embarrassing pictures" Addison laughed as she just kept flipping through them
"Aw, Maya must have packed them in because they are definitely not something I wanted you to see" Sam said trying to take them away but Addison wouldn't let him "All right, you act like you don't have any embarrassing pictures that I have access to" he laughed as Addison just looked at him confused "I've been here long enough to know where you hide them" he said motioning to head back upstairs but was quickly stopped by Addison as she grabbed onto his arm to prevent him from going anywhere
"And I will give these back" Addison said as she handed the pictures over to Sam who just tossed the pictures to the side before she wrapped her arm around his neck to give him a few quick kisses "Is this everything? Is this the man cave you spoke of?" she laughed as she turned back around to observe all of his stuff
"I believe so. Though I will request that I have a pool table brought in along with the latest a greatest surround sound system for football Sunday" Sam smiled in hopes that she would agree
"Is this what it would be like if we got married…you wanting guy like items that take away from the serenity of my home?" Addison laughed as she teased him "I mean if I come second to a football game then we're gonna have problems" she added on
"No, I think if we get married it would be….amazing" Sam smiled as he began to unpack some of his stuff "How are you feeling?" he asked as Addison took a moment to access herself of how she was doing "Addison. Addison. Addison" he continued to call before she broke from her silence to notice a concerned Sam standing before her "Where were you right now? Are you okay?" he asked unable to hide his concern for her while he caressed her face
"I'm fine" Addison replied but knew Sam wouldn't buy that answer so easily "I'm fine" she then replied
"Maybe we should just relax for the day…we both have the day off, which is rare for the both of us. I can throw some steaks on the grill and watch some black and whites" Sam suggested to her
"No, I want to get you moved in…make it official, you know. I guess a part of me is just…I'm fine" Addison told him but she could still see that he wasn't buying that answer so she might as well tell him the truth "I miss her. She was a horrible mother and I miss her…I miss her" she said as tears began to stream down her face uncontrollably as she tried to turn away but he wouldn't let him do so
"Hey, don't turn away. I'm not, so neither should you. It's okay to miss her, she was your mother" Sam said softly to her as he just pulled her in closer towards him
"But she wasn't a mother Sam. She was an emotionally cut off woman, who only showed a glimmer of emotion when it came to her lesbian lover…I'm her daughter and I haven't even received that kind of emotion from her…then she…she takes her life all because of Susan" Addison cried
"I just think back to those last few days you had together. You were the happiest I'd ever seen you with her, and you were just genuinely happy" Sam said trying to remind her of the good in her mother as opposed to the bad "You remember that right?" he smiled at her as he kissed her on her forehead
"Yeah" Addison laughed in disbelief that he had gotten her to think of something else other than her anger towards Bizzy for her lack of childhood love "I had finally told her how I felt about her…I believe that I called her a cold hearted bitch" she laughed through the tears
"So you clearly got it off your chest" Sam laughed "You want to know what I think?" he asked her
"I'm sure you'll tell me anyways" Addison said as she burried her face in the crook of his neck as she just took in his scent
"I think that those last couple days meant the world to you, it won't make up for everything but it was just enough to help you understand her and her you. So its okay to be mad that you didn't get more of those moments, but just appreciate them a little bit more over the bad memories" Sam told her as he stroked her hair as she looked up at him as if she were a little girl once again
Sitting up on the island counter, Addison laughed as she watched Sam scurry around the kitchen getting things ready for her supposed cooking lesson for the day. Ever since the recent passing of her mother he had made it his mission to make her do things she swore she'd never do, and so far he had become pretty successful in doing so. A smile came to her face as she found him so sexy when he was in the kitchen that it nearly made thinking about her task nearly impossible when she had other things in mind for them to do. Turning around to see her objectifying him as a piece of meat, Sam just laughed to himself knowing exactly what she was thinking before he leaned over to grab the onion that was near him causing her to look at him confused as to where the onion would come into the scenario of what she had in mind.
"Uh…I've never done it with that" Addison said before she unleashed a slight laugh
"Get your mind out of the gutter, we're not going to have sex with an onion" Sam replied as he hit her on the leg with a wooden cooking spoon
"Can we bring that into the bedroom next time?" Addison laughed as he helped her down off the island counter so he could lead her over to the cutting board
"Cut" Sam demanded as Addison just obliged his wish
"You know, part of my fantasies about you have to do with you being in the kitchen…now that I'm doing the labor its kind of losing the horny effect of it" Addison said as he guided her hand as she cut the onion in half "My eyes. Their all watery right now" she complained as she put the knife down
"Its to be expected with an onion. Now cut it into fourths then just keep cutting it down into smaller pieces" Sam instructed her as she followed his instructions word for word
"What do I do next?" Addison asked him
"Oh, your eager now" Sam laughed as she just bumped him "Now cut your bell pepper" he told her as she then reached over for the green bell pepper and he once again guided her into the cut "And just do the same thing" he spoke softly into her ear
"If you do that then it's going to distract me" Addison turned to tell him as all he could do was laugh before she returned to cutting her bell pepper
"It's sort of like surgery isn't it?" Sam asked her as she began to get into it
"I wouldn't go that far but it is therapeutic" Addison laughed "So Nae called while we were at the grocery store, she supposedly hired a new sports medicine doctor to the practice" she told him as he walked over to the fridge to pull out the meat that they would eat for the night
"Yeah, Marcus King" Sam replied "She kept it hush hush for a while, but Maya spoiled that surprised" he laughed "He's pretty good" he then said
"Pretty good and pretty well known for being so young" Addison said "What is he like in his late twenties or something?" she asked
"Twenty-eight, so to young for all you cougars at the practice" Sam said not taking his attention away from seasoning the meat but did manage a laugh as he felt Addison's eyes on him
"He's no you. If you ever wondered why I didn't…it was because he was no you" Addison replied as a moment of silence came between him as he knew exactly who she was referring to "Sam?" she turned to look back at him continuing to prepare the meat but she knew that she had hurt him and that it was a subject that he struggled with
"Why? Why did you…you know?" Sam asked softly in his calm and steady tone
"It wasn't because of you. I was just dealing with everything about Bizzy and Susan, it just became overwhelming…" Addison told him
"And then the baby issue a long with the marriage issue, was that another added reason?" Sam asked her as all Addison could do was look towards him to see how much she had hurt the man that she loved. She hated that she had done this to him, to them
"Yes. That added to it, but it helped me realize that I didn't want to hurt you. I don't want us to be like Derek and I were" Addison said as they both went about their respective tasks in the kitchen
"I'm not mad" Sam replied softly before Addison walked over with her diced onions and bell peppers to place beside him
"But your hurt, which is understandable. I know my past gives you reason to worry or be cautious" Addison told him as she watched him intently "But I love you. I'm more sure of that than anything" she said
"I guess…" Sam said as he put the meat on the tray but couldn't control the emotions he had pint up in him before he just finally just set the meat down to just take a moment to breath "I just get worried that you may cheat in the future. I mean what if, what if we build this future together then secretly your unhappy and want someone else…I guess I'm scared of the investment" he said
"I can't promise you the future, not because I don't want to but because I can't. I just know that you're the one I want, you're the one I want to have my future and ending with, in every sense of the word I want to spend my life with you" Addison told him as she almost came to tears "I need you, and I know that makes me pathetic but I need you" she laughed in between tears before he quickly wiped away the tears that were falling from her eyes "And now I'm crying like a loser" she said as they both laughed
"I don't think your pathetic not by the slightest" Sam smiled at her as she reached over to hug him. Wrapping a single arm around her waist he kissed the top of her head to give her the reassurance she needed to know that his feelings were still very genuine towards her. She couldn't explain how she felt about Sam, he had been the biggest surprise in her life that she just never saw coming but she was thankful each day that he was with her and that they were together. When he smiled at her it made her melt like a teenager all over again, when he touched her it made her body go into overdrive, when he kissed her it just made her feel like she was on cloud nine, when he held her she felt like she needed to take in the scent of him just so she could remember it for a lifetime to come, and when they made love it just felt like she was a virgin all over again that couldn't get enough of him. She'd never felt so in love with someone like she had with Sam and that scared her at times because the greater the love, the greater the heartache.
After eating their dinner the couple cuddled up together on the sofa just watching the old classics on the movie channel while they shared a glass of wine. Resting her head against his chest as she wrapped her hands around his finely toned abs, she found herself going in and out of sleep as she felt his steady breathing to be like a melody to her that just sent her to sleep. Rubbing her back in a steady rhythm, Sam found himself intently watching the movie just thinking how these old movies always made life seem so simple when in reality it was the craziest of things. Beginning to stir awake once again she couldn't hide the fact that she was asleep as Sam began to notice her sudden movement. Letting out a laugh at how she looked Sam couldn't help himself, quickly hitting him with a pillow for making fun of her.
"Stop laughing at me" Addison told him as she continued to keep hitting him while he blocked her hits
"If you wanted to go to sleep than just go to sleep" Sam told her
"I'm trying to watch this movie with you. I never thought it'd be that long but I'm trying to stick it out" Addison laughed "Stop laughing" she said as he leaned over to give her a quick kiss
"Aw, I needed that" Sam said catching his breath "You picked the movie. You quote on quote said that it was a movie you always wanted to watch" he teased her
"Next time I'll check the minutes on the movie before making that statement" Addison said as she sat up to see a box sitting on the coffee table "What's that?" she turned to ask him in complete surprise
"Why don't you look and see" Sam told her as she checked his eyes to get some sort of confirmation before she slowly tossed the blanket to the side then extended her hand out to grab the box to unwrap it
"When did you put that there?" Addison asked him
"Well you've taken plenty of naps and you're a heavy sleeper" Sam laughed as Addison just smiled at him before leaning in to give him a quick kiss. Opening the box slowly she was a little saddened to see that there wasn't an engagement ring but a folded up piece of paper. "You should read it to me, I forget sometimes" he told her as she opened up the piece of paper and became overly emotional.
"Will you make a family with me?" Addison read in between the tears that were coming but did her best to keep it together "What does this mean?" she turned to ask him with her eyes all watery
"I want us to have a family together. I want to take that step with you. I know I was hesitant at first but with everything that's happened I've realize that we're not always guaranteed to have time. Anything can happen, but I know that I want a future with you and want to have a baby be a part of that future….or babies" Sam laughed as she quickly pulled him into a kiss
"You know this isn't going to be easy right? I mean my ovaries are as about as screwed up as they can be…one egg, that's all I got" Addison told him
"I only like one egg so it works for me. Too many eggs make me queasy" Sam joked
"I'm being serious here" Addison said trying not to laugh until he gave her another quick kiss to calm her down
"I like my chances with you" Sam smiled
"God, I love you so much" Addison smiled as she pulled him into another kiss this time letting it last a little longer. Just caught up in the overwhelming emotions they had for each other, neither he or she cared what was on the television screen as they were more focused on just being together in the moment.
