Authors Note: I hope You guys Enjoy Reading This Story. I Hated The Season Finale I Was Hoping For Some St. Berry But Nothing Happened, So I Decided to Write a FanFiction Even Though I Suck At Writing. So Please Have Some Patience With Me and Don't Forget To Review Anyways On With The Story.

CHAPTER 1

Jesse could not believe what he was just witnessing and wasn't aware of the horrified gasps coming from the audience. All he could think about was No it can't be. She would never do this to me, but she did the proof was just in front of him. He was watching and couldn't do anything to stop them and all he could do was stare and blurted out 'Was this scripted?' After hearing a no for an answer he knew he had to get out of there and fast. So he ran and got out of the auditorium as fast as he could and was soon in the busy streets of New York City.

He felt the cold air blow in his face and was finally able to clear his head and think clearly. He finally grasped what he had just witnessed and felt his heart shatter in millions of pieces. His Rachel… well no, not his. She would never be his, she never has been. Sure they dated for a while when he transferred to McKinley, but he knew she was still pinning after Finn. He knew this because he would sometimes catch her staring at him when she thought he wasn't looking or paying attention. He ignored the fact that his girlfriend was staring at someone else instead of him, but was also scared that she would leave him any minute and decide to go back with Finn.

It's true that at first he was with Rachel because Shelby his Vocal Adrenaline coach asked him to get close to Rachel and explained to him that Rachel was her daughter and she wanted to talk to her. He agreed to help her because he was fond of Shelby and he owed her a lot. But also because he saw it as a great acting experience. What he wasn't prepared for was to actually fall in love. Yes, he loves Rachel Berry with all of his heart. He came back to her and told him how sorry he was and told her he was in love with her, but she still goes and kisses Finn in front of a whole audience during Nationals. Of all places they had to kiss at Nationals and ruined their only chance of winning. Anyways he had fallen in love with Rachel, but had realized that too late.

-Flashback-

They had just received their trophy at Regionals and he dared take a look in Rachel's direction. She looked devastated. She had the same look in her eyes as she did when he and the rest of his Vocal Adrenaline team decided to throw eggs at her knowing she was vegetarian. He didn't want to egg her, but his team still didn't trust him and didn't want him. So he had to prove himself to his fellow teammates. He now regrets so much and would take it back in an instant. He hadn't meant to cause her any pain. But it's too late for that now though what has been done is done.

The look in her eyes that day had been full with pain, sadness, regret, and anger. It had made him feel so guilty. At Regionals she had the same look in her eyes but instead of regret there was disappointment and A LOT of anger. He didn't have to ask her to know that all that anger was directed towards him. He felt saddened and pained him to know that she could actually hate him now. She had enough reason to hate him but still it hurt. That's what finally made him realize that he actually cared for Rachel more than he had wanted to admit to himself. He realized that he loved her more than anything and wanted to go to her and tell her how sorry he was and beg her to take him back. But it was too late for any of that at that moment he knew that. He had blown up the only chance he had with her and she was never going to forgive him. About two weeks after Regionals he heard that Rachel had started dating Finn. At first he was sad, but he was then angry because if she was with Finn just two weeks after their recent breakup then that meant she hadn't cared for him as much as she said she did. He then decided he would forget about Rachel, move on with his life and so he left to UCLA.

-End of Flashback-

Jesse kept on walking through the busy streets of New York when he felt something on his cheek. It was then he realized he had been crying this whole time. He wiped off his tears his mind racing and finally makes up his mind. He would forget Rachel Berry but for real this time and move on with his life. He couldn't go back to UCLA because he got kicked out, so he decided he would stay and live in New York. He would apply to NYU, swallow his pride and ask his family for help financially and he will start his freshman year all over again. He will not mess up like last time at UCLA and he will NOT think of Rachel again. With that reasoning Jesse St. James will begin a new life and with a fresh start with no Rachel or love in his life. Or so that's what he thought.