AN: So I got this idea while listening to Animal I Have Become – Three Days Grace… I just thought it would really fit how Ari felt when he first became an Eraser. So… yeah.
I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Ever since Dad took the flock out of this the School… it's only been a living hell to me. And they caused that, the flock that is. Right?
I tried to escape here; all they do is experiment on me like they did the flock. As if I didn't have a say in anything. Everyday I discover a new pain. I actually got out of the cage which is about 3 sizes too small, but they caught me. All I got was painful punishment.
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
No one can save me now. I just finished an experiment. I don't feel the same… and my dad isn't here to help me. I suddenly get very angry at the flock and my dad, but mostly the flock… they took him away from me.
I got angrier and I got… taller? Furrier? What's happening to me? All the whitecoats stared at me in amazement, like I was some kind of exhibit.
I growled and charged at them. I didn't mean to! I had no control over my actions, I just knew that I was angry.
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me?
No one will ever change
This animal I have become
They all screamed and ran out the door. Leaving me all alone in a room. I looked through the glass where the whitecoats now where. I saw my reflection. I was a monster… an animal, that I had no control over.
The won't even bring me back to normal, this is all happening because of the flock. It's their fault I'm this… animal.
If my dad was here, this never would happen.
Help me believe
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
I'm still the same Ari though. No matter what anyone says. Right? Or am I just this beast with no self control. This thought made me angrier as I growled once again. I wanted to tear something – or someone – apart.
I got scared. I ran up to the glass, begging the whitecoats to help me and change me back to the little kid I used to be. I don't want to be this vicious thing. It's not me! It's what they did to me!
I can't escape myself
So many times I've lied
But there's still rage inside
Before I couldn't escape this hell hole. Now I can't get away from this animal I have become.
I lied to myself just as my dad lied to me, telling myself I'm still the same old Ari, nothing's changed about me. It's all just a lie.
Every day I get angrier and angrier. Thirsting for blood. I don't try to fight it anymore. The flock stole my dad, and I'm going to steal him back. One way or another.
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
They still run tests, except now, they fear me. I can do just about anything I want. All you have to do is get me mad and I'll morph into that animal. That animal that thirsts for blood, mostly the flocks blood.
I control it when I turn into the beast though, it's honestly not my fault. It's the flocks. If they were still here I wouldn't be this… thing.
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me?
No one will ever change
This animal I have become
I get stronger and stronger every day. It's my goal to see and kill the flock. Once and for all. They stole many things from me. I'm stealing them back.
No one can change me back now. And I don't want them to. I will take out the flock if it's the last thing I do.
I have power with this animal. People fear me. And they should.
Help me believe
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame
This animal I have become
Deep down inside though, I still want to be the same old Ari. Not the one that can rip your head off easily. I want the whitecoats to treat me like I was before on some level too.
Now, they just look at me as if I was an alien. I didn't belong.
I need help controlling myself when I turn into the thing though. I don't want to go on a killing rampage. If I ask the whitecoats though… it will only result in punishment.
Help me believe
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
I never asked to be this monster. I guess you don't always get what you want. But I never get to watch cartoons in my dad's office anymore. The whitecoats don't let me play with the experiments anymore.
Because I am one…
Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell
There are more animals like me now. We aren't normal. Not in the slightest. I can't control my anger anymore. I can't control my body anymore. I can't control myself anymore.
I go to sleep every night, hoping it is all a dream – or should I say nightmare – but I only wake up to find the same old animal. This is a nightmare in real life.
I tried to escape the School. But what I really need to do is escape myself.
My life is hell, and it's all because of the flock.
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me?
No one will ever change
This animal I have become
I'm not Ari anymore. I'm so much more. People who have seen my angry fear me, and it makes me happy. I am superior. And those who don't think I am don't get the best of luck.
No one will ever change me. I learned to accept that. I will see the flock, one day.
And I will show them this animal I have become.
Help me believe
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame
This animal I have become
The animal is not the real me, I tell myself this every day. Trying to get disturbing thoughts out of my head.
I wish someone can help me control the animal though. I feel I have no control over it, and I don't. I don't want to kill everyone who makes me angry.
Just the flock.
Help me believe
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
No one believes I am cute little Ari anymore. No. They look at me the way they looked at the flock. An experiment with no feelings. I do have feelings. They always seem to trigger anger though.
The other people who morph don't even want to control the animal they become. They teach me that if we can control it, there's no point in being it.
I think about that before I go to sleep…
This animal I have become
I am an animal. That's all that matters now. I'm no longer Ari. I have more power than anyone can dream of.
I dream of killing the flock. The old Ari is slipping away every day. I'm becoming more and more like this animal.
And I like it.
The flock better beware.
Because this animal is going after them.
AN: REIVEW PLEASE!
