My duties as a leader are my own.

Behind what I do to protect,

I have my reasons.

You all say I'd do it anyway.

I believe you.

But I cannot take responsibility for it after my sins.

I pass it off as my 'job'

I say I do what is needed because it's my duty.

But it's my duty because of more than my status.

I care about you all.

But I can never say it.

I'm afraid of myself,

And afraid of you all being hurt.

I stand on high ground because you lifted me there.

I speak proudly,

Because you gave me my pride.

When I'm weak,

You match my stride and push me along.

When I'm strong,

You stand aside and let me do what's important.

But

I want you to stand next to me and do these things with me.

I want you to guide me.

I want love.

I can't confess,

I can't do this all alone.

I can't stand here

Without your help.

I'm alone inside,

You know that.

You've lifted me up again and dusted my broken wings.

You've mended

A hurt,

Lonely,

Soul.