I Never Had a Chance to Say.
Author: Hex
Rating: G
Disclaimers: Me no own Wufei or Meiran.
Note: This sprang from a conversation I had with my best friend about Wufei and why he is the way he is. There is another one of these for Duo on my hard drive somewhere...I have to many files!
Thanks: My Muse Xam and Enigma O for having this conversation with me, the countryside is always so inspirational when you and I walk and talk!
Enjoy all!
Wufei 4ever!
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I stand here, on this cliff, staring out at the sunset across the sea. The scene is more amazing than I ever imagined it would be. The violence and destruction of war mean nothing when compared to a sight such as this. The way the colours mix on the horizon like paint in a palette. All natures splendours just laid out for me to see.
And I am all alone to see them.
I wish you were here, to stand beside me and stare at the sky with me. I wish I could see all it's different tones reflected in your eyes. I wish I could see your eyes again.
You were strong.
I was weak.
I am still weak.
I can feel the warm tears on my face and wish the soft caress of your hand would wipe them away.
I can still feel your weight in my arms, feel the coolness of your dead skin against mine. I prayed my heat would return life to you.
It never did.
I never had a chance to say...
I can remember, so vividly, the way you looked merely asleep in my arms. I stared at you for a time I cannot measure. I do not wish to know how long we stayed like that. I wanted you to open your eyes, to yell at me for staring at you as you slumbered.
You never did.
I never had a chance to say...
You were always so strong. You looked so weak and frail...But appearances can be deceiving. You were always so perfect my darling.
I held you close, so tightly I was afraid I would break you, my precious one. I wept into your hair, trying to cry life back into you. There was nothing I could do for you. I could not bring you back.
I never had a chance to say...
I try to be like you, my beauteous warrior. I wish I could do your memory justice...
Justice...
There is no justice. If there were, you would be here, watching the sunset with me.
Why can I not stop these hateful tears?
Why can I not stop feeling?
Why can I not just stop?
No one can ever compare to you my Goddess. All I see around me are those to weak to be placed against you in my heart. I would that you were here, to hear those words tumble from my lips in the heat of passion.
I never had a chance to say...
I love you my Nataku. My Meiran.
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I felt that I needed to write this just to help myself understand Wufei better. Do you guys want the Duo one as well? Hmmm, I think I'll do one for each character.
Let me know what you all thought!
R&R
Laters
Hex.
