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A note? Really? A NOTE?! This is how he says goodbye to me?
Rose, After considering Tasha's offer, I have decided that it would be best for both of us if I took it. Please understand that I want nothing but the best for you and wish you every happiness. Maybe we can meet again someday, but right now, your future with Lissa is too much at stake and I do not wish to complicate things for you. I have asked to be reassigned, so my replacement should be there in a few days. Be safe.
-Dimitri
This had to be the fifth time I'd read it, trying to find any underlying meanings, searching for a way that this terrible note couldn't be true. And for the fifth time, I didn't find anything. How in the hell did he have the right to decide what was the right choice for me? Why did he get to make that decision by himself? DAMMIT! This was possibly the hugest slap in the face I'd ever gotten.
After Mason… After the attack in Spokane, Dimitri had said that he loved me and he could never take Tasha's offer. He wanted me. I wanted him too, and he knew it. I went into that cave after him, knowing full well that I might die. There was nothing in this world that I wouldn't have done for him, and now he's gone. He hadn't given anything regarding his intentions away. This note was a complete surprise.
I checked the clock. It was nine o'clock a.m. in the human world, which meant it was almost the middle of the night for St. Vlad's. Maybe I could just feign sickness for tomorrow and then just stay in my room for the weekend as well. All class would remind me of was Dimitri. The extra trainings in the morning and the afternoon with him would be gone. His missing presence in Stan's class as well as the few other classes he stood in would be too much for me to bear. No. I just couldn't do it.
I changed into my pajamas, throwing the note in the back of my desk drawer. I didn't need it. I knew what it said by heart. I crawled under the covers, willing the world away. I checked in on Lissa hoping for a distraction; she was with Christian. I pulled my mind away and shoved her feelings as far away as possible. I didn't need any reminders of how that felt.
Rolling over, I cocooned myself in my blankets. I found that if I closed my eyes for too long, I saw the note behind my eyelids. Then Dimitri's face would flash. All the times we had had practice or we were just talking, they were just there. Then, the night of the lust charm crept into the forefront of my thoughts. I opened my eyes in an instant.
I don't know who I was trying to fool. I wasn't sleeping at all tonight.
