Summary: Bella is changed into a vampire after the Cullens leave her in New Moon. They come back to rescue her but it's too late. Bella's mind was damaged and she becomes a monster just like Edward feared. The Volturi come and take her away and it is there that she meets Alec.
How lovely you are. So lovely in my straight jacket though the bloodstains do clash with your lipstick no matter… you are beautiful.
A fragile heart paired with a now fragile mind. Losing a battle I waged against myself. A new me; so cold and far away. Gleaming like a distant star I blaze with light; I am a dying star. I lived in inferno and now I feel nothing. My heart no longer fragile, it's cold and surrounded by black onyx walls. My mind lost the battle and it is gone. It seems that the devil is really a boy; a boy so pretty it hurts. He likes to hurt me and I like to hurt him back. Two halves of a whole; we're perfect for each other and at the same time we're completely wrong for one another. They say good things never last and I pray that this thing does but then my mind flips and I want everything to end. I live to destroy beautiful things.
It wasn't supposed to have happened like this. I was supposed to be changed by the one I loved. And then when they left, I was supposed to stay human. But nothing ever works out the way it's supposed to.
The dark locks of his hair fell gently over his eyes, making him look deceptively vulnerable. He stalked towards me with a smile that on anyone else would look kind and inviting but, on him looked menacing. He was tragically beautiful and I couldn't help but ogle him even though I knew he was to be my demise. His cold eyes –black at first glance- flashed their deep red upon closer inspection. They brightened as he looked at me in satisfaction. He was so close now and my heart beat furiously as if trying to make the most of its last moments. Against my will my mouth opened to speak.
"A-are you going t-t-to k-ki-i-ill m-m-me?" I whispered shakily.
I knew it would be futile to run so I remained motionless even as my legs itched to flee. His fiery eyes slipped shut as he began to inhale deeply. He was muttering quietly under his breath but only the word 'delicious' was caught by my ears. I thought that he wasn't going to answer me. A large cold hand flashed up and roughly pushed my long hair aside from my neck. He left his hand over my hammering pulse. All of a sudden his eyes were open with amusement playing in their depths.
"Kill you? I'll try not to; it would be a waste of beauty. What I have in store for you though is sometimes considered much worse than death. My control is not entirely all that great though so your survival rate however is still slim." His voice was beautiful even as it hinted at something painful.
He was so lovely, even compared to other vampires. Hair an inky halo around his face and burgundy eyes; he was like a panther turned human. A perfect predator like Edward had once said. I didn't quite get it until now though. Staring into his eyes, I was hypnotized. At least my last sight in this world would be something beautiful. Suddenly he pulled me into a cold embrace; sending shivers through my body. His lips were at my neck and my breath came in short bursts. It felt like my heart was about to explode. I couldn't even gather up the breath to scream. Lust and fear were warring in my brain when I felt a gentle kiss being placed upon my pounding pulse. Then before I knew it he bit down hard. I swooned in his arms and could hear nothing but the blood pounding through my skull. Perhaps it was for the best; I was tired of barely living. My survival instinct suddenly kicked in though and I struggled but it was futile. I was too weak.
"So weak." My thoughts whispered.
"Then sleep just sleep. Leave this lonely place behind." I answered myself.
"Sleep." Was my last coherent thought before I was dragged under.
I groggily opened my eyes when he stopped sucking my blood. He released my neck and I glimpsed his blood stained mouth. So wrong but, so lovely. A memory tried to get through my hazy mind but I couldn't get it right; just nonsense about lipstick, straight jackets and bloodstains. It's always blood in the end.
He sat down and I felt him running his fingers through my hair. Then I heard growls and thunder and lastly I heard the sound of metallic keening. It was all so familiar but I couldn't get the memory to come. The world grew dark around me, my eyes slipped shut and I sighed softly. Dying really wasn't all that bad. My eyes flew open as I finally noticed the slow throbbing pain as it coursed through my veins. How did I not notice it before? It was an ache; sharp stinging pains attacking my body. It felt like I was being slowly melted. I screamed and suddenly I was in someone's arms and we were racing through the night. Bright stars whirled around my head, glittering coldly; mocking me. I gasped and thrashed wildly but, it was no use; his grip was like iron.
Acidic tears dripped from my eyes and streamed down my face, igniting my skin on fire. Then everything went black as my vision faded but, how could I be blind when my world was set on fire? The answer hit me then I wasn't dying but changing.
I thought I had been prepared for the burning that being changed consisted of but I was wrong. There were no words to describe the pain. Of course though when I awoke with new eyes they were there. Alice had seen it but ultimately they had been too late. I ended up being a monster though; even Alice couldn't have predicted that.
