Nothing changes, Everything does

AN: I so do not own Twilight.

B p.o.v.

I was sitting in the meadow.

Once this had been the place to bring me the most joy, now It brought me the greatest pain. I was

desperate, absolutely desperate. I wanted so bad not to believe what Edward had said, but his words

resonated throughout my mind. He didn't love me. I was just a pathetic human, a burden. The

hole in my chest ripped open even wider, and sobs racked my body. Suddenly, I heard a rustling

in the forest, but for once, I wasn't afraid, because whatever it was I was sure it would take me

out of my misery. I was positive they could not hurt me as much as Edward had. It turned out to

be Jake, my trusted friend. His face was somewhat pained. "Bells, no offense but I'm sick of you

crying over that leech." I cringed at the word. "Jake, Edward is not a leech. Or a blood sucker.

He's a vampire." Jake rolled his eyes and said, "Belle's that's the whole point. It's his nature to

hurt and hunt people. It's in his nature." His words stung, but I realized the truth in them. Slowly,

I stated, "Jake you may be right." His face displayed shock, and he said "What?" I nodded. "Jake,

I have spent too much time grieving haven't I." He nodded. "I mean he would want me to be

happy and besides he told me I need a more normal lifestyle anyway." Jake shook his head. "Not

exactly what I meant but it's a start."

Later that night I prepared for bed, with a plan in my mind. I would call up Jessica the next day

and see if she could excuse my rather odd behavior. I would try to fix things with Lauren, and

maybe even give Mike half a chance. Okay maybe not Mike, but there had to be some perfectly cool guys out there. Not even Forks was that small. I prepared to say goodnight to Charlie, of

course stumbling on my way down the stairs, only this time no one was there to catch me.

Rubbing my skinned elbow, I walked into the living room, where some late night game was

happening. When I reached the door of the living room,my Good night Dad, was stuck in my

throat. Sitting in Charlie's seat was a sight I never hoped to see. Charlie's neck was bent at such

an odd angle I knew automatically he was dead. And a strange vampire was standing right next to

the body. The look in the vampires eyes told me she was thirsty, but extremely sorry. I had seen

that look in Jasper's eyes at my birthday party. The thought of even Jasper caused the hole to

make itself known. That caused me to let my gaud down for about a nano second, which was

enough time for the vampire to attack. I screamed as her teeth sunk into my skin. At the sound I

guess her conscience was awakened, because she ripped her teeth out of my throat but it didn't

matter. The deed was done and the transformation was beginning.