Chapter one: Hello again!

It was morning again. The sun slowly rose from behind the mountains. Yet another night without sleep, because of these horrifying pictures kept coming to my mind. I saw Sasuke-Kun lying on the forest soil with Orochimaru or Itachi besides him, laughing evil. Sasuke was drenched in his own blood, dead for sure since he doesn't move or anything. Every time I dream this I wake up, panting for air. I can't deal this pain anymore.

Once again I wished to be dead, I'm to weak to bring my former teammate, my only true love, back, so what is the point in living?

Flashback

"Please! Please d-don't leave me b-behind! I want to go with you, Sasuke-Kun! I want to train with you and h-help you avenge your clan! Sasuke-Kun?" he didn't even listen till the end. I feel even weaker than before… I thought when he turned around, leaving me behind in the nearly destroyed Sound Base. "Sasuke-Kun!" I tried again. At least he stopped, still avoiding my gaze. "Why don't you come back? Everyone is waiting for you back in Konoha…" I tried with a weak voice. I could hear his ´Hn and he vanished. I sunk on my knees. Now he was gone…

"Sakura…" I felt a hot breath on my neck-HIS hot breath! I held my breath. "…Yes?" I asked hopeful. "Stop crying. Emotions are for the weak." With that he calmly walked through the door.

Flashback ends

I tried nearly anything. From cutting my wrists to suicide, from dying ´accidentally on a mission to take too much pills. But every time I couldn't bring it to an end. The worst thing to me was I had nobody to speak with about my problems. Ino was now dating her Shika-Kun and Naruto was on missions or he trained, because he would finally reach his goal: Sixth Hokage. I was proud of him.

Tomorrow would be my birthday and I would turn eighteen. Long ago I gave up the hope pf a birthday present of Sasuke, I would be disappointed if I would hope for something like that.

It was only 5.00 am so I lay back and watched the sun out of my window. No matter what happens, the sun was rising every day again and again. I smiled lightly. It was the first time I smiled since a very long time. When I imaged the look on Narutos face when he would see me smile at an ordinary thing like the sun I even had to giggle a little…

Flashback

"Come on Saku-Chan!" Naruto begged. I just looked at him with my emotionless expression, Ino had called me ´Zombie for some times now. "Smile and forget that Teme!!" he tried to cheer me up, but everything he did reminded me of the time we had as team 7. Tears welled up in my eyes. "Im sorry, Naruto-Kun…" I said and ran off to my place. When I reached my door I was crying hard.

Flashback ends

Where was all the sadness from the last years all of a sudden? I was a little concerned about my health; I showed symptoms of a deep depression. At least the others will be happy… my Inner said. Since when do you talk again? I asked her. She hadn't showed up for some months…or years? Time had been running…

I was there with you ever since, but your…illness… had hold me busy.

What do you mean? I asked puzzled.

You have an idea, why you're not lying six feet under? She screamed angry-.

You…did… Yes! I had plenty to do to keep you alive! I don't want to die because of HIM!

Thanks then… I said when the meaning of her words hit me.

I looked around the training grounds. After my sudden happiness I decided to visit them and maybe train a little. It felt good, I hadn't trained in years (a/n: Ok, she didn't train at least for a month. Sakura wasn't on missions either-remember the depression. She went to her work in the hospital and helped her Shisou (Tsunade) a little.).

I just practised some kicks and punches with my special strength and headed back to my house to take a shower.

Lets go out and eat Ramen for our breakfast then!! We haven't had some a looong time!! Inner me begged. I sighed. I guess… it was only 7.00 am and I started working in the hospital at 8.00 am, so there was enough time left.

"Some Ramen, please." I ordered at the Ichiraku. The young woman looked at me and gave a curt nod. I wonder why she looks at me like this…I asked my Inner. In fact everyone was giving me those strange looks. Havnt looked in a mirror this morning, have you? She asked. No, why? I smashed my mirrors three weeks ago…You should buy a new one...

I turned around and shrieked when I looked in the large window of a shop. My face wasn't pale anymore, it was white and my eyes were dark by the lack of sleep. The rest of me didn't look better: I was skinny and looked very fragile.

"Here, please." My Ramen was ready and I started to eat. No wonder, Ino calls me a zombie…

I think you look more like the death himself, but zombie isn't bad either. I snorted at her words. WOOOW!! She screamed in my head. You show reaction!!! STOP IT! I shouted back. You're giving me headache! Bickering I ended my meal. I took my wallet out, but the young lady and the Ramen Man shook their heads. "You don't have to pay this. Were happy you're feeling better, after all this long time." I thanked them and they smiled at me. I was nearly around the corner when I turned around and quickly ran back. "Could you please tell Naruto-Kun I want to talk to him?" They nodded. "I'm at the hospital till noon, and after I will help Tsunade-Sama." I told them. If you want to leave Naruto a massage then at Ichiraku!

It feels better with a happy outer! Inner me did a little dance. But I snapped out of my thoughts when I reached the hospital. Everyone was busy and the nurses hurried around. I could see some blood on the floor and dirty bandages were lying around. My eyes narrowed and I hurried to find Tsunade when a brown haired medic crossed my way. "Shizune-San!" I yelled. "Huh… Oh! Sakura-San!" she came over to me. "What happened?" "Its all a terrible mess! Some ANBU from the border control were attacked and seriously injured. They came here half an hour ago. Nearly the half is going to die, they were too badly wounded. Tsunade-Sa…" She looked at me with wide eyes. I had taken out my gloves "Where do you need help?" I asked to not waste any time. Shizune pointed at a room besides her. I nodded and was about to enter… "Sakura? Be careful… We don't know who attacked and with what… its so horrible…" she muttered and went her way. I gulped. What was that about?? I don't know, but whatever is in there seems to scare her…

I opened the door and found myself in a semi-lit room. There were three beds in it and I could hear them moan in pain. I quickly checked everyone and I had to hold my tears back when one of them died while I tried to figure out what happened to them. They had deep bloody scratches on their sides and when I tried to close them with Chakra they began bleeding.

Think fast Saku-Chan!! Inner me said We don't want the other two to die, too…

Yeah, but what can I do? I'm… Cut it out! You're one of the best medics and you're not some stupid girl! Hmpf! You definitely need some more self-confidence…

What…oh, wait! It reminds me of some poison I read about in Suna! You have to give another poison to destroy the first one! We have to tell CRACK! The door was slammed open and my Shisou stormed in the room. I looked at her shocked when she hugged me. "The REAL Sakura is back!!" she said with tears in her eyes. WTH?! Did I hurt them that much with being depressive?? I wondered. By this reaction…YES. But there's no time to wonder!!!

"Yeah, thanks…" I gasped for breath. "I figured out the poison." I said. "What? Why…How?"

"I've read about it in Suna. We will have to give them another poison to destroy the first one, and then we need Chakra to destroy the second. After this the wounds can be closed…"

"Great work, Sakura!" Shizune said and Tsunade nodded. I smiled.

After five hours of healing the ANBU 6 of 10 survived. It wasn't the best quote, but it could've been worser than that. I lay down on a free bed next to the injured, so if they would need help I would be there. Tsunade and Shizune went to the office to take some rest. They would come again later.

I was about falling asleep when I heard loud steps coming closer. I heard Ino scream at Naruto. But that wasn't unusual. "Where's Sakura-Chan???" I could hear Naruto cry out. I wondered why he was so excited. Then the door was slammed open again and this time it really cracked. I closed my eyes. Such an idiot… "SAKURAAA!! NOOO!!!" Ino screamed and Naruto came up to me and shook me. I opened my eyes annoyed. Why did I want to talk to him again? I asked sarcastic You wanted to thank him because… "Ina, get a doc! She's still alive!" Naruto yelled at Ino. "But all the blood…" She said feared.

Oh! I figured out. "N-Naruto…" I tried but he cut me off "Sssh... Don't speak. Hurry up Ino!!!" Now I couldn't help: I laughed. They…giggle… th-think you wanted t-to commit… suicide a-again…my Inner was laughing too.

I looked at Naruto who looked at me puzzled. "I just healed five hours non-stop. This is definitely not my blood!" I explained after I had calmed down. I looked at Ino who was staring at me like I had two heads or something. Then… "YOURE BACK!!!!" glomps me.

"Cant…breath…" She let go and Naruto hugged me. "You wanted to tell me something??"

He asked and let go of me. "Yes. I wanted to thank you for being there for me in my… bad… days." I kissed his cheek lightly. "And thank you too Ino!" I added. "So do you want to go and eat some Ramen with me and Hinata?" he asked. "I'm sorry, but I can't leave. These are ANBU of the border Control and they were badly injured. Out of 10 6 survived. I have to watch them till Shizune comes back and I have off." He just smiles at me and said maybe another time.

We talked a little and after they left I lay back down on the bed and fell asleep. There were also no nightmares hunting me.

At my birthday I had Ramen with Naruto and a slumber party with the girls. Everyone had cute little gifts for me and slowly I got used to my old life again.

Sooo, This is the Story so far. Tell me if you liked it, please!!

Ja Ne! Sayu

Oi, I forgot!

I dont own Naruto... (I wish I would)