A/N: I heard this song for the first time the other day, and I have to say it absolutely screamed Leyton to me right now. :)

So this is a oneshot (i'm not making it any longer, this is it) songfic to Never Let this Go by Paramore.

Disclaimer: One Tree Hill and the song don't belong to me. Got it?


maybe if my heart stops beating, it won't hurt this much
and never will i have to answer again to anyone

I'm not going to lie. Ever since I came back to Tree Hill, I've been wanting him back.

He's why I came back in the first place. 'Cause I realized what terrible mistakes I had made. Leaving his book signing, not talking to him more while I was there and he was here. Leaving Tree Hill in the first place was a mistake.

Because it's what tore Lucas and me apart. After all that we had said to each other. Things ended between us.

please don't get me wrong
because i'll never let this go, but i can't find the words to tell you

"It's you. When all my dreams come true, the one I want next to me. It's you. It's you, Peyton."

"And I didn't die. I couldn't die. Do you know why? Because I had to come back and look into those green eyes of yours and tell you I love you. I do! I love you Peyton. You didn't push me away. I came back for you. And no matter how long it takes, I'll wait for you."

"It's not going to matter anyways, whether I stay or I go with us. Because I'm gonna love you forever, Lucas Scott."

"Your art matters, it's what got me here."

i don't want to be alone.
but now i feel like, i don't know you.

It's as if Lucas isn't the same person I left behind though. I'm not sure what to think anymore. Because it's like he disappeared.

Tonight was the Clothes over Bros grand opening, and I went with him because Lindsey told me to. But it was so weird.

I still have all these feelings for him, whether I'm ready to admit it or not. And he's the reason I came back, even if I told Brooke otherwise.

I'm in love with Lucas Scott.

one day you'll get sick of saying that everything's alright
and by then i'm sure i'll be pretending, just like i am tonight

I only went to talk to the bartender so that people would think I'm over him.

But I'm not.

And when he came over and asked me if I was ready to go, I wanted nothing more than to tell him that I'd go anywhere with him. But I had to hide my feelings once again.

But as he leaned over to give me a hug, his words just about crushed me.

please don't get me wrong
because i'll never let this go, but i can't find the words to tell you.

"He's not good enough for you."

And it hurt like hell, knowing just how right Lucas was. He walked away, and I was upset.

Because the only one good enough for me was him, and his words made me wonder if he realized that too.

I ran after him, not sure what I was doing. It took all the strength I have not to go running into his arms and kissing him like there was no tomorrow.

So instead I pulled a classic Peyton Sawyer. I yelled at him. I yelled, and I shut him out.

Because if there's one thing I'm good at, it's not letting my guard down with people. But it's not always a good thing.

i don't want to be alone
but now i feel like, i don't know you.
let this go, let this go.

But I meant what I said over four years ago. I'm going to love Lucas Scott forever.

And nothing, not even his stupid, gorgeous editor will change that.

Because I'm about to fight like I never have before. Lucas Scott is mine, and I've lost him one too many times.

It's time to put things back the way they're supposed to be.

but i'll never let this go.


so do me a favour, and review. :)