Title: I Can't Hate You Anymore

Author: AlexCabotIsQueen

Summary: Will you always push me away?

A/N: I got a little inspired with the Nick Lachey "What's Left of Me" album, so I decided to write a series of song-fics(all lyrics in italics) about Cole and Phoebe in various stages of their relationship and it's breakdown. And this first fic is around the time Cole is running from the bounty hunter and he and Phoebe are not together...

Cole POV

This moselium. It's the only place I still can sit and feel her here.

It smells of death. And I guess it's appropriate that here is where we left it. Where everything about me dies.

But, no matter what she thinks...I can't let it die. I can't let it go. Not here...

An empty room can be so deafening

The silence makes you wanna scream

It drives you crazy.

Phoebe POV

He shimmers right back into my life. And expects me to just pick up where we left off.

Well, tough buddy. It doesn't work like that. He lied to me. About everything.

He didn't even tell me what he was, who he was until it was too late.

I just want to forget him...To make him leave my mind...I can't live like this.

I chased away the shadows of your name.

And burned the picture in the frame.

But it couldn't save me

Cole POV

Love is something a demon isn't able to feel. But I can feel it. That makes me more than that.

She has to see past Belthazor...She has to see me. She has to love me. I know she still does.

I can still feel it.

We can't give up. Not without a fight.

How could we quit something we never even tried?

Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up to watch it fall

Like we meant nothing at all.

I gave and gave the best of me.

But couldn't give you what you need.

Phoebe POV

He doesn't even know what he's done to me.

He's entrenched so deeply in my heart. In my soul. That pushing him away nearly has taken it all from me.

I can't handle if I would have to do that again.

It would kill me. Because I chose to love him.

You walked away. You stole my life.

Just to find what you're looking for

But no matter how I try.

I can't hate you anymore.

I try to hate Cole. But it's not something I can do.

I can pretend to hate him, but what I hate is the lies. While I understand why he had to do it, I don't think falling in love with me was really in his plans.

I know falling for him wasn't in mine. But I did.

I just don't know if I can love that demon who has killed so many innocents?

You're not the person that you used to be.

The one I want who wanted me

And that's a shame but

Cole POV

I can't bear the thought of her in pain. Knowing that I'm the source of it makes it even more unbearable.

I have to fix this. I have to win her back. Make her love me again.

Or will she always push me away?

There's only so many tears you can cry

Before it drains the light right from your eyes.

Phoebe POV

I need to move on. I can't hold onto him forever.

I know what he's up against. I know the whole underworld will be looking for him.

I can't let him be with me. It will be the death of him.

I'm doing this for him.

And so I'm letting go of everything we were.

It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

Sometimes you hold so tight it slips right through your hands.

Will I ever understand?

Cole POV

I will find a way to save this. Save us.

If for nothing else.

For her.