Hello and thank you for reading my story! I hope you enjoy it! It's all in Bella's POV.
SUMMARY:
Set after New Moon. Edward has been back with Bella for a month now. But something happened to Bella months before his return and it has been haunting her ever since. She was raped. She has nightmares almost everynight and doesn't know what to do. And not only are the nightmares affecting her life, but something else is affecting her as well...she just doesn't know it yet. Rated M for mature, adult themes.
"Why hello there missy", I heard the dark voice say to me, "what are you doing out here all by yourself hun." Stupid Bella. Your stupid and you shouldn't be here! You should have bought your books and left and went home! The moonlight shined on my attacker and I got a better look at his face.
"Please let go of me!" I tried yelling at him. He slapped me across the face and threw me to the ground. He put his hand tightly over my mouth so I couldn't scream.
"Ah, ah, ah missy not a word out of your pretty little mouth", he pulled a knife out of his pocket, "you see this baby? One word out of your precious little mouth or there won't be anymore talking coming from you ever again." I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to force back the tears that were escaping me.
The attacker started ripping my clothes off my body and I just felt completely helpless. I shut my eyes tighter and thought of the only person that I knew would save me if he could. Edward. I focused on his face, his eyes, his beautiful mouth. I tried to think about the good times we had together. Only the good times.
"I want you to look at me slut! Open your eyes! Open your eyes now!"
"Open your eyes Bella! Bella? Please Bella open your eyes!" My eyes shot open and I awoke with Edward's panicked face. "Are you ok? It sounded like you were having a nightmare." Was I ok? My life now is better then it was now that he is back, but I can't escape what happened that night three months ago. I've been haunted by it ever since, it won't escape me. So was I ok? Physically I was fine, but mentally I wasn't.
"Bella?" Edward flashed his hand in front of my face. "Bella you haven't answered me. Are you ok?"
"Yes...yes I'm fine I...just a bad dream. I'm fine." Why don't you just tell him what happened already.
"Would you like to talk about it?" Yes. Yes and please make it go away.
"N-n-no I'm fine, just shaken up a little." Edward wrapped the covers around me and wrapped his arms around me, holding me tightly to him.
"This is the third nightmare you've had this week. Are you sure your ok?" I nodded into his chest.
"I'm fine." LIAR!
"I'm just worried about you. Just know whatever it is you can tell me." I felt myself starting to cry. I shut my eyes tightly to try and hold back my tears. All I could do to reply to him was nod my head again. "Bella look at me." I didn't move, I kept my head still. "I know you haven't fallen back asleep. Please look at me, are you crying?"
"No." My voice broke and betrayed me. Edward pushed me back and held my face in his hands.
"You are crying. Bella please! What has been haunting you these past couple of weeks? Ever since I've come back you've been having these nightmares and I know there is a reason for it so please. Please! Just talk to me. Tell me what is scaring you so badly. I'll help you. I'll make it go away." I laid there for a moment crying. Edward still held my face in his hands. He stroked his thumbs under my eyes to wipe my tears away. I needed to tell him. Edward had been back for a month now. I should have told him a month ago but I haven't been able to bring myself to tell him. I guess I knew if I told him he would be angry. Angrier then ever and he would be more protective of me then ever. But I needed to get this out and tell him. He deserved to know.
"Ok...."
"What happened?" He stroked my cheeks.
"About three months ago...oh Edward I just...I don't know..." Edward pulled me tight to his chest, placing a kiss on my forehead.
"You can tell me", he spoke softly, "please tell me I'll help you."
"It's just...bad Edward. What happened..." I sobbed out.
"How bad?"
"Really bad." He pulled back slightly, looking into my eyes. He began to stroke my cheeks again.
"If it's as bad as you say then you need to tell me Bella." I took a deep breath and exhaled loudly. I nodded at him.
"Ok. Three months ago I went into Seattle by myself. I went to this book store I've always wanted to go to and... well.... I decided to take short cut. But the short cut wasn't a short cut...I got lost. I was stupid. So I wondered around for a while and then it got dark. I finally found the parking lot where I had parked my car. I started making my way over there until..." I felt the sobs threatening to rip out of my chest again.
"Until what Bella? What happened?" I took another deep breath.
"Someone...a man...in this alley that was near my car. He grabbed me." I looked at Edward to see his reaction. His eyes were wide and pitch black. And his nostrils were flared and his mouth was pressed in a tight line.
"What...what did he do to you?" Edward's voice was shaky. He was angry. I looked away from him and let the tears finally escape me again. Edward sat up from my bed bringing me with him. He sat across from me and took my head in his hands again.
"Did he rape you Bella? Is that what your trying to tell me? He raped you?" I didn't say anything and I think he got the jist of it. Edward picked me up and sat me on his lap. He cradled me into his chest and just let me cry.
"Why haven't you told me Bella?" He tried to sound calm but he failed miserably.
"I don't know. I honestly don't know."
"What happened...after?"
"He left me in the alley. I had my cell phone with me. I reached into my sweatshirt pocket and called 911 and they found me."
"How badly were you hurt?"
"Edward I don't want you to get upset..."
"Tell me Bella." He replied sharply.
"I had a black eye...a bloody lip which had to be stitched up. Countless other bruises,marks, and...other stuff,", I didn't want to bring up how badly I was bleeding...after the attacker penetrated me. Edward didn't need anymore torture. Edward squeezed me as tight as he could, without hurting me, into his chest. He rocked me slowly.
"This is all my fault. If I hadn't left you.... If I didn't leave you none of this would have happened!"
"It's not your fault!" Now I was angry. "It's all mine. If I wasn't an idiot and just walked to my car and didn't make up a stupid short cut none of this would have happened. Don't blame yourself for this! It's not your fault. It happened and there is nothing we can do about it now ok? I just...I just want to stop these nightmares." Edward sighed loudly.
"Have you tried talking to somebody? A therapist?"
"Yes, but it just made me more upset to talk about it. It didn't help much. And now that you know...I feel a lot better."
"Yes and if you ever need to talk about it you come straight to me. You'll get through it Bella...with some time."
"Does it still affect Rosalie?"
"Yes. It always has and always will for her." I began to cry harder. I didn't want to spend the rest of my life or the rest of eternity being haunted by this. "Bella that's how it is for Rosalie! Your not Rosalie. You can overcome this."
"I hope so."
"You will. Do you feel like you can fall back asleep? Or do you just want to continue talking." I looked over at my nightstand and the clock read 2:25 A.M.
"I think I need to sleep. School tomorrow."
"You shouldn't worry about school."
"Edward I've been dealing with this for a while now and I can handle myself at school."
"Ok." And we left it at that. I laid back down on my bed and saw Edward taking off his shoes.
"What are you doing?" He tucked himself under the covers next to me and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me close to him. I felt his lips at me ear.
"Protecting you." He said softly.
"You never get under the covers."
"There is a first for everything." I closed my eyes and snuggled against his chest.
"I love you Edward."
"I love you to. I love you so much. Goodnight my angel." With that I drifted off into sleep.
A/N
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