Sarah did not think about what she was doing at the moment.

She just acted.

Because she had failed Wheeler.

But she wouldn't fail this pacient too.

Anna was her pacient for the day. She had been admitted at the ED with two cuts on her wrist.

A suicide attempt.

Dr. Charles's words weren't successful with her, but Sarah on the other hand, had been able to get thought her and tried to connect, finding out that the main reason behind her suicide attempt was the fact that she'd been bullied at high school.

Her parents had trivialized the situation.

That was the first mistake.

Bullying should never, ever, be trivialized.

Otherwise it could end like this.

Someway (that Sarah couldn't still understand how) Anna had been able to sneak away from her room night time at the ED and without being noticed, get to the rooftop of Chicago Med, climbing up the edge of the building, threatening of jumping.

People saw it and the caos began.

In the meantime of Sarah being paged and making her way up, staff from the hospital, visitors and securities were gathered together a couple of feet away from were Anna stood. Dr. Charles were already there. Closer to Anna, whispering something that Reese couldn't hear but that unfortunately didn't seemed to be effective.

It took her a moment to consider her options at the situation.

But she didn't overthought it. She couldn't.

Not this time.

Dr. Charles had said once that she was intuitive.

She was taking that.

She made a sign silently asking for those who were there to step away from them, while catching Dr. Charles's eyes and trying to communicate.

Trust me, please.

He didn't objected, also stepping away quickly from Anna. Sarah took a moment to appreciate his total faith in her. That just made her want to do it right even more.

That was how she found herself climbing up towards the edge of the building standing side by side with Anna, but not actually looking at her.

Sarah looked down and all the blood seemed to drain out from her. She ignored the surprised whispers coming from the people that was watching them.

God, couldn't them just go away?

She recognized the cautious "Sarah" coming from Dr. Choi closer to her left, but again, she ignored.

Because Anna hadn't jumped yet.

All these people and all these minutes and she still hadn't jumped. Which meant that they still had a chance of telling her out of it.

Sarah forced herself to look at her.

That seemed to give Anna the confidence to speak.

"What are you doing?" She said with an alarmed voice.

"If you are going to jump, so I am." Sarah heard herself saying with a shaking voice. Clearing her throat, she took courage to keep speaking.

"Do you understand Anna? If you decide to jump out of this building, I'm going with you."

She tried really hard to ignore the shocking sounds coming from behind them but she recognized one voice that for a minute, made her question what she was doing and look back at the sound.

"Reese."

It was him.

Of course it was him.

Dr. Connor Rhodes was standing a couple of feet behind her with a hand up in her direction. His blue eyes carried so much worries and hesitation that Sarah didn't really understand why.

They weren't that close and despite the fact that they had been talking more since Wheeler's death, even sitting together sometimes at Mollys with their friends, she still thought that it wasn't typical of him to do something like that, for her.

But there he was.

He looked even more concerned than Ethan. Dr. Choi was standing alert close to him, and Sarah knew by his look that he was full of preoccupation but at the same time, his eyes were telling her that he trusted her.

Sarah smiled their way and tried to silently communicate, asking for space because even if she was absolutely touched (and a bit surprised) by their affection, she was still seeing the situation for what it was.

Because they were there for her.

But who was really there for Anna?

Her parents weren't there, Sarah noticed. Where the hell were they?

She turned her attention back to Anna. Who still hadn't jumped. Sarah noticed that Anna was now unsure of what was happening and that was good.

It meant it was working.

And hopefully Sarah was doing the right thing.

"Why would you do that?"

Sarah considered that for a second.

"Because we are in this together." Sarah gave her a sad smile and explained. "I believe that you have a great deal to do with your life and I would love to help you see it, but if you jump, that means I've failed."

Anna blinked at her.

Sarah didn't want to think of how much she was risking at that moment and how many psychiatric boundaries she was crossing by doing that but all she cared at the moment was Anna. Making Anna see that she wasn't alone.

Thing about feeling lost and hopeless, is that it can blind you to think that you're alone.

Sometimes you are alone.

But sometimes, like right now, you're just blind.

And you need to see it.

"You're not alone, Anna." Sarah searched her eyes.

A moment passed.

Everybody was so silent with hesitation and worries that for a couple o seconds, Sarah could only hear the whispers of the wind and small sound coming from Chicago in the middle of the night.

And then...

"I don't wanna jump."

Anna's voice was so quiet and shaken that Sarah had to ask again just to make sure that she had heard it right.

"I don't wanna jump." This time Anna said loudly, with more confidence. More sure.

Sarah, with a calm that she didn't knew were was coming from, nodded at her direction with a proud and warm smiled.

"I don't want to jump it neither."

Sarah didn't want to rush things but a the same time she knew that with every second more that it went by, Anna could change her mind.

And Sarah wouldn't take that.

"So you have to trust me now ok?" Reese said with a firm yet gently voice. With the corner of her eyes she saw two figures approach Anna, and with a second look she recognized Jeff and Noah. "We are going to help you come down to safety ok?" Anna hesitated, but nodded. "Good, look at me. Anna, behind you, there are Noah and Dr. Clarke. All you have to do is extend your hands and they will take you back ok?" And because she knew that Anna needed that, she added: "I trust them, so you can trust them too."

What happened next was so fast that not even Sarah followed. As soon as Anna moved her hands behind her, they were already taking her down and another nurse was coming with a sedative to give it to her before dragging her away from the scene and down the ED again with Dr. Charles following close by their side.

Some people clapped. Some people looked with disbelief. Some people went back to their duties like if nothing had happened. Some people stayed around whispering with each other.

But Sarah didn't really saw any of it.

Because as soon as Anna was out of her sight, she made the mistake of looking down again.

Chicago seemed like a infinite of lights from up there.

And all that Sarah could think was how the lights seemed to call her. Drawn her.

Sundely Sarah understood.

For somebody, with so much pain, so much loss, so much grief, the lights seemed to offer a solution.

A promise of peace.

It would be so fast. So easy to just let go.

And then the pain would stop. The grief would end.

Was it what Wheeler had thought?

Sarah herself could see the appeal.

But...

"Sarah, please."

That voice again.

For a minute she had forgotten that she wasn't alone.

But Ethan, Will, a couple of people that she didn't recognized was still there.

But what surprised Sarah the most was the look im Dr. Rhodes's eyes.

If he was hesitant before, now he was white with concern. He had two hands this time extended at her direction.

He looked right into her eyes.

Blue met brown.

She thought he looked like a little kid. So afraid. And she realized that maybe that was exactly how he felt.

Because his mother had jumped.

"Sarah, please, come down."

And then Ethan was coming closer, also extending his hand.

And Sara felt deared.

She felt loved.

And so she understood a big difference between the reason of jumping or not jumping.

Sarah had something worth living for.

She could see it.

She wouldn't jump.

So she stepped away from the edge, coming back to the safety of the hard ground and the warmth of Connor Rhodes hands as he helped her down.

Everything went by in a blur after that.

Sarah had to wait until Anna's parents got to the hospital, to explain what had happened to them, and then wait for Anna to come out of the sedatives so she could talk to her about what happened.

Anna was very confused, but she was able to respond to some of the questions Dr. Charles and Reese were asking her, and that was a good sign for now.

After that, Sarah excused herself to get some air and stepped out of the ED into the Chicago night. She noticed that morning was coming, and that meant that her shift was ending but somehow she doubted that she was going home and getting any sleep any time soon.

Because she wasn't feeling that good.

All the confidence, the technical thoughts, the acting mode was off now.

She knew that she had crossed a line.

And that would have consequences.

Speaking of that...

"Sarah? Goodwin is asking for you."

Came Maggie's voice from behind her. Sarah took a deep breath and without waiting to much, turned around to make her way up to the director office.

Maggie gave her a reassuring smile and squeezed her hand. "It's going to be okay, you did the right thing."

And all Sarah could do was nod.

"I don't regret it."

She heard herself saying as soon as she stepped into Goodwin's office, finding Dr. Charles already there with a unreadable look on his face.

"Pardon me?"

"I know I crossed the line. That what I did was totally against the rules and a huge risk."

"I don't disagree Dr. Ree..." Goodwin started but Sarah had not finished yet.

"I know that it could have ended bad and that it would be my fault but I acted out in instinct because I thought that it was the best shot I got and I have no intention of keeping this an habit, furthermore I wouldn't jump but I'm just glad that it worked and..."

"Dr. Reese."

Sarah had to stop her rambling when Goodwin's powerful voice filled the office.

"I understand." Goodwin told her, softening her voice.

"But don't ever put me or this hospital in this position again."

"I have no intentions to do it." Was all that Sarah could manage to say because she was too much surprised by Goodwin's reaction.

She was expecting a hard time.

But she got a understanding instead.

Goodwin dismissed the two of them after that and Sarah looked unsure to Dr. Charles direction waiting for what her mentor was going to say but he was already half way past the hall to the elevator.

"Dr. Charles?"

He stopped.

For a moment Reese tried to think of something to say but then he was turning around and coming towards her.

And then he hugged her.

As soon as it started it ended but he had hugged her. Like the day she had cried in his arms.

He could have called her off, disagreed with her, even start a discussion but he had hugged her.

Sarah suppressed the small voice coming from deep in her mind reminding her of how much sometimes she thought of Dr. Charles as father figure.

Something that Sarah never really had.

And then he left her there, marching towards the elevators direction without looking back. Reese knew that he was going to talk to her later. That it wasn't over.

But Sarah was a maelstrom of feelings at that moment.

And because she didn't know what to think anymore, she decided to take whatever she had right now and don't give it to much thought.

Because it had worked.

And for now, everything was okay.

On her way down the ED she met with Will and Ethan. And by the look on both of their faces, she suspected that they were talking about her.

And by the way that all the other staff from the hospital kept throwing looks at her wherever she went, it seemed like the whole Med was talking about her.

Will was the first to approach her.

"I'm just glad it worked." He gave her a tired smile and then rested a hand on her shoulder. "You did good Reese, you did good."

And then excused himself leaving her with Ethan's company.

Sarah thought of Ethan as a friend.

More than a mentor, a superior.

A friend.

Somebody who had stood by her side and helped her grow since the first day as a resident.

He was looking deep into her.

She gave him a little shrug.

Ethan gave a little chuckle.

"Why did you do it?"

Sarah considered his question for a second.

"Because she needed something to live for."

And then Ethan was giving her an approving nod and a warm smile.

"Go rest Sarah. We can talk tomorrow. For now, rest."

She met Natalie at the on-call room and because she had the same look upon her face, Sarah knew that despite the fact that Natalie journey had just began, she was already aware of what had happened.

"Hey Reese! I heard what you did."

She started. "I don't think that anybody here besides you could have done something like that. I'm really really glad it worked out and just wanted you to know that if you need to talk, I will be here."

Sarah and Natalie weren't exactly very close. They just worked together basically but Sarah knew that if there was somebody that would always offer a shoulder to cry on was Natalie.

Always friendly and kind.

But again, Sarah wasn't feeling to much talkative, so she just smiled back at the doctor and whispered a "thank you" before gathering her things to go home.

Because despite the fact that she was very thankful (and a little bit surprised) for all the respect and kindness that she was getting from her Med family, sundely she just felt like going home.

Alone.

Because since she had broke up with Joey, she was all alone.

But on her way out, after waving everybody goodbye and trying to ignore the looks that some people were throwing at her, she heard one more voice calling her name.

"Reese."

Dr. Rhodes voice lapped the worries and hesitation that it carried before. Now he sounded, and looked, angry. Mad at something that Sarah had no idea what it was but knew that it was now directed to her.

And that was everything that she didn't need at the time.

But she took a deep breath, adjusted her coat more closely to her body and waited for him to keep going.

Rhodes, that also looked like going home, dressed out of the hospital clothes, came closer to her.

"What do you think you were doing?"

He asked. Coldly.

"Excuse me?" Was all that Sarah could manage to say.

"I asked what do you think you were doing? Last night? Playing the hero?"

It took just a moment for Sarah to understand what he was talking about but she didn't had time to reply because he kept going.

"Do you have any idea how many lines did you break? How much risks did you take? All for what? Trying to save the day?"

This time he sounded more angry.

But Sarah was so tired.

She felt like she had jumped out of a building and survived.

How ironic, she thought.

So because she just wanted to go home, have a bath and drink some wine, she just shrugged before answering.

"I do, actually. But it worked. For now. So let's just go with it, ok?"

And without waiting for a reply she turned to go her way. But again, the voice stopped her.

"Go with it? So I'm just suppose to go with it? And then what?"

This time, Connor's voice sounded hurt. When Sarah looked back at him and found his eyes, Instead of angry, there was pain. And Sarah didn't understand why he would be feeling like that.

Until she did.

He wasn't mad at her. Or the situation. He was hurt because his mother had jumped.

And he didn't do anything.

Because he couldn't.

"You said it yourself Dr. Rhodes." Sarah gave him a sad smile. "We can't jump in and save everyone. It's just not possible. But we did save this one. For now, she's safe. So what I'm saying is that we should take this as a win and rest."

And then because she felt like it was the right thing to do, she added.

"I'm tired. What about you? Aren't you tired?"

Just like that, she saw Connor Rhodes's mask fall from his face, and for that moment she could see his pain, his grief, his tiredness, and something more that she couldn't read.

And he was looking at her like if he never really had saw her before.

"Yes" His voice was barely a whisper. "I'm tired."

"So let's go home. Tomorrow we can deal with whatever it comes." She tried to give him a comforting smile before turning to make her way to the train station to go home.

"I have a car." Connor said, stopping her again.

She turned and saw a glint of amusement in his eyes as his mouth tried for a little smile.

"Oh?" She smiled back, because when Connor Rhodes smile, you smile. It was irresistible, she noticed while trying to suppress a blush on her cheeks.

She failed.

He noticed and his smile just went bigger.

"Let me drive you home."

She could say no. That it wasn't necessary. She could take the train. Wasn't she feeling like going home alone? Wasn't that why she had dismissed Natalie's offer to talk? She should thank him and go her way.

Or she could accept his offer and let him drive her home. Him, this man that she barely knew despite the fact that they had been working together for almost two years now.

She wished she could know him more.

So she nodded his direction and accepted his arm when he offered it to her.

It could be her tiredness speaking, but it felt good.

Natural.

And so she let him direct her to the parking lot where his car was parked and agreed when he offered to get some breakfast before going home.

The night had been tough but it had worked out.

So now if she could enjoy a little time of peace with a familiar face, she was going to take it.

Perhaps she was needing company after all.

And perhaps so was he.