She died.
It was an irrefutable fact. Unchangeable. Undeniable.
And unlike what most living humans thought, there are no pearly gates, not never-ending fire, no lost souls… there's just nothing. Nothing but the feel of herself and how... weightless everything is. She couldn't feel her arms, her legs, her body, and her heartbeat.
There's just her, her very core curled on herself. A small piece of awareness telling her she's dead and there's nothing.
How?
She should've… could've.
She didn't know how long she was there, in the un-nameable place. It had tried to take off her memories, but she held onto them tighter, serving as her only comfort from the thoughts of nothing.
It's everything she has left. If she forgets and thinks of nothing then she'll become nothing too.
Days? Weeks? Months? Years? Maybe it has already been centuries. But she still held on tight, for her memories are herself. Her very being. Time may be a river that corrodes rocks and dirt but she'll be metal, intent on not losing herself.
She may not have had the perfect life, but it was hers and parts of it have been a treasure.
For an immeasurable amount of time she was a something in the nothing, drifting in and out of her half awareness. She didn't dream, but she could remember. She didn't feel, not 'physically' (for she was anything but that right now), but she was aware.
There was a prod.
She stirred. A whole part of her being moved. There was a push, and then a rush.
She remembers a sensation like this. It was as if she was back, riding a motorcycle again and speeding through the wind. Her heart beating fast as she wonders how angry her sister would be when she realizes she sneaked off with her motorbike again the month after.
Except this time the speed was much faster and it stopped before she knew it.
She slammed into another something, and then everything just felt so horrible.
Ba-bump.
There it was. An all too familiar sensation she could pick out among the rest.
Ba-bump
Her mind is spinning, ears were ringing, and she feels everything.
And then she finally realized it.
A heartbeat.
Ba-bump
She's... alive again?