So...
It all starts with a feeling.
Strong, passionate, full of power feeling that consumes bit by bit, inch by inch of my body.
This lil destroying feeling have a name.
She's such an angel, and she lives so close… right into my mind, in my dreams. And every time I see anything, any love song, any romantic movie that reminds me of my lonely stupid life, she comes to me.
She comes and I can hardly breathe. So anxious for her to show up the most real as possible, so I can dream a little bit longer, so I can trip over my own dirty thoughts and find myself out f this cruel reality.
It doesn't make the pain go away for a long time, you know… but is enough for me if I do it once in a while. I've been seeking her in every corner, every hug, every mouth, but seems worthless.
I wish I could have her… wish I could hold her and tell how much I want her… and no one in this world can live completely without her.
Her name is Certain…