NOTE: this is my first ever fanfic so i'm kinda not experienced...review this one and i'll make sure that there's more to the story...thanks
This Story Starts Off When Lily was killed...from veronicas POV
she was sitting at home, rocking back and forwards with duncan beside her...all she wanted was to be alone but she knew he had to be there for her and for him too...lily was gone...there was no going back. She wanted to crawl up and go to sleep but when ever she closes her eyes she see's duncan, logan, lily and her at the beach...having moments of laughter and sadness and now all that is gone..."duncan, you'd better go, your mum is outside waiting for you", veronica said slowly. He Got up at the same time veronica did but his purpose was completely different to hers, she got up because someone needed to be there to open the door and say goodbye, he got up because veronica told him to go home when all he wanted to do was to stay right were he was...with the love of his life. But he knew he had to leave, veronica needed time alone...so he slowly made his way out the door to the car.
2 hours later
"loagn????...is that you??...there was a knock on the door at about midnight. Veronica got up from the couch and opened the door...sure enough, there was logan. " i came by to see how you were...i cant stop thinkin about you", he said in a whisper. Veronica let him in and all logan could see was the t.v. playing lily's favourite movie, The Autumn Girls. logan sat down were veronica had been moments ago and asked,"How are you?? are you doing ok??".
"Yeah i'm fine"she said glancing at logan, he looked up,"Are you sure??"
"yes i'm defintely sure"she replied although she wasnt sure if logan knew she was lying or not.
"i cant stop thinking about you veronica, it's driving me insane", logan said while he stood up and started pacing the room looking at veronica
"Logan, you know that duncan and i are still together and i know that you love me and i'm not sure that we should be doing this...you need to go home...you shouldnt be here!!!", said veronica very fast
"We both know that you love me and that we're suposed to be together, not you and duncan...i'm not sure that he knows what he wants at the moment...so why dont you just cut it off?"
"i'm not cutting it off just because you want me too...i love him and he loves me...i know that when we are like this we need time alone", she said this with a stern voice and it almost seemed real.
"fine...but i just know that you and i are meant to be together...not him and you", logan said when he sat down next to veronica, she gave him a look that meant leave and she wasnt kidding. Logan read her mind and then said," i'm not leaving until you accept that you love me more then you love him", By him he meant duncan, the only person who knew what it would be like to love veronica mars...to be with veronica mars...to feel what logan had felt towards veronica for so long...logan and duncan had been friends since birth...he went back to reality and then veronica got up and opened the door,"Leave please, i dont love you more then duncan and i dont think i ever will, i'm sorry..."
"okay, i get it...i'll see you 'round Ronica" he said finally, realising that it just wasnt going to work and then left without any more words to her.
school on tuesday
Veronica walked into Neptune High and found wallace and his girlfriend Jackie sitting at her table with their arms around each other. She walked over and then wallace realised she was there," Heya Supafly!!, seeing the look on her face he added,"Whats up??"
"Nothing", she replied,"Apart from fighting with logan and duncan!!"
"What are you doing fighting with duncan?? Hes your boyfriend remember", He said sarcastically.
"well it wasnt really a fight, it was more like 'get outta my house' thing but instead i think we're just going to be kinda avoiding each other from now on...",she sat down and started to finish the homework she got for journalism(she had that class 1st period).
"Well i hate to break it to you but he's coming this way", wallace said as jackie left to see a teacher about an assignment she had to do."Damn it",she whispered just as duncan said,"Hey Veronica, umm...", looking at wallace and everyone around he added,"We need to talk...now".
veronica got up and asked wallace if he could mind her things until she got back and then walked off with duncan towards the only vacant spot in the whole courtyard. "Veronica,"he said once they got out of earshot with everyone," i dont think we can see each other anymore...it's weird...and i need time alone to think and to be with my friends...not my girlfriend..."he looked at her and she didnt look like he thought she would, Veronica added with a smile," i knew it...'we need to talk'...who says that anymore without meaning we're through?? Duncan, i know why your doing this and i dont think that we can be together anymore either...i was losing all the passion i had for you...i need to move on, thank you for giving me that chance without hurting you", and with that she walked away without another word to her now ex-boyfriend.
she sat down with wallace and explained what had just happened and he added," damn V, you need to go get a piece of paper and write this shit down for me, i'm having trouble keeping up...oh there's the bell, we'd better get to class",checking his timetable to see what he had and suprisingly enough he had maths. they said their goodbyes and veronica walked into journalism only to find that logan saved her a spot next to him. She thought "How Pathetic, he saved me a seat". She took it without warning that duncan was watching her every move.
at lunch
Veronica and wallace were talking about the next basketball game that was coming up and joking about how veronica and jackie were going to be wallace's cheerleaders when logan walked over and said that they, meaning veronica and himself, needed to talk really bad."i thought that talk with duncan would've told you that i'm so not in the mood to be talking right now!!!",stated veronica, turning to logan and looking into his eyes...oh...she thought that they were the most gorgeous eyes that anyone could ever have and she could just melt in them.
"Ronica, please i just need to tell you what i have to say...please?", he pleaded.
"Fine, but only five minutes maximum", She said as she walked away with logan in front. "okay", she said, when logan stopped and turned around,"Your five minutes starts now".
"I know that you dont love me but forever i have wanted you and duncan to break up so that we could be together...it's finally happened but one thing is missing...you dont love me...veronica, i've loved you since the day i met you...the way you say things, the way you look...everything", he took a breath and went on," i know that somewhere inside you know that you do love me and that we're suposed to be together and that i was right all along...", he said, takng a breath and waiting for her reply.
"Logan, i've just broken up with my boyfriend and he's your best friend, how do you think your going to get along with him as your best friend and me as your girlfriend, It wont work, trust me", veronica tried to state the obvious but she didnt think logan was going to see her point.
"I just wanted you to know that i love you know matter what happens", said logan as he walked away to join the other 09ers.
Tuesday night
why couldnt she stop thinking about him...his eyes...his hair...his lips...she needed to tell him how she actually felt and she needed to do it soon. she picked up her phone and stood there thinking about what she should say...it wasnt easy, saying that logan was right all along and that she really did love him and not duncan...she didnt have a clue on what to say so she put the fone down and walked into her room...it was a typical teenage room with posters and a bed and a desk, maybe a couple of posters here and there. she sat on her bed thinking about the next day. what was she going to say to logan. she pulled off her shirt and put on a tank-top and her boxes... stood by her bed and thought...oh my god...he knows he's right...he knows...damn it!!! and with that thought she layed herself down and closed her eyes to the one thing she didnt want to see...Lily's body...it was everywhere, then it was replaced with logans except he wasnt dead...noone was...duncan and nicole were together and lily and justin were together and all veronicas friends were happy for logan and veronica to realise that they were meant for each other...then BANG!!! Veronica woke with a start..someone was in the house...what time was it she thought. veronica looked at her clock and saw that she was late for school, she got up and herd someone in the kitchen. "VERONICA, where are you??", logan shouted, veronica opened the door and asked very sleepy,"Logan, what are you doing breaking into my house???".
"You werent at school with your friend, wallace, so i came to look for you", he said as though nothing would be better then seeing her again. Veronica looked at him and said,"wait, you came here to check on me??what happened to your girlfriend, Holly, or whatever her name is??"
"ahhh...well do you really wanna know the whole story or can i cut it short???",logan asked veronica while she stood there looking at him.
"Lets try the short version, then i'll go get dressed and have a shower and you can then tell me the long story on the way to school, okay?", she told him the plan and then moved to the kitchen to start having breakfast. she offered logan a peice of toast as he started the story. "well...",he started", i told her that i hadnt seen you around and then she asked me if i cared that you were at school or not and i said ofcourse i care and then she asked me if i cared so much that i would come looking for you and then i answered yes and she cracked and said fine then, go and find her, we're through...and then i came looking for you, long story short!!", he finished and took a bite out of his toast, smiling at veronica.
"Wow, thats a really short sweet story you got there, are you sure you really wanna wait here while i have a shower because you could be doing better things you know??!!!", veronica replied with a sarcastic voice.
logan, who was watching her every move was quite happy to sit there and wait for her so he said,"nah i'm cool, i'll wait",smiling as she left the room.
veronica wasnt quite sure that she wanted logan in the house while she was having a shower but she could trust him so just after she turned off the water to the shower and dried herself with the towel, she could hear someone else's voice...oh no weevils voice, thats the one she could hear. She quickly got dressed and walked out to see that weevil had let himself in because she could tell that logan wasnt exactly going to be happy about him being in veronica's house. "Hey my friend, what do i owe this great pleasure?" veronica asked weevil as she glared at logan. He caught the glare and at once meant that he should keep his mouth shut, he did as he was told and sat down staring at veronica and weevil in turn. "i was just checking that the PCHers havent come after you too, they got me", she saw that there was a big red mark on the side of his face and he had a black eye."ahhh...so that would explain everything...they came to see me last night,thats kinda why i'm soo sleepy",She pointed at logan,"and they said they were looking for you and they wanted to know where Jase is, Who is jase???", she asked weevil while checking that her hair was fine in the mirror. "He's a friend of mine, big in the drug business and he owes them a small amount of cash so thats probably why they were looking around". logan checked his watch and said,"Come on Ronica!!".
"i'm coming", she yelled out of the bathroom while she checked that her eyeliner was good,"Weevil, i' still dont understand why you came here. they know i dont want in on everything from drugs to your bikes so can you please go, i need to talk to logan before we go...", she added thanks as he closed the door and left.
"You want to talk to me???Oh no this cant be good, veronica mars wants to talk to me...scary thought", joked logan as veronica sat opposite him on the couch."Look, i like you logan, nothing anyone can do is going to change that and i think i've known it for a long time but i dont think that we would last very long so i'm not going to go out with you, hook up with you...you know the rest, but i do like you, i think it's just the whole lily thing thats been going around that makes me feel like i need someone...", veronica said while playing with her hands infront of her...not daring to look at logan.
"You see veronica, thats the thing...i love you, i always have and i think i always will but you think it's just a fling, it's not like that", he said still not looking away from her eyes." We better go, There'll be no point in going if we dont hurry up".
Wednesday after school
veronica was walking past weevil and one of his group friends and she caught weevils eye and winked. a cheeky signal to tell him that she knows something he doesnt. she heard him say bye to his mate and he ran up to meet her walking outside into the courtyard. "So whats new veronica?", asked weevil as they stopped next to weevils bike."Oh nothing much, just catching out people who should be behind bars but their not...the usual".
"Well why did you wink to me??", he asked with concern in his voice.
"because your friend jase doesnt want the PCHers to come after him...turns out that he wants the PCHers to come after you...so you have to start picking your friends wisely mister...!!!". as weevil put his helmet on.
"Listen, dont get caught up in this, i dont want you to be hurt", added weevil and with that last word of hurt he drove away.
veronica thought about going to Mars Inverstagations but then she thought about how nice the beach is this time of year and the beach got the better of her. she walked about 5 pacees and heard logan yelling out to her to stop. she did, only to find that everyone was looking at her and logan."Veronica, where are you going??", asked logan. "why is it any of your business to find out where i go after school is finished?", she asked. logan smiled at her and answered her question," Because i wanna come".
At the beach
logan was stating the obvious...if they went out or even held hands in public the whole school would know by friday. thats the way neptune is, you do something and then the whole town will know about it within the next couple of days or faster. they walked all the way down to the end of the beach just talking about how life would be so awesome if lily was still alive. Veronica could tell that logan couldnt do this with any other person, it had to be her or it would never come out.
"I love you veronica", he whispered into her ear as she watched the waves forming."Logan, you do know that we cant be together, it would be against everything i've worked for...and plus you've been there for me when noone else has which makes it worse",she said as she laid her head on logans lap and he started stroking her hair."why does that make it worse?? Just because no one else has ever appriciated the way you are and who you are...!!! You need me, i need you", and with those words he bent down and kissed the top of her head as another wave forned.
3 hours later
"Veronica, wake up! We need to get going...the stars are coming out and you look really tired...come back to my place and we'll watch a movie or something", logan said just as veronica started to wake up from her nap.
"Sorry logan, you should've woken me up, not just let me sleep on your lap...and the answer is no i cant go back to your place, i need to get home, We're not going out remember, i like you and you like me, thats all.
"ok ok i get it, but your not driving home, i'll drive you", he said when they got up.
"fine fine but your not coming inside, ok", laughed veronica as they started walking the long way down the beach. As they got to the cars veronica noticed something was wrong with logan...he had been quiet all day through their classes together and he was alone at lunch, she had forgotten to ask him about it when they met up about 4 hours ago.
"Logan, whats wrong?", She asked as he started the car,"you seem different today, quieter...if that helps".
"Umm...nothing", He lied.
"Tell me, its not like it's gonna hurt me", veronica stated.
"I'm going out with Ashley", he said very quickly.
"Your WHAT?", she felt heart broken.
"I know i should've told you earlier but it just didnt work out and you were falling asleep and i didnt want to wake you",he said,putting his hand on the wheel of the car and turning it.
"Logan, I thought you loved me and not anyone else", she told him, holding back on the tears.
"I do, but i figured why wait when your not wanting to be with me back so i asked her and she said yes",he replied as they drove down the main street of neptune.
"okay, just drive me home...",she said slowly. they didnt talk to each other for the rest of the car trip and logan could tell she was hurt, badly. Once logan drove into the drive way of her house and stopped the car she got out and slammed the door without saying thank you or goodbye, and she stormed inside.
NOTE:Sorry Its soo long but i didnt know where to finish it. i'm going to start a new chapter after this.