Chapter 1 Regret
by Ariadne
I regret many things along my dark path I tried to fly and fell down into a pit of despair and desperation literally as well as figuratively I do not regret many things uther's death, for instance, he was a tyrant worse than those he claimed were evil I know Merlin or emrys has regrets too but I choose not to forgive because than hate would leave me and I would float away with nothing to hold me down when I find out Merlin's true name tears threaten to overwhelm me but I will not cry I will not show weakness regret or remorse I manage to hold myself together till I reach my room as soon as I am inside the door though I collapse once or many times I had a chance for redemption and I didn't take it if I could go back I would change things but it is too late now no more second chances it is too late for me to change if I were to go back to Camelot I would be executed my only chance now is to go forward I am sorry Merlin, there is no other way, not this time I know what you meant all those years ago I can't help but wonder if you had told me of your magic would things be different indefinitely I think maybe if I think hard enough I regret how things went but it is almost over now I jumped from impossible heights and I can't get up and so I shall put on a face and hide behind a mask.
I regret nothing