Moony: One shot...my first try at angst. Please R&R. I need to cry. Song fic My Immortal by Evanescence. Playing with my kitten DOES NOT continue
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
Ray was leaving the Hotel... Kai had died of cancer 3 years ago but he wouldn't leave Ray's mind. And he was afraid that he couldn't go on with his life... he was afraid... afraid of spending his life alone...with only the memory of his lover... and nothing else.
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
"Kai..." the darkness didn't answer... it would never answer. "I wish... that you would leave me alone, but you don't..."
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Ray looked at the wounds in his arm... he made them in an attempt to suicide... he didn't manage to thought. And it pained him to think of it... he knew it was Kai's doing that Max just decided to go right into his room when he was with deep cuts. The doctors had arrived in time and he cried... for not being able to depart... to go away... to get to Kai...
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
It was still fresh in Ray's memory... the night of Kai's death.......... Kai was lying down in a hospital bed, his heart beat was slow and fading... he started crying... Ray wiped those tears away....
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
Ray went back to the hotel after visiting Kai's gravestone. He fell asleep........................ Kai is right behind me. I turn away and see his bright smile... he leans in and kissed me. When we pull away he says good bye and stabs a dagger in my heart....
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Ray went into the bathroom. He grabbed the knife and before it made its final mission he wrote in the mirror: To Kai... Right then the knife cut his troth