Title: Expired Anti Hero
Fandom: Total Drama
Rating: T
Genre: General/angst
Pairing: None
Warning: mentions of dark interpretations of human nature?
Disclaimer: I do not own Total Drama, unfortunately.
A/N: when asked about Chris the TD guys said something in his life messed him up and turned him into the sadist he is today. So this story is still in the canon.
Expired Anti Hero
There's a certain kind of jerk people love to romanticize. The bad guy with the heart of gold and a tragic past, who just wants to be loved, Chris McLean was not that kind of jerk. He knew fans ate up Duncan's punk turned soft shtick and Gwen's cynical, but secretly hopefulness. Hell, he'd even seen fans for Heather pop up after her downfall in TDI, a tragic hero in the making! He wasn't an antihero. He was a good old fashioned villain. And that was fine with him, because 99.9% of the time he loved to play his role. At this point in his life he'd perfected the art of shutting down empathy, boxing up sympathy and killing those boring traumatic flashbacks, because all those things kept ratings down. He loved being the worst of the worst in Total Drama.
Most people would think that anyone who gets his kicks torturing a bunch of kids is fucked up and, they'd be right. It's just, nobody stopped to think that maybe somewhere along the way, and he didn't start like this. That maybe his parents never loved him or beat him or that he was the guy in school that got shoved into lockers or that money was tight and a jobs a job right? Or maybe that he was just young and eager with no idea that life would beat him down, cause showbiz is brutal. Or maybe, just maybe, somewhere he learned that the one reality in reality TV is that it shows our true nature: People are not kind. People are vile and disgusting. Friendship is just another term for convenience. Love is fleeting and only lasts as long as you can keep smiling under pressure.
Maybe in the beginning the sadism and narcissism was a mask, a defense. Maybe he tried to wrap his arms around himself, love himself before anyone else, because no one else would. And when the lies and the betrayals and fake smiles got too much, he tried to love the game, to love himself more when someone should have. Maybe somewhere along the way that defense wouldn't come off and he learned to love this dark reality (because you can't go on any other way). And flash to 10 years later than 20 and the person who he is now and the person he was aren't even the same species. Chris McLean isn't a villain; he's an antihero whose story started too late. He's an overripe fruit, a too old grape sour and rancid thrown into the fridge with the apples and bananas. He's Spreading mold to whole buffet. He can't turn back now and not to end on a cliché, but hey, every great TV show needs a good old fashioned villain.
Endnotes:
Dear lovelies, thank you so so so so so much for reading this piece of crap! If you enjoyed it or have any constructive criticism let me know!