Forever??? ( In more ways than one )

Forever. What does that mean really? Is it a word that everyone takes seriously, or is it just a loose term that people like to throw around? For me, I would like to believe that people do not take words like forever, love, and never for granted. Sadly though, to most people they are just words. Such was the case in the story of my life. Well, it's not just my story and it doesn't begin at the beginning like most stories. Oh no, there were plenty of others involved as well. This is the story of my friends and I, Pan Son, as we began our journey of growing up, the hard way.

It's hard to know just where to begin exactly. I have lead such an eventful life, one that has been filled with much love, pain, hardships, excitement, and hate among other things. I suppose to give an accurate tale of my life I would need to start at the beginning without actually having to relay every detail. The basics should be enough along with a few specific memories. Ok. Here goes…

I was born about a year after my father, Gohan Son, and mother, Videl Satan, were wed. My father was a Z fighter. When he was 11 he saved the world from the evil Cell. But even such a great victory came at a heavy price. His father, Goku, had to sacrifice his life to save the world because my father let all of his powers go to his head. I'm not sure if dad ever quite forgave himself for the death of his father. My mother is the daughter of the famous Hercule Satan, who actually took all of the credit for beating Cell. When I first learned this, I couldn't understand why my dad's family let this happen. But apparently, they did not want all of the attention, so it was a good thing. My mom began to fight crime and help the police out when she was just a young teen. This is how my parents met. They fought crime together. My dad is also the legendary Great Saiyaman. I suppose I've always had a lot to live up to. I guess for most of my childhood I grew up like most children in a normal environment. My mom and dad were both college professors, so we had a decent income. Besides that, my mom's family is rich. However, my whole life began to turn upside down when I was about 12.

I always remembered Vegeta saying that a Sayian bond was forever. There's that word again. I guess he was wrong. Or maybe he was right. My dad is only half-sayian, and my mom is fully human. So I guess the bond wasn't as strong, or maybe it was. Maybe they were only deluding themselves. I guess all that is beside the point though since they are not together anymore.

I remember it like it was yesterday because it was the day my new life began. I had just got home from school. I was going over to Bra's house to work on an assignment that we had with Marron too. It was for the science fair, but I had forgotten the project board at my house. I decided it would only take a few minutes if I just flew alone to get it.

I walked in the house. I guess my mom thought I wouldn't be home til around dinner. I didn't even know that anyone was there. I heard some sounds coming from my mom and dad's room though. So thinking it could be an intruder I made my way to their door. I felt for ki's and I sensed two that were spiking. I found it odd that I could only tell one of them, my mother's. Since it was my mother, I just went on to my room and collected what I had come for and left. But on the way back out, I heard my mom call out another's name. Now I was curious. I was only 12, but I was friends with Bra and she had told me quite a bit about a lot of things and I wasn't naïve, so I was pretty sure I now knew what was going on. I wasn't sure if I wanted to see for sure or not. I had always trusted my mother and I wasn't sure if I was ready to have that destroyed or not. But I figured it was best to find out now rather than later. So slowly I pushed the door open only to reveal my mother making love to someone I had seen her with at one of her universities fundraisers. I knew he was a fellow teacher. My mother is in the middle of intimacy with someone other than my dad. I was shocked, angry, and disgusted all at once.

"Oh my God mom, what are you doing?" I couldn't help but say something. The man and she broke apart and she started to panic. I could see the fear and guilt in her bright blue eyes.

"Uh, Panny, what the hell are you doing here?" she asked quietly.

"What am I doing here? What the hell are you doing here? And I don't mean why are you in the house? Why are you doing this?" I asked as I started to freak out. I was so incredibly pissed off at my mother that I just ran from the house and blasted off into the sky before she could attempt to answer.

On the way to CC, I couldn't help but burst into tears. How could she? Didn't she love my dad? He is so gentle and caring. I knew he wouldn't be able to handle this. I didn't know what to do. I knew my mom probably wouldn't tell him and I didn't know whether or not if it was just best to tell him or leave it be. I had to talk to someone. Even though Bra and Marron are my best friends. The person I really go to for advice or just to have someone listen to me when I have a problem is Trunks.

Trunks. He is the absolutely wonderful and not to mention gorgeous President of CC and the brother of Bra. He has also been the secret object of my affection for years. But for now, with the age difference and all, I was just glad to have him as a best friend and confidante.

Forgetting about the science project completely, I felt for Trunk's ki. He was alone in his office. Good. I had gone to see him before while he was in his office. I can't help but smile at the memory. Usually he's asleep at his desk. If his mom were to ever catch him asleep while he is supposed to be doing his paperwork she would probably make him go and train in the GR with Vegeta. Trunks has slacked off a bit on his training so maybe I should tell Bulma about him falling asleep from time to time. Nah, he probably wouldn't like that too much.

I open the window quietly and slip into his office. I must say it is a nice office. He has a huge desk, a couch and some comfy chairs, a television, mini fridge, microwave, and other things to make it easy to stay in the office all day without having to leave. If I had a couch to lay on, I wouldn't be sleeping with my head on the desk like Trunks is now. He looks so much younger and innocent when he's asleep. I guess I should leave him alone but I really need someone to talk to.

"Trunks."

He must be out. I guess I'll just have to speak up a bit.

"TRUNKS"

"Huh, what, who?" he asks very disoriented.

I can't help but giggle a little at him. He's been slobbering all over his arm and his hair has been ruffed up quite a bit.

"Sorry to bother you Trunks, but I really needed to talk to someone that I could trust" I say to him quietly hoping he isn't upset that I came into his office. But why am I worried, he usually seems happy to see me.

He quickly brightened up and looked a bit more alert when he realized who it was. "Oh hey Pan-chan. Glad to see you. No, it's fine that you're here. Actually, I've just been so bored that I kinda fell asleep" he said sort of sheepishly.

"Ha, ha, well if you weren't Bulma's son she might have to fire you for sleeping on the job," I say kiddingly.

"Yeah, that's what she says too. So what did you need to talk about?"

"Well I'm not sure how to say this exactly. But first off, you promise not to mention this to anyone until I know how to handle it.

He gave me a worried look, his lavender brows knitted in confusion. "Sure Pan, you know you can trust me."

"Yeah, I know. But this is just so hard for me, so I wanted to be sure," I said a little uneasily.

He could sense my frustration, so he walked over and pulled me into a hug and I just let the tears flow.

"Trunks, my mother is having an affair with a guy from her work," I choke out. "I walked in on them."

"Oh my gosh Pan, I am so sorry," he says. I can hear that he is genuinely upset. Gohan was like an older brother to him, and Videl had become like a big sister to Trunks and my dad's younger brother Goten. I knew that Trunks was just as confused as I.

"So have you told anyone else, or do you think anyone else knows yet?"

I think for a moment. "No, unless someone else walks in on them later, I think you and I are the only ones that know."

"Well Pan, to be absolutely honest, I don't know what to tell you to do. I can't believe Videl. I just don't see how she could do this to Gohan. Have they been having problems lately or anything like that?"

I thought long and hard about it before coming to the conclusion that "No, I never noticed that they were having any problems. I mean, I've never seen them fight. I guess they could. If they do, they hide it from me."

"Are you planning on telling Gohan about what you saw?" Trunks asked.

"Well, I'm not sure. That's one reason I wanted to talk to you. I wasn't sure about whether or not to tell dad. I doubt mom would just tell him and I think he deserves to know. She had no right to do what she did. Dad loves her to death. You can tell every time he looks at her. This is just going to kill him but he deserves to know, I think."

Trunks sighed and said, "Yeah, I suppose you're right. Well if you need any help telling him or if you need someone to talk to again about all of this, just let me know." He pulled me into another embrace and I rested me head on his shoulders knowing that he meant every word he said.

"Thank you Trunks. I knew I could count on you," I told him. It was times like this that I realized just how much I really loved him. I knew he loved me too, but it was purely on the platonic level. I was just ecstatic to have such an incredible friend. Hey, who knows? Maybe he'll care about me the same way I do for him someday.

"Well, I guess I better let you catch up on your sleep, erm, I mean work." I grinned as I walked over to the window that I had come in through.

Trunks laughed a little. "Yeah, my little nap put me behind. I guess I'll see you later. Yeah, you still have to finish your science thing so you'll be over at my house sometime. I'll talk to you later. And remember what I said about talking. I'm always here for you Pan-chan. Remember that always. Good luck telling Gohan. Bye."

With a little wave, I was off. Hmm. Just how am I going to break the news to my dad. I guess I should maybe have a talk with my mom first despite the fact that I'd rather not speak to her right now. But I suppose that would be best. Maybe I underestimate her. Maybe she'll have some sort of explanation or at least a reason. Maybe she'll tell dad herself. I guess I'll just have to see.

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Ok. That's it for chapter 1. This did not turn out how I meant for it to. Hopefully, that's alright though. I meant to start it off when Pan and everyone are in college, but I decided to kind of have some history leading up to that. That will all still be in this eventually. I can't believe I wrote all this in like 30 mins. It was kind of a catharsis for me. Well this is my first fanfic so don't be too mean to me. Yeah, Yeah I know. It's all in Pan's pov. I'll make it 3rd person for most of the rest of it. I just did it this way cause most people's 1st person stories aren't all the way through the whole chapter so I just did it to be kinda different. Oh well, read it and tell me what you think. Thanks.