Prompt: Every day, I need you more and more, and every day, you push me further away.
Alexanders pov
I walked into my house, everything was silent, Eliza must have been out. I walked up the stairs into my office,
"Angelica!" Angelica was sitting on the window seat, looking out the window that overlooked the city.
"What are you doing here?"
"John was on a trip so I thought I would visit you all," She tore her gaze from the window to smile at me. I walked over to the window and sat down by her.
"This room is a mess," Angelica said turning to me with a sly smile on her face.
"I call it organized chaos." I retorted with a smirk similar to hers. She let out a chuckle.
"How have you been?" I asked, it took her a minute to respond
"Eliza is happy," I was confused by her answer,
"Are you okay, Angelica?"
"Fine,"
"Are you telling me the truth?"
"Maybe,"
"Angelica, you can tell me anything,"
"I know."
"So why won't you tell me?" A tear slipped down her cheek, I raised my hand up to her face to wipe it away.
"It's not important." I looked at her worriedly,
"Angelica please tell me what's wrong." She turned away from me,
"How is work?" She asked me
"Stop trying to change the subject" she stood up and walked over to one of the many stacks of books, brushing off the thin clutter of dust, and began reading the covers. I stood and walked over to her grabbing her hand and putting it into mine.
"Angelica, please." She pulled her hand out of mine and crossed her arms over her chest and walked back to the window.
"Every day, I need you more, and more, and every day, you push me further away," I said. She turned to me
"If you want to know so badly Alexander, I am not happy, I am not fine,"
"Please tell me why."
"I loathe London, I never want to go back."
"Why?" She lifted her eyes off the floor to look at me
"I don't think John even knows, or cares, if I'm gone."
"I thought he was on a trip," I said as I took a step closer to her
"No…"
"I thought you loved him,"
"I never married him because I loved him, I married him because I had to. To upkeep the family status, to help both of our family's really…" She had again casted her eyes down to the floor, I took a step closer to her. "I can't have any meaningful conversation with him, he doesn't understand what I'm trying to say. He is awfully boring, I know he couldn't care less about me- "
"I care about you," I said interjecting
"I know," she said as she looked up at me with a slight smile. I pulled her into a hug, she rested her head on my shoulder and I placed my chin on top of her head. She wrapped her arms around my waist, and I placed my hands on her lower back. We stayed like that in conformable silence, until Angelica broke it.
"There is one other reason I do not wish to go back,"
"What would that be?" She pulled away slightly to look into my eyes, repositioning her arms to my neck.
"You aren't there." I pulled her closer and she stepped closer, I gently put my lips on hers.