Title: What Have I Done?
Plot: Ted's view on the series of events that took place in A Shot in the Dark
Warning: mention's of m/m relationships, mention of suicide
Disclaimer: I don't own anything!
I never meant to hurt you. You of all people should know that. I promised you love, Cody and I meant it. I meant it when I promised to stand by your side even though I was scared of what my father would think. Along the way I made mistakes but I always meant my promises.
It started out small, Randy would get frisky and bite me on the neck. I pretended it was you, not him. When I called out for you he would get even angrier than normal and he would hit me, leaving bruises. I saw you look at them and pretend they weren't there. I wanted to tell you the truth but every time I would try, Randy would show up. I was so afraid of him that I kept silent. Afraid that he would hurt the one thing I cared about, you.
It all built up to what happened on January 21st, 2008. While you were working out, Randy grabbed me from behind. He yanked my shorts down and…and…god! I was so scared as he raped me! He just kept pounding and pounding over and over again. When I heard the door open…well…I knew it was you and I knew what you must have thought. In my mind, you were the one bringing me to the brink of oblivion.
I hear the rumors today. That Cody Rhodes is sitting in his locker room in the dark crying. I run as fast as I can to get to our room. To get to you. When I finally do reach our room, I try to open the door. It's locked. I should have figured that if you were going to cry you would lock the door. I check in my pockets but I have lost the key. I slam my fist as hard as I can into against the door. "Open the damn door Cody!" I shout. But I get no response. I slam myself into the door again and again and again until I get it open. I enter as swiftly as I can. I hear the gunshot and I see you with the gun against your temple. As you slouch, I catch you in my arms. Your dead. God your dead and it's all my fault! I bury my face into your chest and I know that no matter where you are, I don't deserve to be by your side.