'I'll be fine. Go to work' I whispered to my mum as I lay curled up on the sofa.
'Rose, darling' mum sighs 'you can't keep mulling over him forever'
'But forever is how long I promised I would stay with him and thinking about the memories I had with him is the only way I can kind of keep that promise'
I snap and with that mum leaves to go to work for the twenty-second time after I had been sucked into this parallel universe.
Forever, such an easy word to say but such a hard promise to keep especially to someone who can live thirteen times the length you can.
Even though the Doctor only had four more regenerations after I left it was still long enough to outlive me by a long shot.
If only I could have told him how much he meant to me. If only I could. That's all I want. One last chance to say… oh it would sound silly. And even I could would he say it back? Would he be aloud? Would he want to?
One chance is all I would've needed to find out, but forever is a long time to mull over one last chance. Forever can pass our lips without thinking about it and then you spend forever thinking about it.
Forever. He asked me how long I would stay with him and I said "forever."
Now forever is how long I will spend thinking about him. About my one last chance that will never come.
How I should've told him three words. Three simple words. That can and will ring in your head forever.